Life has been pretty good lately. :3

Except for one situation.
Like, you know, calling a certain person to talk, then he says he doesn't want to talk to you and hangs up on you. Yeah. :/
But other than that, life has been great.
I'm a happy Caroline now. c:

PROM WAS AMAZING
There was only one moment where I was upset, which is pretty good. ;P
Everything was amazing. Everyone looked amazing. ;DD
Sammie and I got there a bit late, but when we got there, I saw James, and he hugged me and said I looked great, then I told him he looked spiffy. *facepalm* x3
So much happened, and the food was surprisingly delicious.
I danced my pants off, was soo fun, everything was just so hilarious.
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Now I'm eating pasta; Linguini. ;3
Now I'm gonna go to Ottawa and shave Aria's head. and chop off his toes.

Meowmeow.

I didn't go to school today because I had a doctors appointment.
And it went very well, if I do say so myself. c:
I talked to the doctor for over an hour.
I didn't think it would take that long. o.o;
When I got home, I emailed Aria, since that's the only way I have to message him, since my mother threw out my calling card...
Hopefully he emails me back. D:
Now I'm having a Harry Potter Marathon. C:
I'm still watching the first one, but I'm planning to watch most of them tonight, then going to see Harry Potter: Deathly Hallows part one later tonight with Hannah, for her birthday. C:

*thinks*....*goes to steal Hannah's calling card* ;D

Life is boring.

And dumb.
And pointless.
The end.
:/

Lights. :D

Yesterday was the best night of my life, seriously.
My life= made.
Sammie and I waited in line for over two hours.
But it was definitely worth it, because we were basically at the front of the stage.
While in line, we kept laughing about everything.
Then the boys from Michou came out and handed out balloons.
They are so cute x3
Michou is kinda like extremely amazing.
Their songs are awesome. :3
And they are ultra cute.
we met the drummer, and the trumpet guy x3
we got pictures with them, ;D
Right before Lights came on, I almost died, I was so excited.
Then when she came on, I couldn't stop smiling, she's so friggin pretty, I mean gorgeous. ;D
She played Second go first, then Lions, and I forget the rest of the order, but she also played River, Drive My Soul, The Last Thing On Your Mind, Pretend, Face Off, Saviour, Romance Is, Circle Games, and Cactus in the Valley. She also played The Bed Intruder song. ;P
I took a lot of videos, but my singing ruined most of them. :/
I kept screaming things out to Lights, like "I like your face" and random things like that.
She's the kinda person that just ignores things being yelled out ;P
After she was finished, we went out to the merch table, Sammie bought a shirt, and I got a poster and a wrist band.
Then we met Michou, then went outside, because Lights wasn't signing. :c
I wanted to meet her so badly. T_T
When we went outside, I saw Stephanie. :D
When my dad picked us up, we went to McDonald's, and got chicken nuggets.
Then when we dropped Sammie off, my dad started yelling at me. D:

But nonetheless, it was still the best night of my life. :)
I hope she's coming here again soonish.
I know she's in Toronto tonight, and next wednesday she's in Ottawa...
She said at her concert this is her last tour for awhile, and then she's gonna work on her next album. :D
Fucking love her.
And Michou rules, check them out. :3

fuck life, that is all.

I had a really good day at school. Like, really good.
Classes were pretty good.
I talked to a boy whom is nice.
We had a buy out, so I bought a ticket, only because I didn't want to go to religion. But I stayed the whole day to go to musical theatre.
I sat in the caf with Joey, Lydia and Ivy for a bit, then everyone else came for fourth lunch, and it was super fun.
I played angry birds or something on Joey's broken iPhone, then I kept screaming, and it was just good times.
We played Planet Hollywood and Hide and Go Seek in musical theatre. So fun.
Then I stayed for Science Olympics, which was fun. Spencer broke the ball of awesome, though. D:

It all went down hill when my dad picked me up. :/
I was supposed to get my prom dress, but my dad came with me for some reason, we ended up didn't getting anything cause my dads a butt head. And I just got really angry.
I got home and took a nap.
Which is why I can't sleep now.
And then of course I just had to get into another huge fight with Aria.
We get into a lot of fights, but they usually just fix themselves.
This time, it's actually all over.
He hates me.
He blocked me from msn, and facebook. Again. And won't talk to me at all.
I was surprised he even answered his phone after that, we talked for twelve minutes.
Basically him saying how he just wants me to leave him alone, and he's been in a bad mood lately and I just don't get that apparently. And how he's always going to be mad at me and there's nothing I can do to fix that.
I really don't like crying on the phone, but I couldn't help it. I probably sounded like a baby.
The conversation ended by me apologizing 387587 times, and he said "well if you're sorry then leave" so I said fine, and hung up the phone.
I pretty much said everything I wanted to say to him, well, sort of. Not really. But I said enough. I obviously didn't say the right things because he still hates me.
I just don't get how two weeks ago he was sooo nice, and loved me, now he hates my guts and never wants to talk to me again. This clearly isn't me, he's just weird. :/
I just hate how everything just got so bad all over again.
I guess all I can do is give him space. But I really don't want to give him space forever, cause I really just can't bring myself to let him go completely...
*sigh* everything is just so bad D:

Except Lights concert tonight o.o;
fucking stoked.
*goes insane*

Yesterday was really strange.

So I went to Sammie's around five ish.
Then waited at her house for like an hour, chillin with her siblings.
Then we went on a crazy long adventure, to get up the mountain, which took like two hours.
We were supposed to meet everyone at Tim Hortons, but we found Quinn and he wanted us to stay with him.
Well we ended up meeting Dom, Chelsey, Joe and Aaron at Tim's, then we got in Aaron's van, and it was really awkward, cause I could tell I wasn't wanted there.
Like, I wasn't even invited, I just kinda tagged along.
And then we picked up Narcy, and at that point I wanted to stab myself in the head.
It was crazy awkward cause it was me, Sammie, and Narcy in the back. ;P
Then I was texting Aria with Sammie's phone, and we got into this huge fight, and I wanted to cry. D:
We kinda just sat around in Joe's basement, and since we didn't get any food it was even more weird.
Everyone probably though we were ignoring them or whatever, but I just felt awkward, and I could tell I wasn't wanted there, so I really just wanted to leave.
So we did. And went to Quinn's. Plus, he offered us chicken. And I love chicken.
I still felt unwanted, cause I was still worried Quinn and Chelsey hate me o.o;
And all the Aria stuffs was really bringing me down. :/
Chelsey, Sammie and I got on the bus at like 12:40 am ish, then there was this drunk guy who was basically telling everyone on the bus his life story. It was rather entertaining.

Well, Sammie slept over, and stayed here until like 5 ish, we just chilled. :3
And watched figure skating championships. It was kinda super funny.

Now I'm just angry, and wanna kill the world.

And I don't know what's going on anymore. o.o;
Aria's no longer mad at me, which is good.
He was just in a really bad mood yesterday, cause apparently he got jumped and beat up lolol
I basically just made everything worse.
But everything is good now, so yay.
And there's this other person who has just been confusing me.
Like, I don't know what's going on.
I try talking to him, then he's just like "...........yea" then goes offline o.o;
Like, I don't know what I did.
But it just seems everyone basically hates me now. :/

And now I have my dad yelling at me about friggin everything.
I want to die.
UGHHH ERJHTGRW,KJTNTULYK

Sammie is a wonderful friend.

A wonderful friend who leaves me alone in her house with her sister.
While she goes to a boys house, because I'm not fun enough for her.
Right when I get here, she ditches me, because this boy told her to leave me. So she did.
Now her sister won't leave me alone. *facedesk*
Oh look, now her brothers in here, YAY
lololol someone kill me now.
Or save me, either one works.
OH MY GOODNESS SHE'S BACK.

My old friend Tom just added me on facebook. 8D
YAY

So, everythings been kinda confusing lately x3
The two people I asked to prom won't go with me, and then there's this other person, and uhm, yeah, Idk, things are confusing, and I just don't know. skrjferjgrgkrthj

Lights concert in four days. 8DDDD
Kay, apparently we're going to Joe's now o.o;

lololololololololol.

So Spencer convinced me to go to prom.
So now I really want to go.
But Aria's being a butt and no longer wants to come with me. :/
And I am suddenly so desperate LOL
I know getting a date for prom isn't a big deal.
But I still want one. x3
I've never really like, wanted a date super bad before.
So I'll either convince Aria to come with me.
I mean, I still have two weeks right?
So he better come,
but if not, then I have a list of people I'ma ask LOL.

Anyway, off to buy onion rings, ttfn. 8D

Bleeeeeeehhhh.

I'd like to think that if you wanted to talk to me, you would. But you haven't, nor will you.
The reason I always talk to you first, is because if I don't, then I know we won't talk at all. And I really just want to talk to you.
So I'm not going to message you first today, and see if you'll talk to me first. Cause if you do, then I know you'll want to talk to me.

Fuck, why must you be such a confusing human being?

My eyes are leaking D:

So my sister bought The Last Song today,
and I just watched it.
I really didn't think it would make me cry this much. D:
I basically cried the whole last half of the movie.
I'm so emotional now x3
I feel like crying forever.

Why am I always feeling so lonely?
*deep sigh*
Stupid feelings, I hate you *stabs*
You're ruining everything.

*cries*...
Fml. :c

Also, I'm not exactly sure what happened, but I'm so glad everyone's alright. o.o; ♥

All I ever wanted was for you to look at me, and know I'm all yours.

A lot of strange occurrences have been happening lately.
Like, I don't even know what's going on in my life anymore.
Life is confusing.

This is the fourth time in two weeks I haven't gone to school D:
It's not gonna be the same as before.
There's just a lot going on right now, and I really don't feel like being around school people.

I won't really talk about what has happened, cause it's a lot and personal stuff,
but I will talk about what's happening soon. :3

November 17-
Lights concert!
With Sammie.
I am soo stoke! :3

November 26-
I was excited about this day because of prom, but I decided not to go now.
But Aria ish coming here for the weekend,
and I am so excited!

Kay that's actually it xD
Those are the only things I am looking forward to as of now. :)

I'm gonna go lay in bed and cry forever, alright, have a good day.

Lool why did I agree to this?

So I'm all sick now, so I didn't go to school again.
And I just agreed to help Aria with his Writers Craft.
Why I did this? I have no clue.
He has to write a journal thing, and I told him I would help him with it.
He gave me the topics "A time you had to do something you didn't want to do" and "Autumn"
I'm not even creative, why am I doing this? x3
To be honest, I have no idea how I'm supposed to write this loool
Anyone wanna help me write about autumn? x3

...

Why is this happening? D':
Second day in a row I've been worried out of my mind.
Worst day of my life, seriously.
Honestly, I just don't know what to do anymore...
*cries*

I have never been so worried...

Usually when I worry over the fact people don't respond, I'm basically always wrong, but still think the worst.
That happened last night, but it ended up being true.
I was so worried that I broke down and cried for an hour.
And I stayed up really late waiting for him, so in the morning I felt really sick, so I just stayed home.
I'm really glad you're okay. D:
You don't even know how worried I was...
And you have no reason to be sorry, don't be sorry, I'm just glad you're alright. :c

Oh and it's my mommy's birthday todai. :3

I'm stupid.

Mhm, it's true. :c