Ohey Clara 8D

So, Clara is beside me, and I love her.
We slept together today, as in, had a nap together ;P
I went to her house today at around 9 am, and we walked around the school with Shayla, Erin, and Natasha, twas fun. :3
Then we ended up going to Jacobs and chillin there for a bit.
Now we just finished eating, and we're just talking to people.
We watched the first bit of West Side Story. ;P
It made no sense to me, but that's okay x3

I would just like to rant about a few things, if you don't mind, Clara?

I dont mind ♥ :D I LOVE YOU... btw, your capitol o is still being stupid. D=

Looool I know, it's ghey.
Anyway...

Rant #1
You're so immature, you're making this so confusing and difficult. You make no sense. Why can't we just be friends without random problems? Seriously, stop being so stupid. How come we can't just talk like friends or hang out with out everyone causing so many problems (thank you Clara for finishing my sentence for me♥)

(Side note from Clara: Isn't listening to Adam Lambert kind of making it difficult to be all angry and rantish? Cos I have that problem all the time. Kay, back to you, Care! ;D)

(Thanks Clara ;DDDD I love you)
We decided we're gonna wait until the end of this song to rant, cause Clara won't stop singing.

Rant #2
You are a liar faced butthead.(I know that's a great way to start, Clara ;D)
You only see things from a "special point of view" which is yours. And won't allow yourself to see things from other people's perspective. You may not mean to lie, but you do so waaaayyyy too much. Everything would've been okay, and not so dramatic, if you didn't make it that way, you never let anything go, and all you do is cause waves. Enormous waves. I don't get it. But if we were surfers, it wouldn't be bad, but that's not the point. We're not surfers. It is bad. VERY BAD. (Clara thinks we should all become surfers now. :3)
PROVOKE YEAAAAA you provoke...me? you provoke others into starting fights over...meaningless shit. I want ten thousand dollars. :c
But yea, you bother me. A lot. You're a butt. :C

Rant #3
I really want ten thousand dollars. I'd buy Clara anything she wanted. And no, we won't sell our kidney's, even though it would be enough to go see Wicked. (y)
If I had ten thousand dollars, I'd buy you a monkey (haven't you always wanted a monkey?)
;DDDDD
Sadie's a cone head.

Rant #4
CLARA IS ALWAYS CLEANING MY HOUSE NO MATTER IF I TELL HER NOT TO. CLARA STOP THAT.
But I still lvoe you with all my heart. ;3

Olive you.

In my head I replay our conversations over and over until they feel like hallucinations. You know me, I love to lose my mind. And every time anybody speaks your name I still feel the same. I ache, I ache, I ache inside.

Just some stuff that's going to happen soon, or might be happening, IN LIST FORM!

1. School tomorrow to pick up timetables and what not. Still need to fix it. :/
2. Hang outs with people after
3. go home to do my hair ;DDDD
4. Help daddy and Quinny at Laundromat on either Wednesday or Thursday.
5. Possibly hangouts with Eric, Clara, Dom and apparently Narcy on Thursday x3
6. What's going on Friday? I don't remember :/
7. Help move Hannah to Toronto♥

And I think that's it. ;P

School starts next week, and there's a whole bunch of stuff after that that be going on.
Like becoming a clown.
Apparently I have to be a clown now, just so Eric can brag about it. -.- x3

Apparently Aria might be coming to Hamilton in like, two weeks, I hope he does! :3
That excites me. ^-^

I should sleep now.
HOLY CRAP! SLEEP AT 11? THAT'S A FIRST IN LIKE 4384587468 YEARS! D;

Well, night. :3 ♥


I should of known better than to give you my only heart.

I love Chelsey Cole. ^-^ ♥

cђelsey, says:
IM SHO HYPER OMGAWSH
kankowski. says:
;o
YAY
cђelsey, says:
OMG DKLSGSKDNGAS 8D
kankowski. says:
HAHAHAHA
i think we should have a non sleepover.
LOL IT MAKES SENSE 8D
cђelsey, says:
LMAOOOOOOOOOOW WHAT I DONT GET IT
kankowski. says:
looooooool
the thought process of this: i want to see chelsey, we should hang out right now at 2:20 am, we could call it a sleep over but not sleep
8D
cђelsey, says:
OMGAWSH
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND
HOW GENIOUS THIS IS
kankowski. says:
YAAAYYYYY
cђelsey, says:
but i cant has non sleep over right now :c
kankowski. says:
D:! how comes?
cђelsey, says:
IF I WALK ANYMORE TODAY MY LEGS WILL FALL OFF MY BODY
:c
kankowski. says:
WHY
cђelsey, says:
i walked so much today :c
kankowski. says:
D:!
I'LL RUN TO YOU
KAY COOL
cђelsey, says:

OMGAWSH
i coulf just imagine you jumping through my window
lke right now
like*
kankowski. says:
LOOOOOL,
cђelsey, says:
could*
LMFAO
like in scott pilgrim
but he jumps out the window
to get away from someone
so i guess its not the same
xD
kankowski. says:
but it's still jumping through a window
cђelsey, says:
EXACTLY
kankowski. says:
YEA
cђelsey, says:
OMG MY MONSTER IS ALMOST GONE
kankowski. says:
NOOOOOOOO
I WANT ONE
cђelsey, says:
D;
i dranked it :c
kankowski. says:
atleast you tasted the deliciousness of it 8D
cђelsey, says:
MHM ^^
kankowski. says:
anonymous me asked stefan if he was gay on formspring 8D
cђelsey, says:
LMFAO
kankowski. says:
HEY
HEY
HEY
HEY
CHELSEY
HEY
HEY
CHELSEY
cђelsey, says:
HEY
CAROLINE
kankowski. says:
HEEY
cђelsey, says:
YEAH?
kankowski. says:
GUESS WHAT
cђelsey, says:
HEY
HI
WHAT?
kankowski. says:
I LIKE YOU
KAY
AWESOMNE
'YEA
WOOOOO
cђelsey, says:
YEAH
ME TOO
WAIT NO
I LOVE YOU
3
KAY COOL
<3
kankowski. says:
YAAYAYYAYAYAYA
I LOVE YOU TOO
LET'S GET RE MARRIED?
<3
cђelsey, says:
OMGAWSH YAY
YEAH! LETS DO IT HOMBRE
kankowski. says:
AWES0OME
LOLOLOL
REDGIES FAT
LOOOL
cђelsey, says:
LOL LETS LAUGH FOREVER AT HIM
LOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLL
thats for redgie
kankowski. says:
LOOOLOLOLOLOLOL
cђelsey, says:
LOLOL
I DONT KNOW WHAT WERE LAUGHING AT ANYMORE
kankowski. says:
NEITHER DO I
LOOOL SADIE
cђelsey, says:
HAHHAHHHAH
LOL SADIE
LOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLL
@ SADIE
i love sadie
kankowski. says:
I love sadie too



This legit makes me laugh. ♥

Dear you...

I was young and caught in the crowd
I didn't know then what I know now
I was dumb, and I was proud
And I'm sorry
If I could go back do it again
I'd be someone you could call friend
Please please believe that I'm sorry.


If I wrote this myself, it would be more sincere then is now. ^^;

I love random incidents that involve the police. ;D

So I was just chillin at home, and my dad just randomly leaves, and asks if I wanna come with him, and he basically said there's a fight at the lauindromat, so me, still in my pjs, run out the door and jump in the truck. 8D
there was no fight, but some black gangster guy threatening people.
So my dad called the cops and they were there for awhile.
I hate police people. They're so intimidating.
I ended up staying there for another like two hours -.-
Well my sister just made me this huge omlette, mmmmmmm *burps*
it's gone now ^^;
Soon we're going upstairs, so I can help Hannah pack for college. She;s leaving in like six days and she hasn't even started o.o;
I was supposed to hang out with Sammie today, but I'm still all sick-like, so I stayed home almost all day; sorry Sammie D; <3

I's now waiting for Quinny to come online, cause he's cool.
And I love Clara.
and everyone else.

I go help Hannah now
*sneezes*

My msn got stolen alot today D;

so my sisters fiesta was dang fun. 8D
I don't feel like giving so much detail
but Quinn and Chelsey came.
And at first, we were just chillin, and they stole my msn, and were talking to evey guy i know, well Quinn was.
They were both talking to Aria, as you ca see from the previous post.
Bahaha too funny.
Also, like half an hour ago my cousin Sydney, who's thirteen, stole my msn and was talking to Eric, and Quinn, then started talking to Narcy. looooooooooool. i love her.
anyway, i'm at the laundromat now, but now i go head, kayb ye.

Genavive

i love you so much :D
from chelsey cole ♥

we started talking to aria :3
this is what happens when caroline leaves her msn open for quinn..

8D


$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says:
Rofl wrong person? x3
kankowski. says:
no ;3
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says:
Lol how am I sexy?
Btw, you're picture is pretty damn sexy
kankowski. says:
mmm thank you ;D
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says:
Anytime.
kankowski. says:
i love you<3. ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Rofl. I love you too? x3 kankowski. says: yay 8D ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Lol. Hyper? kankowski. says: maybe ;D ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Happy? kankowski. says: yes happy to be talking to you ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: lol I see. Uhmm happy, hyper. Whats another word that starts with h? lol kankowski. says: horny nononononono im kidding ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Rofl. Horny? kankowski. says: no ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Lmao kankowski. says: i was kidding ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: UHMMM kankowski. says: all the way ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Oh, hypnotized? kankowski. says: Yes by your beauty ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Rofl Harmonic? kankowski. says: ohyes ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Uhmm Oh how could I forget this one x3 High? kankowski. says: yes on love for you ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: lol But seriously, whats up? kankowski. says: my dick ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: I bet ;3 I have that effect on women ROFL kankowski. says: you have dick growing effect on women? 8D oh baby ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Lmao So what are you up to? kankowski. says: talking to you <3. hby? ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Talking to you and dana. kankowski. says: wonderful<3 ·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says: Indeed. Oh and shen and mac via text but shens pissing me off and macs high as fuck So I guess they dont really count x3 kankowski. says: why be shen pissing you off yo?

I don't know what to do D;

I have so many ideas in my head right now,
I'm just so inspired,
but I have no way to get it out!
I just wrote down at least six ideas, but I have no camera to portray any of them.
This is bugging me.
I need a new camera soon, or I'll go crazy.

There's a few songs/bands that just inspire me to take pictures, like Until June. ^-^
You should all listen them; they are great. :3

Well, once I get my new camera, I'm going to need help from a certain few of you ^^;
I have a few ideas for shoots that I've been thinking about for awhile, and I thought of a few specific people to help me with certain shoots. ^^;
And if you really love me you'll help me out. 8D


I fell inlove with foolish things, I fell away from me, and now you're gone.

Tomorrow. :3

So tomorrow we're having this BBQ at my house.
Even though it's not even a BBQ, because we're having tacos and chicken fajitas apparently O.o;
Well, we're having this fiesta because it's a going away party for my beloved sister, Hannah.
She's going away to college in...not even a week D:
*sniff sniff* I'ma miss her. D:
JUST KIDDING 8D
LOOOL
I will miss her, but it'll be much quieter once she's gone xD
Well I was allowed inviting a friend, cause it'll be boring for me.
Even though it's my family there, and apparently, according to Hannah *I'm* the guest of honor xD
But everyone's going to be so focused on Hannah that I'ma be alone.
My daddy basically told me to invite Chelsey and Quinn, so I did. :3
And since they's no longer mad at me (at least I believe they're not D:)
They be coming tomorrow :3
I'm uber excited. AND I JUST SPILLED MY MONSTER T_T
Well yea, I'm really excited for tomorrow, even though I'm kind of sick. :c
Been sneezing like crazy lately.

well yea, the end.

A few things that were actually good about yesterday.

1. I met some sick ass clowns. :3
2. Jeremy The Bug messaged me back♥
3. Clara is a good friend who comforts me while I cry to her on the phone for 52 minutes.

That's basically it.
Everything else that happened is now on the "Reasons why Caroline is going to kill herself soon" list. (y)

It's just simply like this;

I'm a horrible person.
I'm a horrible friend.
That's it. :c

hawhawhaw

"Redgie's so fat." -Me
"Call him a butterball"-Hannah
"Redgie, you're such a butterfuck."-Me.
8D

♥

// Quinn \\ ChelseyCole says:
because you hate me
kankowski. says:
i do not hate you
i love you
a lot
// Quinn \\ ChelseyCole says:
sure ;C
kankowski. says:
I LOVE YOU
MORE THAN REDGIE
AND SADIE
PUT TOGETHER
AND THEY BOPTH HAVE MUSTACHES
BECAUSE I LOVE MUSTACHES
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ALL THAT WITH A SLICE OF PIE
NO
SCRATCH THAT
3485895345 PIES
GOT IT?
// Quinn \\ ChelseyCole says:
yes maam o.o
kankowski. says:
yea, you better say that
// Quinn \\ ChelseyCole says:
HAY
thats my catchphrase
kankowski. says:
well i borrowed it

Well that was interesting o.o;

So I was in my room upstairs, playing ddr.
I was doing pretty well.
And all of a sudden, I look out the window, and see Dom, then Joe, and then Eric. And his dog. :3
So I start freaking out, go insane.
Yell at my mom asking them why their here x3
so I put on my sweater, and run downstairs.
Dom says that since I said I wanted to fix things between us, they decided to come for a visit and fix things.
I not only was completely out of breath from ddr, but completely nervous, so i felt like i was gonna be sick.
We talked about everything, and they each got out what they wanted to say.
Since I have trouble actually speaking to people, I barely said what I wished I did.
But whatever.
I think we were out there for like..two hours o.o;
I legit don't even know, but whatever.
They basically said everything they needed to.
And I completely understood.
They got off topic abit, but that's okay ;P
They said one thing that actually made me laugh.
All I'm gonig to say about this is, all that was going through my mind, is that it already happened. D;
But I'm dumb, so what can I say?

It took a lot of convincing for them to believe that I apologized to Joe for the beach thingy, that we actually looked for them, and surprisingly that I don't even like Stefan o.o;
It's funny they think that thoguh, cause I actually like someone else. But that's irrelevant.
Anyway, so I believe we're all good now 8D
We fixed everything, now we're all friends again.
I just can't start anymore unnecessary drama D;
We even had a group hug, which was kind of awkward, but that's okay loool
Not even going to lie, I wish they let me come with them :c
cause I'm legit so bored.
but whatever.

the only thing that bugged me is they didn't let me finish explaining what's up with stefan and me. not saying anything is going on between me and him. but i've been trying to fix things with everyone, including him.
my list of people to fix things with includes, Joe, Eric, Dom, Stefan, and Narcy.
I got three out of five down. I told Stefan I would like to hang out soon so we could talk and what not, hopefully that actually happens.
I don't think I'll be able to fix things with Narcy, even thoguh I don't know what I did to him, he still hates me.

I'm glad everything is good between me and most people though. :3

Maybe I should sleep now...or not.

It is 5:16 am, and again, I can not sleep.
I'm a tiny bit tired, but I can't sleep.
Stupid summer, messing up my sleepy pattern.

just cause I'm super bored, I will write about what I did today.

-woke up at 2ish, by getting yelled at by my dad over the phone.
-biked over to the laundromat, just to have my dad meet me there, even though he told me to go there to fix the machines
-went to McDonald's with Hannah
-stayed at the laundromat for multiple hours.
-watched Degrassi♥
-went to the store and bought ice cream
-chilled
-complained about the hatred of my best friend. :C
-Texted Le Stefan
-ranted about how stupid Stefan is.
-talked to Quinn and Chelsey
-Love Quinn and Chelsey
-drank energy drink at 3 am
-kept texting Stefan
-complained more about Stefan
-Read lines for musical theater
-planned to take a shower but didn't (i will soon)
-still waiting for Stefan to text back o.o;
-wishing someone would come online and talk to me D:

damn..I hate Rhianna. Like, fuck. She's so annoying :/
I hate that thing she does with her lip. fuck.

I actually have no freaking clue, but I THINK I might be hanging out with Stefan tomorrow o.o; errrr today.
I told him I wanted to talk to him, and I'm pretty sure he agreed to such things so, yea. I just don't really know, cause he never gives a straight answer. But whatever.

ohey Katy Perry ♥

i listened to her new album on YouTube, dang it it's good :3
I like her song Firework.
Makes me happy.
And "The One That Got Away"
YAY!

*yawns*

Redgie is fat. Like extremely.

Earlier, when I was texting Stefan, I had to leave my dads cell in the other room, well, just cause LOLL
so I told Sadie to tell me whenever he texted back.
And she did good work.
Cause every time I walked in to see Sadie, there would be an unread text. 8D

I love Chelsey. A lot. She's my wife. And I love her. A lot. I already said that. But I love her. A lot. ♥

AND QUINN'S AWESOME SAUCE
(but he doesn't like talking to me any more)

I really should go take a shower soon.
Hopefully before 6 am.

I hope Stefan texts me back before 7 at least o.o;
cause my dad will flip if he gets a text from Stefan.
He'll be like "Why do I keep getting texts from all these people? It costs so much money, please stop yatta yatta yatta"

I got all mad earlier, all over again, cause it pisses me off that people still can't let things go. I mean, that happened like, two months ago. It's over. I don't care anymore. I got over it, so should everyone else. It isn't even that big a deal, a lot of people lose feelings for someone. So, grow up, and get over it. I don't even get why you're the one who won't let it go, since it has nothing to do with you.


narcyscutewhat


okay i'ma go take shower then collapse in my bed :3

btw i love Lights.
And I'm legit excited for the Hedley concert in October.
I will legit cry if I don't/can't go.
I need to see Lights. :c
And I love Hedley.
And I'm also excited to see These Kids Wear Crowns.
They are actually really good. ♥
BAAAHHH LIGHTS♥



Okaybye.

Narcy's a disease? what? D:
apparently there's a lot of disease or something that start with "narc"
narcoma
narcomancy
narcomania
narcomaniac
narcomaniacal
narcomata
narcomatous

this is entertaining. LOOOOL

why am i doing this?

i must sleep ><
stupid Caroline *hits self*

*sigh*

I don't want to lose you...
But I know I am...

:C

o.o;

So I'm at the laundromat, and my dad just called, and the first thing he said was:
"Why is Darcy texting me?"
"Wait...who?"
"Darcy, or marcy...or whatever his name is"
"Narcy? What's the number?"
"Uhh it ends with 500 i think"
That's Stefan..."
"Oh, well he sent a text saying 'Yes.'"
"Oh..okay :3"

Looool I sent Stefan a text at 3 am
It's funny how he replies like right now.

*goes to diary blog to rant*

Loool wow. ;P

So I was really bored, so I went into my sisters room, and started throwing markers at her.
I then jumped on her, and then started drawing on her.
I drew smiley faces and hearts and random stuff like that.
She then grabbed a marker and wrote "Narcy <3" down my arm. D:
So I wrote "Lights" on the bottom of her foot.

Here, I took a picture:
(don't mind my ugliness)



I kind of hate her. xD
I must go wash this off now.

Before I can find my voice, I need to hear your voice, above all the senseless noise.

Stop the world, I need some time with you.♫



I miss you. D;

Please don't go...

All those arrows the threw, you threw them away.
You kept falling in love, and then one day.
When you fell, you fell towards me.
When you crashed in the clouds, you found me.
Oh, please don't go.
I want you so.
I can't let go.
For I lose control.
Get these left handed lovers out of your way.
They look hopeful, but you, you should not stay.
If you want me to break down and give you the keys,
I can do that, but I can't let you leave.
Oh please don't go.
I want you so.
I can't let go.
For I lose control.
♥


I typed all that out, because, well, I'm feeling really down, and I miss him. T_T

Well this sounds familiar.

OH MY GOODNESS DEGRASSI♥
I love Eli.
He is a great character. :3

Kay so, Eli, Adam, and Clare are all good friends.
But Eli and Clare just started dating and Adam feels left out.
Because, well, Eli keeps ditching Adam for Clare.
Now Adam's chillin with Fitz(the scary bully guy)
And stuffs about to happen.

I'M SO EXCITED FOR THE NEXT THREE EPISODES!

Jim Povolo♥

The many faces of Jim Povolo! 8D







LOOOL I love him so. ♥

Legit best dream ever.

So basically everyone was in it, and the dream was, simply, we all went to see A Very Potter Sequel. 8D
The best part, was I met Jim Povolo in my dream 8DDD
That's pretty much it, but it was great :3

:C

If Lights wasn't on the television right now, I would be very mad.
Wait...she's not anymore. :C

It's not like I'm mad, I'm just sick of this.

The movie of my life.

So, I realized, if I made a movie of my life, it would be pretty crazy.
And I started thinking of who would play who, so I asked my sister, and this is what we came up with. (but mostly her)
Me- Either myself or someone o.o;
Quinn- Michael Cera.
Hannah- I forget xD
Chelsey- still thinking about it
My dad- Arnold Schwarzenegger
Stefan- Landon Liboiron
Eric- Miranda Cosgrove (O.o; don't ask, Hannah makes no sense xD)
Narcy- Either Enrique Iglasias(♥) or the guy who plays Zane from Degrassi xD or he can be himself ;3

I realized, if Narcy were to be played by Enrique Iglasias, then I wanna be myself. Or even if he was himself, I'd still wanna be myself. LOL

That's all I could really think of.
If anyone can think of who they would want to play them, just comment it, cause this is actually fun to think about. 8D

One rule: Someone has to be played by Munro Chambers, just cause I seriously love him. 8DD


*Edit: SCREW IT, STEFAN'S GONNA BE PLAYED BY JIM POVOLO 8DDDDD

sadface. D:

Been feeling extremely forgotten lately, but oh well.

I went to my grandma's house today, to see her and my cousins.
Brieann didn't go, cause she'd rather go hang out with her friends...:/
So I Spent time with Ben and Sydney, they are ten and thirteen...D:
Whatever, they're fun.
The pizza was almost two hours late, I was so angry, cause I was starving.
I was supposed to go to their house to watch Diary of a Wimpy Kid with them, but my uncle wouldn't let me, cause by the time it would end, it'd be super late, and I'd have to walk home.Oh well.

I guess I'm gonig to Alisha's party tomorrow, I'm just not even sure if I can, but I'll try. I should, cause it's not like I have anything better to do. I was supposed to hang out with Quinn, but he's hanging out with Chelsey now...whatever.

*sigh* and now Quinns offline.
I think he hates me.


I'll go die now.

LOOL I'm too funny. xD

"You can be Scott Pilgrim, that person can be Knives, Chelsey can be Ramona, and I'll be Wallace!" xDD

I love Scott Pilgrim.

"I love you"
"I think we need to break up"
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

People in the laundromat must've thought I was insane, cause I literally Lol'd.

lolololol.

It's like Degrassi turned my life into a show. ;P
Cause Eli is ignoring Claire and she doesn't know why, so she's trying to get closure, but he still won't talk to her.
Sound familiar?
Yea.
Only difference is, she gets closure, I still haven't. D:

I can still hope that it'll one day work out though...right? :c

Yesterday while I was watching the newest episode with Hannah, the teacher person was like "A friendship can crumble over the stress of one person wanting more than the other." or something like that.
And after she said "Getting closure is never easy" and then I said "amen." and Hannah laughed at me.

I love Eli ^-^
"When I'm around her, all I can think about is getting her to kiss me." D'awwww 8D

Looool this makes me laugh.

http://tweetphoto.com/10732949

It wouldn't let me save the picture for some reason so look at it. ;P
But It's a picture of Lights at a laundromat.
And it makes me laugh cause it looks exactly like my dads laundromat.
But it's not. :c
Even my dad thought she was in his shop. lolol
I'd die if Lights was just randomly at the laundromat o.o;

;o

My daddy got a new truck today!
Awesome :3 ♥

I hate my life.

How come it's the nice people who always get hated for no reason?
Like...I'm about to scream/cry/go on a murderous rampage.
I hate Stefan.
What did he do exactly?
Blocked me from EVERYTHING
FOR NO REASON
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH
EDRCRFHJJWFCJK
DRFCXKJRFYHBFWRGT
TEBVYIU
ECF'/FMLHKYR
WHAT THE FUCK
This isn't even fucking fair.
It doesn't even make sense.

If only he believed me when I said I was just trying to be his friend :/

I don't even know what to do now.
I did absolutely nothing, and he completely blocks me from Facebook, Twitter and who knows what else. This is actually ridiculous.

Urrggg I hate him so much. ><

Where's Quinn when you need him most? D:

rkjgvtrkgtjyter ♥

So, I just re-found a singer, whom I'm absolutely inlove with. :3
His name is Greg Laswell.
And his songs are the most amazing things I've ever heard.
(Other than Lights of course x3)
I really suggest you check out some of his songs.
They make me feels things.

"I should know better by now
Then to pick up that God damn phone
But I don'tAnd it's almost been a year"
Wow...D:

Not going to lie, in almost every one of his songs, his lyrics hit me in some sort of way, and make me feel like I'm about to cry. Like right now. They just make me think. And miss him...

"Wish I could pull you down today,
From that storm high up that's taking you away
What would you say to me?"

"If I could write out my own dream
For the next time that I sleep
You'd be the first one that I see
And I the last one that you keep
The dream would go on and on
While we sway"

*deepsigh*


And I'm sure that I am tangled up in things you said out loud to me. So recklessly, And it's easier to sing the things I wanna say to you, So I'll sing, you're losing me my love, You're losing me my love, Are you losing me my love?

Waiting for Elizabeth.

I'm just waiting for Elizabeth to come pick me up.
Cause she can drive and all. ;3
I miss her. ♥

I went to see Scott Pilgrim with Sammie yesterday.
It was sooooooo good.
I got so confused, but whatever. x3
Then we went back to my house, got home at around 11:30?
I REALLY wanted McDonald's. So we went. At 12 am.
Fifth time in three days. T_T
FUCK I'MA GET SO FAT!
Then we got home at around 1. and went in the hot tub for three hours LOL
It was crazy good times.

Kiss me ki-ki-kiss me, infect me with your loving, fill me with your poison. ♥

My moms been so angry lately, even ask Sammie, like, crap, she's scary. She was drinking wine at 3 am :/ whatever.

Stefan's song Orange is still stuck in my head :/
Mix the colour orange, nothing rhymes with orange, care to share an orange?
LOOOOL

I think Elizabeths here. 8D
wait that's my dad LOL
I should just go LOOOOL

I LOVE QUINNY.

Kay that's all. 8D

Ohey Quinny.

I love him. I spent all day with him and it was fun. ♥
We found the song "Closure" and it makes me so sad. Like I almost started crying, and he comforted me. :3
Quinn so smart.
"Consequinny" i think that's how you spell it.
quinn wants to be a billionaire.

Stefans song "Orange" is still stuck in my head. grrrrrrrrrr.

I've went to mcdonald's three times in two days. I'ma get so fat.

Quinns singing is sexalicious. His word, not mine.
I finish now.

The song of my life. :c

Where did you go?
Where have you been?
I need to know. You are my friend.
Did I do something wrong to hurt you?
Left in the dark now I am blind.
Suffering from burn out and brokenness.
Ill go back and retrace my footsteps.
Ill do anything to hear your voice
And see your face again.

I wish we could talk now
Now that it’s over.
I see that you moved on
But I need some closure
It’s weighing heavy on my chest
It’s all that I have left
I know that it’s over,
But I need some closure.

It’s been a year
Not one call from you
I heard you moved on but what should I do?
See all my friends tell me to let go
But I can’t to get you out of my mind
Pacin’ back and forth just wondering
Why this chapter in my life had a sudden end
But now it’s too late to hear your voice and see your face again.



I love Clara.
And Shayla.
But not Scott.
:)
I'M JUST KIDDING.
Don't leave, Scott....D:
<3
Clara found Waldo.
Just like I found Scott. ;o

Claudia says hi... like three hourss ago, but she still says hi.

typing like this is pretty weird guys. im typing over two coke cans O.O; its odd... i cant really knock em over cos their full.. one of the coke cans is now gone so i can typie... their boith gone now yay i can type much easier! though the mouse is moving by itself. and my elbow was in shaylas face. :3

now its not.

Thanks a lot.

You don't even understand what you do to me.
I have never been so angry in my life.
If only you could see how you made everything worse,
you ruined me, basically.
Some friend you were.
Get over it, and stay out of my business. (y)

Also, I am sorry for breaking my promise. Again.
I'm mostly sorry to Quinn.
I won't do it again...

Untitled- random story.

I couldn't sleep last night. There was so much on my mind. So at 3 am, I turned some of what was on my mind into a story. My sister said it was good, and Quinn just laughed.
So I decided to post it here. It's not that good, but I tried. I can't really write all that well, so don't be mean D;


The moon was full and bright, and the stars were so visible, surrounding it.
There she lay underneath the moon, in the cold, wet grass. But she didn't mind.
She loved being surrounded by nature, just taking it all in. She adored laying in
the grass, looking up at the sky. It helped her clear her mind. And she did that
a lot lately, because her mind definitely needed clearing.
He is all she could think about. He took up most of the space in her mind. Ever
since that one day. The day they met. She didn't expect a day with friends, would
one day turn into love. She thought it would be an ordinary day, spending time with her two friends, Darren and Jesse. She would have never thought to meet him there. As she walked up to them, and noticed him standing there, so many different
things ran through her mind. He turned towards her and said "Hey, I'm Richard,
it's nice to meet you" holding out his hand, with a slight smile on his face.
"H-hi, I'm Chloe..." she reached out her hand to meet his "It's nice to meet you
as well" she said, and then quickly looked away, trying not to smile like an
idiot.
"He is so cute" is all that ran through her mind that afternoon. Along with the
need to always be by his side and to start conversations with him. It seemed like
one of those childish crushes. But it was so much more than that. It felt as if
they were the only two there, as if Darren and Jesse weren't around. She wish it
were that way. She wanted to be with him.
It was like this for awhile after, two months to be exact. The constant need to
talk to him and always wanted to be with him. She always got like this. But it
was different with Richard. It all just seemed different with him. She thought
that instead of her seeming psychotic to him, she might actually have a chance,
even the slightest. He just seemed right to her, and everything about him.
Everytime she saw him, she would get this crazy feeling in her stomach, one that
she never felt before. She found it crazy how just one person could make her feel
this way.
She was so crazy about him. She just wished he felt the same.

Just some lyrics. ^^;

I cried out on a moonlit night,
I was thinking back on time,
A cold breeze takes hold on me,
Oh, and he was a friend of mine...
I feel lost so I'm looking out,
I'm searching for a guiding light,
I keep aiming for the sun, so that my shadows all fall behind.
Oh, am I just wasting my time?
Am I just wasting my time?

LOOOOOOOOL i love my dad.

So I was sitting here, talking to my dad and Hannah about what I may do on saturday.
And I said "well Hannah told me I have to go with you and her to somewhere"
and he said "Nooooo, it's gonna be like a mother/daughter day!"
*Hannah and I burst into laughter*
Then I say "Dad you just called yourself a girl"
Then he says "I can prove that wrong!"
And I say "I'm kind of scared that you would even say that"
Then he walks over and lifts up his shirt, and i die laughing.
Then Hannah says "No other parent would do that"

Oh goodness. My dad is crazy.

So this is the plan!

It is now 8:11 am.
Still can't sleep.
I'm planning on *trying* to stay up until later, so I can probably go to sleep by a normal time, so I can attempt to fix my sleeping pattern.
It's seriously messed right now.
Plus, if I want to get up early tomorrow morning, this is the only thing that will make that happen.
BUT I'M SO TIRED! T_T

It kinda sucks, I texted Stefan, saying something slightly important, but then my dad came downstairs looking for his phone, so I'll never know what he said..:c

And Ethan just made me go on webcam, what a moron ><
ughhh. i look horrible.
I definitely look like I haven't slept for...sixteen hours.

To sleep, or not to sleep, that is the question...

I can't sleep..again.

It is 7:13 am and I still can't sleep.
I tried sleeping at 6:50, but no such luck.
I definitely can't sleep now, I'm texting Stefan ^^;
On my dads phone..I only texted three times so he shouldn't be too upset, I hope. D;
Ohh he texted back. *checks*
To be honest, I'm not exactly sure if he knows it's me or not.
I don't know if he saved this number or not, so he may just think he's having a conversation with someone else or a complete stranger.
Ughhh, I want to sleep, but I can't.
I'll either try to sleep again soon, or just stay up :/
Quinn just went to sleep.
I'm surprised he stayed up so late. ;o
we were on the phone for an hour until 6. Then I was reading Clifford, Handy Manny, and multiple other childrens books, but they are actually fantastic.
Ohhh another text message.
I'm now eating a cinnamon and something bagel. Tastes delicious.

ohey you're cute.

maybe after Stefan replies, I'll try sleeping again.
Redgie's staring at me.
*yawns*

I've spent the last four days playing Zomg on Gaia. So addictive. I can't stop. I'm level 5.7 or something I think. I need to gain more orbs and become a higher level!
I'm planning on spending the day at the laundromat, just because that computer is so much faster than this one. I shall play that game the whole day. ^-^

Ohhhh would any one maybe wanna go see that Scott Pilgrim movie with me today? :3 I really want to see it. And I was planning on watching it today.
I'll go sleep now. Bye.
Good...morning? ^^;

Roar.

Good news and bad news
Which one first?
Good?
Well Narcy didn't block me. ^^;
So that's good.

Now for the bad news. I am having the worst day
I stayed up until 7, then woke up at 4:30, half an hour later my dad forces me to go to the laundromat, but guilt tripping me into doing it. I sat there for 5 hours. I didn't even eat anything because my dad promised to save me Chicken Alfredo. I just got home, to Sadie eating my fucking dinner. Thanks dad for not even bothering to put it in the fridge. I'm really hungry. Hi Hannah. Why aren't you going in the hot tub yet? Go. x3 Why are you still here? You just talked to me, you fool. That's not a wand. It's a popsicle stick. You're bubbly. I don't need a cup holder. Stop laughing. This is serious. GOSH! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Thank you. Wow, everyone's probably really confused.
"CAROLINE! COME HERE" "NO"! "COME HERE" "NOOOO"
I'm very upset.
I should go see my dad.

Who knew this show could actually make me cry...

So Degrassi, pretty good show.
I never knew it keep be this depressing though.
This episode, Ania found out her mother has cancer.
And now time to explain Adam/Gracy.
Trans gender character, I stil ldon't really understand it, but whatever.
Was Gracy, but now is Aadam, everyone just found out he was actually a girl, and is now getting bullied. And the beginning of this episode, his mom told him he had to be Gracy for dinner with his grandmother. He refused. Then his mom said "You're not hurting yourself again, are you?" I was omg no D:
He couldn't take being bullied over this, so he switched to Gracy. Then the next scene is him burning himself, and I started crying. and He said to Claire "When I'm Gracy, I burn myself, I can't take it"
I just love this character. elrkjtytkg <3

I am so stupid T_T

So, I just realized, I should NEVER stay up until 7 am ever again. Not only did I wake up at 4:30, but I do crazy stuff when I'm hyper/alone.
I really shouldn't of spammed Narcy on msn, cause I think he blocked me...D:
I hate when I'm hyper, but I do and say the craziest things and always regret it, and somehow always get people hating me. It's ridiculous. But I also realized that Narcy is acting so immature. Like, deleting and blocking someone, and completely ignoring them for absolutely no reason? Ugh.
It's not fair. But Hopefully things will work themselves out with time.
Same with Stefan. Like in my last two posts, I said alot of stuff I regret x3 but I was hyper...
And also, on msn, I told Narcy he had a nice face. Which probably ruined it.

Well I have to get ready to go to the laundromat. My father is forcing me to go. But I get to go to the mall aswell so everything is good. :3

Wow x3

It's 6:49 am. I have not slept yet. I've almost been awake for eighteen hours. and soon my dad is going to come downstairs and be like OMGWTFBBQ because it's almost 7 am and i haven't slept. but i will sleep soon enough. i'm actually getting really tired.
I was on gaia. funny stuff happened. i almost got internet raped. well my avatar did. i was spamming narcy and aria over msn, the hyperness' fault.
my neck hurts again.
loooooooooool my dad just came down and said "you've been up all night?!" and then smiled. i really need to sleep now.
bye. *explodes*

Oh god LOOL

So I was really bored around 2 am, so I got Ashley way to call me, after soo much laughter, random moments, some sad moments, and long ass story that was completely irrelevant, we were on the phone until 5:10 am
157:52 to be exact.
I actually almost died, LOL
I was originally gonig to tell Ashley a secret, but it then turned into a really long story about how I met Narcy, then drama stuff, and then Stefan, just it was so horrible how it was all so offtopic and pointless, that I completely broke down, was on the floor crying from laughter, i couldn't breathe and i was about to pee my pants. legit.
All of that to tell her an irrelevent secret. It had to do with the beginning of the story, but then the middle was like KJSERNRCHFDWM;RFJTKRTRKLXEWNGTTRJHYTJ
I then serenated Ashley with multiple Lights songs. ^-^
Sadly Ashley had to leave after because she has an appointment later, I hope she survives and stuffs. ♥

It is now 5:20 and I am not even tired. But I am getting bored. My hyperness is wearing off. I should eat those noodles, they are getting cold.
LIONS MAKE YOU BRAVE
GIANTS GIVE YOU FAITH
DEATH IS A CHARADE
YOU DON'T HAVE TO FEEL SAVE TO FEEL UNAFRAID♥
I'm completely and utterly in love with Valerie Ann Poxleitner. :3 ♥
I must nom some noodles, then finish nomming my chocolate bar, drink some strawberry kiwi arizona, and the frolic off to my bedroom to do naughty things.
I'm just kiddin ;3
But I'm really not planning to sleep anytime soon. Probably stay up til 7 or something. I have nothing important to do tomorrow anyway.

BY THE WAY! I realized the shirt I'm wearing is definitely Lights-like. :3
And I should paint my bike pink so we can actually have the exact same bike.
AND! I want a chameleon! :3
Like..I'm being serious, they are so cute, I wants one.

We are rockets in the sky, we are planets passing by, up up and away, forget me and go your own way. ♫

*noms mr. noodles*
mmmmmmmmmm delicious
vin diesel
hands
cup
stick
candle
toaster
sweater
cupcake
pen...is
towels

well that was enjoyable.

I go eat more noodles *frolics*
okay i can't even eat anymore, they're starting to taste odd D;

So, I love a certain someone. His name is Quinn Fappiano. He is my best friend. And *not* a dick head like he said previously. I love him a whole lot. With all of my heart. And would like to remain the best of friends for a super long time. ♥

*chugs arizona*

For everything under the sun, I owe you one. ♫

chaos all around,explosions and fire, you took me off the ground, and lifted me higher, when trouble knew my name, that was before you, i'll never be the same now that I know you.♫
Those lyrics are probably way off. The volume is pree low.

So I messaged Narcy on msn, asking if he's up, cause I really feel like talking to someone. I believe he's slkeeping LOOOL;LAL;WMKR I LIEK MUSTARD WAIT NO I DON'T EW TUCKER HEY NARCY YAY *collapses* why is that on the floor? hey redige, whats up? i love you. a lot. like natasha, alisha, clara, shayla, chelsey, alisha, wait i said that, quinn, redgie, sadie, hannah, narcy, uhmuhmuhmuhm i also like cupcakes, YVONNE I LOVE YVONNE! AND ELIZABETH OH GOODNESS I MISS ELIZABETH! she's my wife. oh look windex.
what day is it? it's....AUGUST 12!
Hmmmmm, what am i doing the next few days? i don't even know. nothing. i'm doing nothing. alishas pageant is sunday, that's all i have planned. stefan. his birthday is saturday. he has a nice face. llalalalalalalalalalalalalala *flails* straighten up your tie, take the microphone forget about it, don't let it get you down, now is not the time and you are not alone, shut up about it, no one can bring you down now, sing the last thing on your mind, the last word on your breath i'll be the one to keep you, keep you at your best. i'll be okay. ow my neck really hurts.
wow stefan. i don't know why but neck hurting reminds me of stefan.
prolly cause once i killed my neck so i went to the hospital. and stefan works at that hospital. hospitals are cool. not really. i went there to visit my dad and iate macaroni and cheese. my arms hurt really bad from typing so fast.
once in a while i act like a child to feel like a kid again.

Pretend is my favourite song by Lights, the lyrics are so beautiful, and so relateable. i also love Lions! and River, and Cactus in the valley, and romance is...
I just love Lights alot.
And Jeremy the bug is beautiful.

i can;t think of anything else to say.
i love redgie.

and when it's the end, our lives will make sense.

It's not gonna be long, before we;re all gone, with nothing to show for them, stop taking lives come on let's all grow up again.

i should get a beard.

I changed my avatar on gaia. it's Lights inspired. I think it looks pretty good. likelike, it's me, but still lights inspired, i just love lights, and this song, it's lights, lights. lights. lights.

I wish i could discover something that doesn't expire.

well i'ma wrap this up. go have a party in my bedroom.
with redgie.
i love redgie.
right when i get upstairs i'm proibablky gonna crash or something.

and seriously, my arms hurt so bad cause i typed this whole thing out, really fast, and my neck kills and my head is gonna explode and i want to tLK TO NARCY CAUSE I LOVE HIM AND WEHY I AM TALKNIG TO CAPS I DON'T KNOW OMG UMBRIDGE AHAHAHAHAHA SO FUNNY.

ok, scratch all that, maybe i will sleep, i'm getting really sleepy, and it's almost 6 :O
SECOND GO ♥
reminds me of stefan. and his face. i like his face. i already said that.
how many times wil lthe clock go around? how many times can my hand hit the ground?
how can you love me when i am ugly? guess i can only hope.

give me a second go. ♥

okay. done. bye. i love you all. especially quinn. and chelsey. and clara. and natasha. and whoever will read this.
goodbye. i go sleep. or just watch tv untill i fall asleep, cause i can do that.
NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ or...morning? D;
i wonder if any one stopped reading? probably stopped way before this.
okay.
okay.
okay.
okay.
i go now.
bye.
*collapses and sleeps*



"Do you love him enough to get him back? Or do you love him enough to let him go?" -Ashley Way ♥

Yea..

And I thought you were my friend...guess I was wrong.

♥

"I really think there's a reason that I like him so much. Like something is telling me not to let him go. Every time I follow my heart, it leads me to him. I mean... what other explanation is there? Why is it that he is all I can think about, why is it that no matter how upset I am I see him and I can't help but smile, why is it that when he smiles at me I get that feeling in my stomach? And even when he'd broken my heart, and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me.. when he lied to me and I hated him... why then did I still feel those same feelings? Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I let him hurt me so much." ♥

sdghkmkl

I'm at war with the love of my life. Boy your love is like a nuclear weapon, everything you are is what I need in my life. ♥♫.

Maybe next time when I actually have plans, I won't go to bed at 6 am T_T

I was supposed to go swimming with Quinn and Chelsey,
But I didn't go to sleep until 6 am.
So I slept in until 1:30.
But Quinn never even told me what time we were going, or when he was gonna pick me up...
Whatever.
I guess I just have to sit here doing nothing all day again, while they have fun swimming.
but it's no big deal.
I don't even really care, I don't think I would of been able to go anyway, I have no money.

I have to go find something to do now.
Maybe drown myself?
Sounds good.

(:

I just heard this song, like right now.
And these lyrics are amazing.
They explain my situation perfectly.

Nowhere to run- Lillix

YOU WILL KEEP ON RUNNING
AND I WILL KEEP ON HOLDING ON
I GOT A LOT TO SAY
BEFORE YOU TURN AWAY
WHAT ARE YOU HIDING FROM
WHEN YOU GOT NOWHERE TO RUN

FEEL LIKE I GOT NO FRIENDS
I'LL ONLY LOSE NOT WIN
I'LL BE ALONE TILL THE END
AND I GOT NOWHERE TO RUN
FEEL LIKE MY HEART IS TORN
THINKING WHY WAS I BORN
YOUR NOT ALONE MY FRIEND
WHEN YOU GOT NOWHERE TO RUN

Seriously...they match my life.♥

:C

Why do all the people I really start to care about, end up completely hating me in the end?

Hi Natasha.

I see you.
I see you too.
Wazup?
Oh nothing at all, just chillin with my good friend...which is you.
That's so funny, cause I'm chillin with my friend too...and Kesha...*bites arm* you forgot the dollar sign...
What..what is that? D:
You're pretty.
Dumbledore, it's so nice of you to be here Dumbledore, it's my boyfriend Dumbledore.
Scooters! Let's talk about scooters!
Well, I did...D;
Mine was silver and red,
mine's silver and blue!
I has a bicycle. It's blue. It's the same as Lights' :3
Drew and Allie forever! Cause they have stickers.
Natasha's favourite couple.
After one episode, she can tell it's love.
Oh yea.
Natasha's ear hurts. T_T

now its just me, nat.
i'm waiting for caroline to come back, she's looking for the phone
which im pretty sure was last seen in hannahs butt.
she's back now, apparently the phone is dead.
sweeeetttt
now we have a cat with us.

ARRRUUUGAHHHHH! lmfao

all i want is you, and yes i love you and will give you as many chances as you need
as long .... as you get us forehead stickers.

OMG, YOU'S GETTIN' A POPSICLE.

CAROLINE is really amazing. she's so cool i would have a baby with her. maybe even two.
....:O -caroline

three, then?

my sticks moving

mines not


Natasha leave now :c
Ilove her <3333

;o I realized..

I'm 93% straight, and 7% Lights. ;3
Loool thanks to Alisha who helped me find this out.
I just love Lights so much. ♥

Words from Lights.

"It's funny how life can change so much, but still nothing changes at all. Maybe it's that life changes, but you as a person don't. Or maybe we adjust, but don't actually change. If that's the case, then I must be doing something right." -Lights.

Taken from her Video Blog #13

♥

OMGOMGOMGOMG

So I was lurking, and found out Lights has a new song. 8D
It's called Cactus In The Valley
I think I'm inlove all over again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJ0hjfUj58E&feature=related

It's so amazing.

Here have the lyrics:

I never meant to wither, I wanted to be tall
Like a fool, left the river, and watched my branches fall
Old and thirsty, I longed for the flood to come back around
To the cactus in the valley, it's about to crumble down

And wipe the mark of sadness from my face
Show me that your love will never change
If my yesterday is a disgrace
Show me that you still recall my name

So the storm finally found me, and left me in the dark
In the cloud around me, I don't know where you are
If this whole world goes up in arms, all I can do is stand
And I won't fight for anyone, until you move my hand

And wipe the mark of madness from my face
Show me that your love will never change
If my yesterday is a disgrace
Tell me that you still recall my name

Oh here, in the shadow
Here I am
And I need someone by my side
It becomes so hard to stand
And I keep trying to dry my eyes
Come and find me in the valley

And wipe the mark of sadness from my face
Show me that your love will never change
If my yesterday is a disgrace
Tell me that you still recall my name
And wipe the mark of madness from my face
Show me that your love will never change
If my yesterday is a disgrace
Tell me that you still recall my name
Oh, tell me that you still recall my name
Oh, tell me that you still recall my name

Lights.

I've been listening to Lights all day.
No wonder I've been having a good day 8D
I looked through all 2200 of her fan pictures
and watched her Audio Quest: A Captain Lights Adventure comic on Youtube. :3
I'm so excited for the concert in october. I'm so gping, no matter what.
I should be getting my Lights shirt soon, I just have to talk to my dad about it.

February Air and River were stuck in my head while going on a bike ride with Hannah earlier.
I kept singing them, then Hannah said:
"Do you really have to sing Lights? It's like I have my own personal Lights radio"

I feel like such a devoted fan.
And I'm going to come up with a surprise thing for Jeremy The Bug, just because I can.
Make him something special, cause he's awesome.

I just went on Twitter to check Lights and Jeremy The Bugs pages. And noticed a certain stupid faced "him" unfollowed me >:C
Seriously, this is pissing me off now.
He's making it seem like this whole thing is my fault.
Well it's great to know I'm practically hated for trying to be friends with him.
Just wonderful.

Ohey.

So, to everyone who was wondering how much the concert tickets would be, I believe their around 45$

I found out this:
It's a Hedley concert,
Special guests:
Lights(♥)
And
These Kids Wear Crowns.
I'm listening to some of their songs now and they are pretty good ^-^

And lololol I just love how there's so much drama going on over formspring. like dude, you're so fucked, don't blame this on me, you just gotta learn to mind your own fucking business.

Lights!

Would anyone, seriously want to go to a Lights concert with me?
Lights and Hedley.
October 2.
It's in Mississauga.
My dad would most likely drive us.
I just wouldn't want to go alone. D:

I love Lights.

I really, seriously, truly love her so much.

Here, watch this ♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gh6nK92HXE

Good song, with Lights. 8D

Black and Gold

I just watched Fame, now I'm in the mood to sing and dance.
Any one wanna join?

This song is so good, look it up;
Black and Gold by Sam Sparro

If the fish swam out of the ocean
and grew legs and they started walking
and the apes climbed down from the trees
and grew tall and they started talking

and the stars fell out of the sky
and my tears rolled into the ocean
now i'm looking for a reason why
you even set my world into motion

'cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold
black and gold
black and gold

Roaroaroar.

So, I deactivated my facebook for various reasons. But just go on Sadie's fb just to check certain things. I decided to message a certain "him" just to get answers. closure, basically. I asked if I could just ask a simple question, so I did, all I wanted to know is why he hates me, and why he unfriended me, but i pretty much just wanted the truth, which i told him. But, instead of making things better like I had hoped, I somehow made everything worse. And he hates me even more. Apparently, he doesn't like me all that much, cause my first impression to him, was completely horrible, because of certain things that happened. He also hates me cause I annoy him, and bother him immensely, even though he didn't say it in those words, but still. But he said, and I quote "Just leave me alone please let me be? Bye forever."
I was really hoping he'd understand how I felt, I tried my best to explain things carefully to him. But I made everything worse. I don't get it.
I know I come on too strong, and act like an obsessive crazy girl. But I don't know...
I don't know why I wrote all this here and not my diary blog, but whatever.
Maybe for once I should stop talking to people, when I know I should give them space and give it time. Cause it really does make things worse. But I really need to get my point across. It's important that I do, and that I make everything clear. I'm not as much of a horrible person then he thinks I am.

Yea...that's it.

'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going.

Yep, that's basically it...

I apologize T_T

I apologize for the fact that I've only been posting lyrics lately.
I've just been so overwhelmingly sad lately, that song lyrics are the only thing that can describe how I'm feeling. So if you actually read the lyrics, instead of just ignoring them, then you'll know how I'm feeling ^^;
I feel like someone ripped out a piece of my heart and fed it to a zebra, basically.

I've done a lot of thinking lately, and realized a lot of things. I really need to find out who I am, and change everything. because I still can't figure it out, but whoever I am, is kind of retarded. I need to figure out who I am, who my real friends are, whats actually important enough to cry over, and I basically just need to try harder at everything, instead of being lazy and procrastinating life.

I know you two don't want to be my friend, but it would be nice if you could tell me why you're ignoring me. Because I wanted to be your friend, I really did. So if you're just going to avoid me and just be major butt heads, then that's cool. But it'd be nice if you could talk to me for a second, and tell me your reasons for the ignorance, instead of being so immature. Closure would be nice.

The song Swing Life Away by Rise Against, is actually so amazing. It basically is my theme song for my life right now.

I basically spent the day with some amazing people. They are pretty much my best friends; Quinn, Chelsey, Clara, and Sammie. ♥
We went to Gage Park for the Festival of Friends. Twas fun. We went to Mcdonalds and I got a double cheeseburger *drools*
I was pretty much dying from sadness the whole time. I really just can't help it.
Knowing that someone I really like just, out of nowhere, completely starts hating me, and won't talk to me at all. It would be nice if he would tell me why. *shrugs*
I guess until someone gives me a real reason to why they're ignoring me, I'll just be a sad panda.

It legitimately feels like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, fed it to a shark, and put the remainders back where they found it.

I wish they could see how upset I am, and possibly care for once. But I know they don't give a crap. I just...whatever...
I really want to be able to get over it. But it's so hard. Cause everything reminds me of them...WHY AM I SO PATHETIC?! D:


"I'm having chicken hearts and gizzards"
"What's a gizzard?"
"They look like testicles actually..."
"You're eating chicken testicles?!"
LOL ♥

Oh, btw, I hate him, a different him then him.
He;s just so effing dumb, I was stab him in the face.
All he says is lies, and starts drama for himself.
And blames me for adding drama into his life.
Uhhuh, yea sure.
And he adds himself into everyones business, especially mine, and says thathe doesn't care what i do or who i like. what an idiot.
Quinn better be proud of me for calling him a fuck, cause he is one. >:C

hi this is clara blogging from caroline's account.
she just said "Hey, CLARA! Wha-" then stopped.
Quinn's here.

I should prolly stop now.

more later!
xx

If love was a labor, I'll slave until the end~

I'll show you mine,
if you show me yours first,
Let's compare scars,
I'll tell you who's is worse. ♫

My dad and Quinn are now best friends...

So I was talking to Quinn on the phone, and he kept getting me to tell me dad jokes for him, now my dad just took the phone from me, and I basically just lost my best friend to my father x3
This isn't fun.
Grrrrrrrrrr.
:C

♫♥

Snow White said that when I was young,
"one day my prince will come"
So I wait for that date.♫

I love the song Not Like The Movies by Katy Perry
It's actually so amazing!
:3

Bahah some lyrics that make me laugh.

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you.
^-^

So, basically, I realized...

I've been saying the word "basically" alot lately o.o;

Yea....

If I could just see you,
Everything would be alright,
If I'd see you,
This darkness would turn to light.
And I will walk on water,
And you will catch me if I fall,
And I will get lost into your eyes,
I know everything will be alright.
♥

...:c

Storm-Lifehouse. ♥




I know you didn't bring me out here to drown, so why am I ten feet under and upside down? Barely surviving has become my purpose, cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface.

And you, my love, are gone...

So glide away on soapy heels
And promise not to promise anymore
And if you come around again
Then I will take, then I will take the chain from off the door

I'll never say I'll never love
But I don't say a lot of things
And you my love are gone.

One of my favourite songs right now.

Basically how I feel right now..

Hold me up and don't let go
I've had enough
I'm tired of breathing
Tired of feeling
Tired of looking at the past for meaning
Tired of running
Tired of searching
Tired of trying
But i'm not tired of you

I don't understand...

I REALLY don't understand.
I never did anything,
but it seems they really do hate me...

I don't like this:

"everyone has a friend who becomes obsessed with boys that they barely know! :) "
What a stupid Facebook group.
Because I pretty much know, that all my friends who join it, are talking about me...T_T

Redgie's beating me up...well, my sweater that is. Stop it Redgie!

...okay bye

Well that's just great.

You you we're friends, and everything's fine, and you say you're just always busy which is why we don't hang out, but then you go and say you're free to hang out with everybody else?
What did I ever to do you?
I seriously just don't get it.

♫

as far as i've been walking
i still haven't a found a thing
that's anywhere near
the feeling that you bring
i've gone a million miles
but nothing measures up
to the happiness i found
when i found your love
and i don't
think i could exist
if i didn't have
a little piece of this
cuz you've become my life
and that's how it's gonna be
cuz we are anchored down
to the bottom of this sea

i don't ever wanna be
anywhere without you
cuz when you're gone the sky
doesn't really look that blue
and i don't ever wanna leave
the comfort of your side
cuz when i'm not with you
the sparkle leaves my eyes
and when i'm on the ground with you
i feel like i can fly

as many stars as i've seen
in so many nighttime skies
i've yet to find one brighter
than the way i see you shine
i've traveled the world
just looking for that star
but it's nowhere to be found
except for in my heart
that's where you are
holding me down
that's where we are

this is something i'm not used to. You are a new kind of magic to me. We are not what i expected at all. ♥

FML

So sometimes I begin to think everythings going to be better,
everythings getting good again.
But then I remember I have a sister who is so fucking retarded
She thinks she controls me.
She actually thinks she's my mother, basically.
She thinks everything I do, or anything that's going on in my life is her business.
I would write down all the horrible things she just said, but there's too much, I can no longer remember any of it.
But she basically says I do nothing around here, how everyone would be happy if I moved out or died, she tells me to kill myself, because no one likes me, and I have no friends. How I'm a selfish bitch who only cares about herself.
I can't do this anymore.
I'm sick of everyone thinking my life is also their business.
I'm sick of getting reminded daily of all the mistakes I make/made.

Maybe she's right, maybe everyone would be happy if I just died.

Dear you;

I love you.

I'll probably never let you know that,
since it barely matters.
You just mean a lot to me, and I want you to know.
I just wish you felt the same way...

More realizations!

I make mistakes.
And I regret mostly everything I say, or do.
I think that the things I do will make everything worse.
But you never really know.
After watching 16 Wishes (suggested by Clara) I realized a lot of things.
That, one simple thing can change your life.
Even if it's saying something to someone, or anything.
Great things will happen or horrible things will.
(I actually haven't even finished the movie so I can't really give you the "moral of the story")

But I did something that I regretted today, but now that I think about it, that "regret" will probably turn out to be something great.
I took a risk and hopefully good stuff happens. ^-^
He either hates me more, or he loves me. 8D
I just hope it's the second one.

This whole post barely makes sense.
But that's what happens when I try to write my thoughts down.

Basically, what I'm trying to say is;
hopefully instead of him being annoyed by me, he'll just see how much I care. I want him to see that. Cause I care a lot.

oh damn, now I'm getting all emotional T_T

I just wish he cared as much as I do...
or at least at all.
I want him to like me back, really.

Doing this would be a very bad idea.

Being home alone all day, and being so bored that you feel empowered to drink a Wild Berry Vodka Cooler, getting slightly buzzed, that you go completely crazy and call the two people you like, then eating Smartie ice cream, then taking a very long bike ride, while listening to techno music, to visit your best friend, her boyfriend, and another one of your good friends.
That would end very badly.

Good thing I definitely didn't do that. :D

C:

My head is saying no,
But my heart keeps giving in
So hard to let it go
When it's there,
under my skin

So I'm off to go for a bike ride, to my sisters work, just to bring her her cell phone.
Such a far journey for nothing.
oh well, at least I get a sub in return. (Y)

I'm kind of in a good mood right now.
I'm going to be home alone pretty much all day.
Stefan and I are "starting fresh" ^-^
I'm actually really happy about that, because everything was weird between us, and I was really worried he hated me. But he said we should start fresh, so everything should be good now.

I just need to fix things with one other person, and I'll be set. (y)

Anyone know when Clara gonna be getting home? I wants to visit her right away. 8D

I really should get going, or my sister will be mad

^-^♥

To the music stuff of Baby by justin bieber o.o;

It's in my head, I blame Narcy;

How come you hate me? I really care
Will you please talk to me, you have nice hair.
You are so cute, you have my heart, but we will always always always be apart.
You never wanna hang out, okay I get it
You think i'm ugly, and I'm probably hated.
But I want to see you so badly.
You are awesome, and oh so very manly.

*insert chorus here that I'm not gonna post LOL*
I thought you may want to be mine

To see you, I would have done whatever,
And I really want us to be together
I wanna see you, but I'm losing you
I'm sorry I'm annoying, I just love you.
And I'm pieces.
Why don't you like me?

okay I actually don't wanna make anymore lyrics. D:
I just felt like remaking the lyrics to match my feelings.
It's retarded.

I'm actually about to cry..

So yesterday at 6 pm, I left my hosue without telling anyone, to go sleep over at Sammie's it was fun. We made/ate brownies and watched jimmy neutron, and She's out of My League. So funny.
Today, we got ready, then Chelsey, Quinn, and Jacob came over, and we all walked over to the beach. We met up with Charlie, then Sammie and I ventured off to to Hutches to try to find Eric and Joe.
We had no luck at all, even though we waited forever, so we just bought ice cream.
The things we did at the beach included.
- Ate hot dogs
- Laughed
- Screamed
- Swam in Lake Ontario
- Sat on rocks while we got soaked by water.
Then we just walked around.
I was kind of hoping the whole time that we'd see Eric and Joe. But no luck.
It was fun in total until I got home. Like, I'm going to cry.
My dad and sister are now yelling at me for just about everything.
I just found out Narcy went with Eric and Joe to the beach, and now I wanna die, cause I kinda really wanted to see him.. o.o;
And my sister is making me pay her for using her phone, and she's yelling at me, cause apparently Stefan texted her today... :/
Now Eric is yelling at me for "standing them up"
And I was sand everywhere.

Moments like these make me wish I could go back in time to fix my mistakes..

I'm going to kill myself now.

This is the moment in time where I seriously wish I had a phone...I want to text him... T_T