And things keep on changing.
Nevermind the last post, cause I'm sad again.
I'm tired if life.
boys are dumb
but attractive
sex is good
lol

I finally remembered my password!

meep meep.
so hi.
everything has changed.
i'm not sad anymore.
i don't drink as much anymore.
And I don't do drugs. Well, I smoke weed sometimes, but not much anymore.
sex.
gabe.
I have a brother. his name is bryan chechalk.
i wuvs him.
he my big b, and i'm his lil c.
my 19 birthday is in ten days and i am le excite.
gonna drink with bryan and gabe
okay bye

Would somebody like to kill me?

I'd appreciate it.

Woah. So many things.

I'm hipster.
I like food.
I live downtown.
I'm a real down town kid.
Get high and drunk almost everyday
Drugs and alcohol have become my life.
I had a boyfriend.
But lost him.
Because I cheated twice.
So close to getting him back.
We had sexual relations last night.
Ahhh Gabe. :3
I love that boy.
Schools going swell.
I'm designing shirts for people.
Cause my Co-op is at The Print Studio.
I'm poor.
I blew my cheque for November already.
I may be homeless soon.
Yeah, that's my life right now.

Just to sum up the past few months.

Lost and gained new friends. Suicide attempt. In program called Bridge To Recovery. Got first tattoo. Stretching ears. Undercut. So many new followers on Tumblr. New boy best fran Thomas. Went to Glee Live. Ashley.

Lol that's all I can really think of.

So unbelievably depressed currently exfvtuh

want to die lalalala

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Tumblr isn't working for this moment in time, so I came back to you, Blogger lol

My hand is all tingly

This does not seem like a good thing...

91 and counting

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OHEY BLOODY WRIST WAZZUP

My life is a ball of stupid right now.

I want it all to end.

Sorry Blogger, but...

I left you for Tumblr.
I hope there are no hard feelings.
It'll be best if we see other people anyway.

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Can has sex nao? x3

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WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY? D:
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

:'C

I really just want to cry...

What is this? I don't even.

My head hurts.

Yesterday was a good day.
And I'm pretty sure Aria told me to blog. I think.
So I'ma do that.
Hi.

Basically all that happened yesterday was:
Everyone got here at like 4-6
Yeah, only five people came.
We ended up going to Hayley's party for a bit.
I fell in the elevator.
Ate some skittles.
we had adventures to go find cups at one point.

This isn't in order at all.

Just a few things that happened, also not in order:
We took the bus home, and we saw Michael Smith.
Even though I told everyone to make sure I don't text Aria, yeah I did.
Bad idea. D:
well we went in the hot tub, and I think I cried.
Yeah I did cry.
I was very emotional for several reasons.
Then I got all happy cause apparently James text me saying happy new years, and I think I sent three texts back.
I almost died in the hot tub, we played truth or flare. It was basically just truth.
I don't remember that much of what was said. I think someone asked me if I loved Aria o.o;
We were supposed to burn the "Aria Bear" but never got a chance to do so D':
After I got out of the hot tub, I found the cell phone that Clara hid on me, then I just text Aria. Again, bad idea. I ended up calling him somehow, while Alisha was asleep on my floor. I think his friend Mac answered, pretending to be some guy named Jason...
I don't even remember what was said.
It was a bad idea to call him when both of us were drunk..
I was laying on the floor in the living room, and I'm pretty sure I kept saying "Why are you not here yet?" and yeah...I'll not get into all that was said and what not.
There was one part about being naked..I think o.o;
Then when he said he had to leave I said "nononononononononononono don't leave me ever" then I was like "text me, right after we get off the phone" And he said "okay I will" then I said "Promise right now!" So he did text back and I don't even remember what he said x3
I think I ended up going to bed at around 3 am, but I kept texting Aria, I tried so hard not to fall asleep. Our conversation was intense.
Hahaha cats.
I fell asleep, and then I woke up to check the phone, and he sent two messages saying "You fall asleep?" and "Alright well sweet dreams" and I was like noooooooooooo cause I wanted to talk to him more.
The part I didn't understand was when we were having our intense conversation, he said "Mac keeps screaming anal" I don't overly understand that part. o.o;

I should stop this post now.
And I just realized apparently Aria's going to be reading this.
That man told me he reads my blog.
The only one. C':

Just would like to say, before I end this, that Natasha is the most amazing human being in the world. She saved my life. I love her. C:

And my sister is going to kill me for spilling champagne on her carpet. D:

Happy new years ♥

It's Clara. Accompanied by Natasha and Scott. ;3
Alisha, Caroline and Sammy have fallen asleep/passed out/woken up again/fell back asleep. :)

Just wanted to wish everyone out there (even though all of our friends have basically stopped blogging x3) a very happy new year! :D Enjoy the night. Also, it's Ebony Way's birthday on facebook. Go and read My Immortal. :3

Alfonzo♥

I has new camera, his name is Alfonzo.
So many creys when I opened it. x3

That's basically all I have to say.
Bye.

Friggin right.

I've been saying that a lot lately.
I should be drowning in the shower right now, but I somehow ended up back on Tumblr.
Now I'm just in a loving mood, and then I felt like talking to people, so now I'm talking to Phil Balsor on msn. Why? Idk. I didn't know I had him on msn either.
He honestly must think I'm insane. Since I've never talked to him before in my life.
Oh, he left me...now I'm lonely.
FOREVER ALONE.

There's a pineapple beside me. Why? I honestly have no idea. Where did it come from? I honestly have no idea.
*pets it* c:

Tomorrow is the last day of school. YIPPIEEEEE.

Okay, if I don't leave now, I will never go shower, I'll end up just collapsing in my bed then never taking a shower and smelling like fish, or just not even going to school cause I'm lazy.

But yeah, goodbye.

I'm making rice.

My computer wasn't working for a few days.
But it's working now.

I lost my camera, so i might die soon.

I didn't go to school today, well I did, but only for last period.
I went to Cathedral with Hannah to get something, then we went to BR, mostly cause I just needed to talk to a few of my teachers.
After school, we met up with James, and we walked with him to his locker, the first thing Hannah said to me was: "oh my gosh he is so cute!" which is true, he is. c:
then we went to talk to Andrew, I like him he's funny. Except Hannah was really hyper and I wanted to punch her in the face.
I think Andrew hates me, after he said certain words that have been replaying over and over in my mind, it kind of seems like he hates me or something. :/

I'm having a new years party, y'all should go. It'll be fun.
Still trying to convince my father to let us have some alcohol. I know it's not a big deal if we don't have any, but still.

Now I must eat my rice and go wrap christmas gifts.