Just stuff that's on my mind. o.o;

"5508.) I wish you hadn't backstabbed me countless times. You were my best friend, I trusted you dearly. But hey, now you stretch the truth and distort facts. You think you can fool everyone, and you hate me because I'm not a backstabbing hypocritical bitch like you."


Rant #1. I actually hate cheaters. I don't understand why people feel the need to cheat. I've always been there for you, yet you pushed me away. And you only want to see her, yet, she cheated on you, and you could care less about me, even though all I've ever done was be there for you. I don't get it. You barely ever talk to me now, and you waste your time on people that don't matter. And I've always been here, but you haven't noticed.


Rant #2. I pour my heart out to you, explain everything to you, and tell you exactly how I feel about you. And all you can say is thank you? Not even reply with anything else? Just thank you? I understand you don't feel the same, but that doesn't mean you can just leave it at that...


Rant #3. I'm sick of everybody pretending to be my friends. You say you're my friend, and then I find out you actually don't like me, and think all I do is seek attention and complain. Why bother if you just don't like me? We're both clearly wasting each others time. o.o;


Rant #4. My cat is so fat. And he is seriously retarded. D: he drives me crazy. But i love him.


Rant #5. I hate when you tell a guy how you feel about them, and they say they don't feel the same, and then say "any guy would be lucky to have you" really? if any guy would be lucky to have me, why wouldn't you be?


Rant #6. I don't get why people just don't take chances anymore. You just toss that chance away like it's nothing. Well, you know what? you will never get that chance again. So you better take it while it's there. It's not going to hurt anything by taking risks and chances and seeing what could be, instead of letting that moment pass you by and then wonder what could've been. At least try, and see if something will come of it, instead of just not trying at all. Because you'll never know...things could happen when you least expect them to, and if you don't acknowledge them...well, that's just not good, now is it?


And that's basically all that I can think of, for now...
these certain things have been bothering me for a while..


Why don't you want me? Why don't you need me? Why don't you want me, when you know that I want you? Oh, you know I do. You know you never really gave it a chance.♫


Explains *Exactly* how I feel.^
Actually, it more or less explains my current situation.
Since, he won't give me a chance, which kills me.
And he knows how I feel about him, but it still doesn't seem to change anything.


People always say I'm so nice, and cute and any guy would be lucky to have me. Oh, okay. Then how come no guy ever likes me back when I like them? Please explain that to me. :/


Why can't someone give me a chance for once? It's not going to hurt anything if you just give me a chance and see if anything will come of this...


Am I really that easy to just throw away without any hesitation? D;


I always wanted you for myself, so tell that wasn't how your heart felt,
I always wanted you for myself, so tell me, tell me, and make my heart melt. ♫

I miss you so much it hurts...:/

I feel so empty inside right now.
So forgotten, and all those sad feelings.
There's a giant ball of sadness in my stomach, as it feels like, and I just really feel like crying.


Now, some amazing lyrics that explain exactly how I feel about him;


Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line? 
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you

Could this be out of line?
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?

Could this be out of line?
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Could this be out of line?
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Don't try and tell that you never loved me, I know that you did, you said it and you wrote it down. ♫

Dancing at discos, Eating cheese on toast. Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy, But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around. ♫


Holy crap, I love Kate Nash so much x3 her songs are so cute.
Please check them out. 8D


Just a warning, I'm feeling in a bloggy mood right now, so this post is probably going to be really long. c:


Starting now! 8D


So, I haven't gone to school in like 43875648 days. I have my reasons. I'll start going next week, though. I promise.


I was going to go today, but...I don't know. Again, I have my reasons for not going. I'll fix this though, no need to worry.


I woke up to giant gusts of wind, it was crazy o.o;
Redgie was terrified. And when I walked downstairs. IT WAS A DISASTER! It's like a hurricane came through the kitchen. Everything was knocked over, and the window fell out. Everyone was probably at school while this crazy wind thing was going on, but still, it was insane.


OHH! and yesterday...x3
So I was talking to Eric while this happened. I heard like this squeeling from outside, so I thought Squirrels were fighting or something, so I looked out the window, and on the telephone wire, I saw this figure. Mind you, it was dark and I wasn't wearing my glasses. But I do know that this thing was way too big to be a squirrel x3 I just assumed it was a raccoon or possum or something. But then it started snarling o.o; and the squirrel started squeeling really loud. It's like a squirrel was getting devoured. D; it was so horrifying. I took out my camera and recorded the sounds though. x3 even my mommy heard it, and usually it takes A LOT to wake her up loool


What else was I going to talk about? Hrmmmm.


So, Redgie is like really fat now. I don't even know what happened. He's like overly obese.


Hannah's coming home this weekend 8D
I'm so happy! I miss her. C:


Last night I couldn't sleep, so I ended up watching the rest of The Little Mermaid 2 ;D
Then, watched half of The Little Mermaid: Ariel's Beginning. x3
I love The Little Mermaid. C:


I was really upset last night cause a certain stupid, poofy-haired, fellow I know is just mean to me. I wrote a really long note/letter thing to him, but I never sent it. I just needed to get out my feelings of this situation, then I felt better. c:
I wish he gave a damn about my feelings for once :/ whatever.


But all you do is treat me bad, break my heart and make me feel so sad,
Tell me what did I do wrong, to make you stay away so long,
Yes baby love, my baby love, I need your love♫
LOOL funny how I found this song right when I wrote that. 8D


I have nothing to do tonight. I need to find something. I know Hannah's coming home tonight, but I don't actually have anything to do. 
I'm going with Hannah to get her hair cut tomorrow morning, then apparently hanging out with Chelsey and Quinn.
I was supposed to go to the movies with Sammie, but I don't know when we'd go, and I can't even remember what we're gonna see x3


I'm not going to the Hedley/Lights concert anymore. I wanted to go soo badly. I may just curl up into a ball and die. D:


I should probably clean the kitchen. Just so no one murders me for staying home today.


All I have been eating lately is Nutella Sandwiches. x3 they're good and all, but I need more food. ;c


All that is on my mind lately is this...fight? I guess you could call it that...between Aria and I. He's not really talking to me right now. I don't even know why. All I did was try and talk to him. Then he got mad. I guess I annoyed him mad core. Oh well...actually no...:C this is just stupid.


Well before I go clean the kitchen, I want to post awesome lyrics. 8D


Simply knowing you exist Ain't good enough for me But asking for your telephone number Seems highly inappropriate. Seeing as I can't Even say hi When you walk by. And that time you shook my hand It felt so nice I swear I never felt This way about any other guy And I don't usually notice people's eyes but... And when I saw you Kissing that girl My heart it shattered and my eyes, they watered And when I tried to speak I stuttered.
And my friends were like whatever You'll find someone better His eyes were way too close together And we never even liked him from the start And now he's with that tart And I heard she done some really nasty stuff Down in the park with Michael He said she's easy And if your guy's with someone that's sleazy Then he ain't worth your time 'Cause you deserve a real nice guy.
I don't ever dream About you and me I don't ever make up stuff about us. That would be classed as insanity I don't ever drive by your house to see if you're in. I don't even have an opinion On that tramp that you're still seeing. I don't know your timetable. I don't know your face off by heart
But I must admit. That there is still a part of me That thinks we might get on.♫


And something just went boom upstairs D: *scared*


And this song is just crazy cute 8D


I hate seagulls and I hate being sick. I hate burning my finger on the toaster and I hate nits. I hate fallin over, I hate grazing my knee. I hate pickin off the scab a little bit too early. I hate getting toothache, I hate when it’s a pisstake. I hate all the mistakes I make. I hate rude ignorant bastards and I hate snobbery. I hate anyone who if I was serving chips wouldn’t talk to me.
But…I…have…a friend… With whom…I like to spend Anytime…I…can find…with.
I like sleepin in your bed I like knowin what is goin on inside your head. I like takin time and I like your mind and I like when your hand is in mine. I like getting drunk on the tunes by the beach. I like pickin strawberries
I like cream teas and I like reading ghost…stories. 
My…heart skips a beat every time that we meet. It’s been a while and now your smile is almost like a memory
But then you’re back and I am fine cos you’re with me And I’m in love…with you.
And I…can’t find the words to make it sound unique…but… Honestly…you make me strong! I can’t believe I’ve found someone this kind. I hope we carry on Cos you’re so nice and I’m in love…with you…♫


And she said "Thanks, I like you too" and he said "Cool." ♫


Okay! Kitchen cleany time.
Blasting music while cleaning always seems like good motivation. C:


I just would like to say, whoever is reading this...I love you so much :D
You are just a great human being, and I adore you being my friend. c:
I don't think that last part made much sense, but just pretend it did, kay? 8D
♥


Adios dearest friends of mine. C:




Eww, Narcy just signed online.

Quinn thinks I'm stupid.

You can't lie to Caroline over the phone, she knows all. ;D
Especially when I can hear Chelsey in the background.
Goodness. D:


My face hurts. Well, my head does.
My hair looks retarded, my nap messed up my hair.
I'm super bored.
I'm going to Toronto on Sunday now. (y)
I'm now just waiting for either Quinn or Aria to tell me I can call them. :3


She's more then jacuzzi with jets, they use a mop for this when it's wet. ♫
Oh how I love random rap songs that say the darnedest things. 8D 


The day that you slipped away, was the day I found it won't be the same. ♫


:Ö <---- DOUBLE SHOCKED FACE
Looool, Idk if I'm the only one who sees it. I think I'm going insane.


I'm so bored. I wants to call Aria. ewerfvrjctnyh D:




Some people laugh, some people cry. Some people live, some people die. Some people run, right into the fire. Some people hide their every desire. But we are the lovers, If you don't believe me then just look into my eyes 'cause the heart never lies. Some people fight, some people fall. Others pretend they don't care at all. If you wanna fight I'll stand right beside you, the day that you fall I'll be right behind you to pick up the pieces. If you don't believe me Just look into my eyes 'cause the heart never lies.♫



Please understand, this isn't just goodbye, This is I can't stand you. ♫
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful. ♫




Do you ever wish she was me, or am I left here missing you not missing me?
Look at me, In my eyes. And tell me that you feel nothing inside. Cause I can't wash you off my skin.. But I can't see you ever again. 
So I'll forget I love you, Don't want you anymore..
I'll keep on lying to myself, cause we could've had it all..
And you should keep pretending that Im only just a friend, Can you look me in the eyes and say that its worth it in the end?♫♥


So, the above song (Could've been-The Veronica's) and the song Nicest Thing- Kate Nash, both really explain my, I guess you could say love life, or lack of.




I really need to stop always posting lyrics. But I mean, they express my feelings better then I ever could. D;

(:

I just heard this song, like right now.
And these lyrics are amazing.
They explain my situation perfectly.

Nowhere to run- Lillix

YOU WILL KEEP ON RUNNING
AND I WILL KEEP ON HOLDING ON
I GOT A LOT TO SAY
BEFORE YOU TURN AWAY
WHAT ARE YOU HIDING FROM
WHEN YOU GOT NOWHERE TO RUN

FEEL LIKE I GOT NO FRIENDS
I'LL ONLY LOSE NOT WIN
I'LL BE ALONE TILL THE END
AND I GOT NOWHERE TO RUN
FEEL LIKE MY HEART IS TORN
THINKING WHY WAS I BORN
YOUR NOT ALONE MY FRIEND
WHEN YOU GOT NOWHERE TO RUN

Seriously...they match my life.♥

So talk to me and make me feel fine; I hope you care all the time. (L)

I want this damn situation to be fixed already.
Really? That's your reason? D:
If it is, get over it.
It's not a big deal.
Even if it is, that shouldn't prevent you from talking to me.
Sadface..

I miss Clara.
My iced capp melted. D;
I love Lights.
I broke my own unbreakable vow. T_T
I'm at the laundromat, and I'm bored.

Love me even if I'm a mess, take me as I am bad or best. <3
You balance me out; you're the minus to my plus.
Lights^ <33

I'm such a mess right now. Like, it's so freaking hot in the office. I'm so hot right now. And so ugly. Like, I can feel the ugly. D:

So charlie may come visit me. That's cool. I don't even care, I'm that bored/lonely, that I'd ask anyone to visit me, even Barney. ;o

My iced capp be gone. :c

And I got you all figured out, you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen. (8)

I love Sam Hart, like oh my gosh, so much (L)
He's brilliant.
And beautiful.
And his voice makes my heart melt.
He covered I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat;

But I never told you, what I should have said,
No I never told you, I just held it in.
And now, I mkiss everything about you,
Can'tt believe I still want you.
After all the things we've been through,
I miss everything about you, without you.(8)

Let's go away, even thoguh it's a long way. <3 (8)

In my eyes he can do no wrong, in his mind i'm a little child. He's the words in my favorite song, but to him I am juvenile. I'm the love he will never love I'm the friend that he calls a friend and if i'm not the careful crush I'll be one heart, one woman and then.. (8)

I just made a new friend. ;D
Her name be Caitlynn, she went to BR last semester. We just started talking like right now. xD

Kay I'm done, I'll just keep posting random lyrics. xDD
Peace :3
Ps. I wish Quinny gets better soon. <3




Confession; I lied. <3