:D...scratch that...D:*

ɑnd thɑt’s whɑt you do when you cɑre ɑbout someone. you fight like hell to mɑke sure you keep them. even if they ɑren’t yours, you fight just to know you’re ɑlive. becɑuse you know thɑt without them, you’d hɑve no reɑson to breathe.


I had a wonderful dream last night. :3
It made me happy, x3
Basically it just went like this:


Clara and Aria were over and we were making plans to have a big get together thing the following Friday.
I can't really remember Exactly what happened, or what they were saying. It was a good dream though, because Aria's cute and stuff. And Clara is awesome. 
Well, after that it was the next day, then Aria and Elizabeth came over to go to Eric's house, apparently.
Then we were all just chillin x3
then the next day, Aria came over with some girl :/


But it was still a good dream x3


If you're everything you say you are, then come close and hold my heart.♫


Omg, seriously? Please stop lying to me. This is starting to get really annoying.
Oh ps, when will you start caring that I exist again? Ever?
This is, what? The eighth time? :/
*rage*
*end rant*


I'm going to the mall with Hannah later. I was supposed to hang out with Quinn and Chelsey, but guess not... :/


Why is everything in my life such crap right now? ><
How come no one ever wants to hang out with me, or invite me to things? D:
This is no fun at all.
I'm such a lonely person, with no friends D:

Don't try and tell that you never loved me, I know that you did, you said it and you wrote it down. ♫

Dancing at discos, Eating cheese on toast. Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy, But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around. ♫


Holy crap, I love Kate Nash so much x3 her songs are so cute.
Please check them out. 8D


Just a warning, I'm feeling in a bloggy mood right now, so this post is probably going to be really long. c:


Starting now! 8D


So, I haven't gone to school in like 43875648 days. I have my reasons. I'll start going next week, though. I promise.


I was going to go today, but...I don't know. Again, I have my reasons for not going. I'll fix this though, no need to worry.


I woke up to giant gusts of wind, it was crazy o.o;
Redgie was terrified. And when I walked downstairs. IT WAS A DISASTER! It's like a hurricane came through the kitchen. Everything was knocked over, and the window fell out. Everyone was probably at school while this crazy wind thing was going on, but still, it was insane.


OHH! and yesterday...x3
So I was talking to Eric while this happened. I heard like this squeeling from outside, so I thought Squirrels were fighting or something, so I looked out the window, and on the telephone wire, I saw this figure. Mind you, it was dark and I wasn't wearing my glasses. But I do know that this thing was way too big to be a squirrel x3 I just assumed it was a raccoon or possum or something. But then it started snarling o.o; and the squirrel started squeeling really loud. It's like a squirrel was getting devoured. D; it was so horrifying. I took out my camera and recorded the sounds though. x3 even my mommy heard it, and usually it takes A LOT to wake her up loool


What else was I going to talk about? Hrmmmm.


So, Redgie is like really fat now. I don't even know what happened. He's like overly obese.


Hannah's coming home this weekend 8D
I'm so happy! I miss her. C:


Last night I couldn't sleep, so I ended up watching the rest of The Little Mermaid 2 ;D
Then, watched half of The Little Mermaid: Ariel's Beginning. x3
I love The Little Mermaid. C:


I was really upset last night cause a certain stupid, poofy-haired, fellow I know is just mean to me. I wrote a really long note/letter thing to him, but I never sent it. I just needed to get out my feelings of this situation, then I felt better. c:
I wish he gave a damn about my feelings for once :/ whatever.


But all you do is treat me bad, break my heart and make me feel so sad,
Tell me what did I do wrong, to make you stay away so long,
Yes baby love, my baby love, I need your love♫
LOOL funny how I found this song right when I wrote that. 8D


I have nothing to do tonight. I need to find something. I know Hannah's coming home tonight, but I don't actually have anything to do. 
I'm going with Hannah to get her hair cut tomorrow morning, then apparently hanging out with Chelsey and Quinn.
I was supposed to go to the movies with Sammie, but I don't know when we'd go, and I can't even remember what we're gonna see x3


I'm not going to the Hedley/Lights concert anymore. I wanted to go soo badly. I may just curl up into a ball and die. D:


I should probably clean the kitchen. Just so no one murders me for staying home today.


All I have been eating lately is Nutella Sandwiches. x3 they're good and all, but I need more food. ;c


All that is on my mind lately is this...fight? I guess you could call it that...between Aria and I. He's not really talking to me right now. I don't even know why. All I did was try and talk to him. Then he got mad. I guess I annoyed him mad core. Oh well...actually no...:C this is just stupid.


Well before I go clean the kitchen, I want to post awesome lyrics. 8D


Simply knowing you exist Ain't good enough for me But asking for your telephone number Seems highly inappropriate. Seeing as I can't Even say hi When you walk by. And that time you shook my hand It felt so nice I swear I never felt This way about any other guy And I don't usually notice people's eyes but... And when I saw you Kissing that girl My heart it shattered and my eyes, they watered And when I tried to speak I stuttered.
And my friends were like whatever You'll find someone better His eyes were way too close together And we never even liked him from the start And now he's with that tart And I heard she done some really nasty stuff Down in the park with Michael He said she's easy And if your guy's with someone that's sleazy Then he ain't worth your time 'Cause you deserve a real nice guy.
I don't ever dream About you and me I don't ever make up stuff about us. That would be classed as insanity I don't ever drive by your house to see if you're in. I don't even have an opinion On that tramp that you're still seeing. I don't know your timetable. I don't know your face off by heart
But I must admit. That there is still a part of me That thinks we might get on.♫


And something just went boom upstairs D: *scared*


And this song is just crazy cute 8D


I hate seagulls and I hate being sick. I hate burning my finger on the toaster and I hate nits. I hate fallin over, I hate grazing my knee. I hate pickin off the scab a little bit too early. I hate getting toothache, I hate when it’s a pisstake. I hate all the mistakes I make. I hate rude ignorant bastards and I hate snobbery. I hate anyone who if I was serving chips wouldn’t talk to me.
But…I…have…a friend… With whom…I like to spend Anytime…I…can find…with.
I like sleepin in your bed I like knowin what is goin on inside your head. I like takin time and I like your mind and I like when your hand is in mine. I like getting drunk on the tunes by the beach. I like pickin strawberries
I like cream teas and I like reading ghost…stories. 
My…heart skips a beat every time that we meet. It’s been a while and now your smile is almost like a memory
But then you’re back and I am fine cos you’re with me And I’m in love…with you.
And I…can’t find the words to make it sound unique…but… Honestly…you make me strong! I can’t believe I’ve found someone this kind. I hope we carry on Cos you’re so nice and I’m in love…with you…♫


And she said "Thanks, I like you too" and he said "Cool." ♫


Okay! Kitchen cleany time.
Blasting music while cleaning always seems like good motivation. C:


I just would like to say, whoever is reading this...I love you so much :D
You are just a great human being, and I adore you being my friend. c:
I don't think that last part made much sense, but just pretend it did, kay? 8D
♥


Adios dearest friends of mine. C:




Eww, Narcy just signed online.

The Hunchback of Notre Dame;

I realized this movie is secretly my life.
If you think about it, it all just makes so much sense.
I'm Quasimodo because we both have physical flaws and everyone makes fun of us, and we're basically outcasts, I guess.
Aria is Esmeralda, because Quasimodo falls inlove with Esmeralda and wants to be with her, but Esmeralda(that bitch) falls in love with that other guy. (I seriously can never remember his name) and she's a gypsy too. No one likes gypsies.
That one girl who's name shall not be mentioned shall be that other guy. Just cause Esmeralda fell for him. And that guy is really stupid.
Clara, Chelsey, and Quinn can be the three gargoyles, cause they are Quasi's only friends LOL
Anyone who hates Aria can be Frollo. But Frollo is gay.
I actually hate Frollo so much. He wants to kill Esmeralda just cause she's a gypsy, but according to Chelsey, gypsies are like prostitutes. Or something like that.
And I would give someone the title of Esmeralda's goat friend, but Aria doesn't deserve a friend. C:

Quinn's setting me up with a mystery person. 8D

YAAAAAAY.
Well, he better.
I'm desperate.
Since Natasha found her Declan,
I need someone so we can double date, with our men.

Breasts?
Okay, that's my new topic.
Be happy, sir -.-
So, uhm, yea....boobs
they are great things.
awesome creations. mhm, fo sho.

Quinns a mean friend.
mario, pasta, spaghetti, soup, ice cream, hickey's.
no, not hickey's.
why would i write about that?
pfffffffffft.

kesha's dad is mick jagger?!?!
apparently so.
wth, is that true?
yes., i will write down what you say.
no, i'm really not.
8D

quinn has a nice face.
but so does aria.
but now quinns dead.
shit. ♥

The past two days;

I don't have enough time to write about everything, but I'll try.
Yesterday was Sammie and Nick's double birthday. It was loads of fun. 8D
At first a something happened and I ended up going to the party crying...D:
I felt really bad, but I couldn't help it...
Then after I stopped crying and got off the floor, since I was laying on the grass. Chelsey came over and said she wanted to talk, so we did, but it consisted more of us spewing random words at each other, like "I'm Sorry" and stuff, then she tackled me, and carried me away. And then Quinn came out of nowhere and tackled me, it scared me immensely D;
A lot of funny stuff happened, that I can't remember all of it, but I took like 349865874 pictures.
So I'll post those on facebook. :3
There was this one point was Quinn was laying on the hammock and Jacob came over to hug him, but when I took a picture it looked like they kissed. 8D
I don't really feel like saying everything that happened. :c
Everyone had fun; that's what matters. C:
Scott was gonna give me a ride home, but there was no room, so I said I'd go take the bus. I didn't even know what bus to take, so thankfully Alisha's mom found me walking down the street and picked me up x3
When I got home, I just chilled, then Natasha called, I almost missed the phone, but thank goodness I didn't.
She really needed to talk, so we talked about basically everything for over an hour.
Then, she needed to go for a bit, so I started talking to Aria, but he wouldn't let me call him :c he was being unfair again. Then that conversation got a little, uhhh...^^; $:
ANYWAY, so. after a bit, Natasha called back, but I was in the washroom x3
But when I called back she's like "Oh I kind of expected you to be in the washroom. You would of answered otherwise" which is true x3
I asked her a question involving Aria, and she said "Look at it like this, you're a mechanical pencil. And you have no led in you to be used. So no one can use you, but he still keeps you in his pencil case" it doesn't make much sense, but it did at the time. Then we started giving everyone else a school supply. It was fun. She's a label maker. Then we discussed how dinosaurs could have been furry, so we named a furry dinosaur that was never yet found "Fluffitoriousrexicorious"
All together, we were on the phone for like, three hours. :3
But that's okay, I love her.


Today!
I went to Toronto to visit Hannah, with my dad and Emily. twas good times. We met some of Hannah's friends. And I met Abraham! 8D
We went out to dinner, and I had mashed potatoes x3
They were delicious.
The ride back was so long, and I fell asleep, listening to Lights. :3


But yea, now I'm bored. Aria's not answering me, that cheese ball. :c
Butstill; ♥


She has won. Now its no fun. We've lost it all. The love is gone. And we had magic. And this is tragic. You couldn't keep your hands to yourself. I feel like our world's been infected. And somehow you left me neglected. We've found our lives been changed. Babe, you lost me. 
Now I know you're sorry, And we were sweet. Oh, but you chose lust when you deceived me. And you'll regret it, but it's too late. How can I ever trust you again?♫

Quinn thinks I'm stupid.

You can't lie to Caroline over the phone, she knows all. ;D
Especially when I can hear Chelsey in the background.
Goodness. D:


My face hurts. Well, my head does.
My hair looks retarded, my nap messed up my hair.
I'm super bored.
I'm going to Toronto on Sunday now. (y)
I'm now just waiting for either Quinn or Aria to tell me I can call them. :3


She's more then jacuzzi with jets, they use a mop for this when it's wet. ♫
Oh how I love random rap songs that say the darnedest things. 8D 


The day that you slipped away, was the day I found it won't be the same. ♫


:Ö <---- DOUBLE SHOCKED FACE
Looool, Idk if I'm the only one who sees it. I think I'm going insane.


I'm so bored. I wants to call Aria. ewerfvrjctnyh D:




Some people laugh, some people cry. Some people live, some people die. Some people run, right into the fire. Some people hide their every desire. But we are the lovers, If you don't believe me then just look into my eyes 'cause the heart never lies. Some people fight, some people fall. Others pretend they don't care at all. If you wanna fight I'll stand right beside you, the day that you fall I'll be right behind you to pick up the pieces. If you don't believe me Just look into my eyes 'cause the heart never lies.♫



Please understand, this isn't just goodbye, This is I can't stand you. ♫
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful. ♫




Do you ever wish she was me, or am I left here missing you not missing me?
Look at me, In my eyes. And tell me that you feel nothing inside. Cause I can't wash you off my skin.. But I can't see you ever again. 
So I'll forget I love you, Don't want you anymore..
I'll keep on lying to myself, cause we could've had it all..
And you should keep pretending that Im only just a friend, Can you look me in the eyes and say that its worth it in the end?♫♥


So, the above song (Could've been-The Veronica's) and the song Nicest Thing- Kate Nash, both really explain my, I guess you could say love life, or lack of.




I really need to stop always posting lyrics. But I mean, they express my feelings better then I ever could. D;

Today was a good day. :3

I woke up in a "I wanna die" kinda mood, so that wasn't too fun, I forcefully got ready for school, but once my daddy bought me Tim Hortons I was happy. 8D
English was boring as usual :/
Rant: So I'm taking grade eleven english right now, cause I failed last year. It's workplace, so this is kind of expected. But seriously, why do teachers treat workplace students like they are completely stupid and don't know anything. (Btw, I accidently said Stupidents, other then students xDDDD)
But seriously. This is high school. Even though it's a lower level course, you shouldn't be treating us like we're in elementary school. :/
Whatever, anyway. Cosmo is alright, I decided just to stay in the class, since I'm in a grade ten class(and already took grade eleven cosmo) I was just gonna switch. But switching out became too complicated so I just decided to stay. I love my teacher. Mrs. Dinoi, is like my favourite teacher. :3
Lunch was slightly boring. We don't have many people during third lunch. It's only me, Sammie, Jacob, Nick, Shayla, and Erin. We just kinda walked around and stuffs.
Religion was interesting. (My only grade twelve course this semester -.-)
we were talking about how if your in a job that is like, at a really high, like standard I guess, and if you do something bad in your personal life, and it becomes like a problem, if you should get fired.
The explanation my teacher gave was if he did either drugs or had an affair, which would be worse and if he should get fired. I had my opinions on the matter, but kept them to myself, cause I never talk during class.
My opinion: Doing drugs would be worse and for that he should get fired. Bad influence and it would mess up his teaching. But if he had an affair, that's his personal life, and should stay that way and not be apart of the school gossip. Even still, he shouldn't get fired for that, because it has nothing to do with his job whatsoever. 
I got alittle caughr up in that ^^;
Omfg musical theatre was so fun today. 8D
I was so excited to read our scripts.
Once the auditorium doors opened I ran on the stage, sat right in the middle, and then when the lights turned on, I screamed "LIGHTS!!!!!"
For some reason I always get so hyper in that class. I just love.
Holy crap, so far, everyone is so good at their roles :3
Meghan, Victoria, and Kyle seriously made me laugh mad core today x33
They just get so into their role, it's fantastic 8D
I don't understand why everyone started laughing when I said my one line, I started crying from laughing so hard though x3
I guess it was cause the other two pigs are all hyper and what not, and I'm just suddenly all serious. But that's how I interpreted "intelligent" xD


I was supposed to go to Toronto tonight to visit Hannah, but since her and my dad are fueding suddenly, we're not going :/
But whatever, I guess we're gonig on the weekend...I hope. 
 "UMBRELLA SEX!"
"Their babies would be little poncho's"
(I think that's what Yvonne said? ^^;)


After schools Quinny asked for me to call him, so I did, and we had a wonderful conversation. :3
I know that is just random. But it made me happy. 8D


Now I'm waiting for a certain male person to come online. *twittles thumbs* lalalala *rocks back and forth* *starts hyperventilating* oh goodness D;








My head was led by the lies you told. But to this day my heart you stole. In a bind left behind waiting for your call.

Find me outside sitting in the rain. On the curb in pain my heart is breaking. You look at me holding on to a dream that filled me long ago, But I'm still waiting. I'm still holding on. ♫

Dedicated Lights songs to friends. ^^;

“Honestly, if you don’t fit in, then you’re probably doing the right thing.”

I'm in the craziest Lights mood ever o.o;
I've been basically stalking her for the past like hour and a half.


But I decided to fix my list of dedicated songs, but also write some of the lyrics and why I dedicated that song. I'm bored and this sounds fun. 8D


Drive my soul- Clara; Just because I love her tons; 
You make the darkness disappear I feel found when you stay near I know where I am when you are here. My way becomes so clear. When you are gone. Will I lose control? You are the only road I know. You show me where to go. Who will drive my soul? ♫




Saviour- Quinn; cause he's my Saviour ♥;
I just want to run to you, And break off the chains and throw them away. I just want to be so much, And shake off the dust that turned me to rust. Sooner than later I'll need a Saviour. I'll need a Saviour. ♫




The last thing on your mind- Natasha; the lyrics explain everything;
Don't think too hard, if you think it hurts that bad. Don't talk about it, don't let it get you down. It's only one part, of the story. Just let it go, don't let this get you down now. Sing the last thing on your mind. The last word on your breath, I'll be the one to keep you, keep you at your best. The last thing on your mind, 'Cause I don't need your mess. I'll be the one to keep you one disaster less. I'll be okay, if you're okay. ♫




I Owe You One- Chelsey; the lyrics explain it all;
What you've given me is more than I can say. Cause I don't know the words to thank you properly. You pulled me from the grave and stood me on a hill, And when I was afraid you made me still. For the love you bring. Owe you everything. For the breath you give. You're my cause to live. For everyhting under the sun. I owe you one. ♫




Pretend- Ashley; this is our song;
Once in awhile I act like a child to feel like a kid again. It gets like a prison in the body Im living in. Cause everyones watching and quick to start talking, Im losing my innocence. Wish I were a little girl without the weight of the world. It would be nice to start over again. Before we were men. Id give, Id bend, lets play pretend. ♫




Second Go- Sammie; this is our song;
Give me a second go, Don't let me go alone. You saw me at the worst, You caught me falling first. All I wanted to know, Give me a second go. ♫




The Listening- Alisha; this just seemed like a good song for her;
I never really ever know what to say. When all of my emotions get in the way. I'm just trying to get us on the same page I always get it better right afterwards. When all the wrong impressions are said and heard. How come I can never get the right words? I need to convey, Wish I could explain. Can I let the trees do the talking? Can I let the ground do the walking? Can I let the sky fill what's missing in? And can I let my mouth do the listening? The listening. ♫




Lions!- Everyone; it's a song about being brave and such;
Give me a disaster, give me emergency, Stand me at the head of the crusade without a remedy. Show me to the shipwreck, show me how youre bones shake. And when Im at the edge of sorrows blade, show me how a heart breaks. Be steady on your feet. No matter the trouble you meet. Lions make you brave. Giants give you faith. Death is a charade.You dont have to feel safe to feel unafraid. ♫




Ice- Stefan&Narcy; they both just suck;
My mouth is frozen so I cant even speak. What a disappointment, I had it perfectly. What I was going to bring up suddenly. Stood like a stone as you stood quietly. Youre making it hard for me. All I can do is freeze. What I mean is, all I need is, Just a little emotion. Cause all I see is you not feeling. And youre giving me nothing nice. I tried to do you right, whyd you have to go and turn to ice. I dont think youre knowing how hard this is for me. Im not the type to say sorry constantly. So I swallowed my pride and I got on my knees. But still you just stood there as you stared at me. Your ego is getting old. How did you get so cold. Im looking at you looking at me, what can I do but say sorry. Its a little late but you know I just want you to be happy, What I got to say to make you let me get away with it this time, I know youre upset and that youre happy just to sit and hate me, But Ill make a bet that youll be better to forget about me, Even better yet Ill let a little light melt the ice, ice baby!♫




Up Up and Away- Eric; the lyrics explain it all;
We had a rocket, that fell out of orbit. We couldnt stop it, we couldnt control it. We were in a good course, it was a good flight. But I felt the heart force, holding me too tight. We are rockets, in the sky. We are planets, passing by. Up up and away. Forget me, go your own way. ♫




Quiet- Aria; the lyrics explain it all♥;
I'm not yours, and youre not mine. But we can sit and pass the time. No fighting wars, no ringing chimes. Were just feeling fine. This is where were supposed to be. Sitting by a broken tree. No tragedy, no poetry. Just staring at the sky I could wait a thousand hours. Stay the same in sun and showers. Pick apart a hundred flowers. Just to be quiet. Tell me when you feel ready. I'm the one, theres not too many. Hold my hand to keep me steady. Just to be quiet. With you. I like it here beside you dear. You're even more than you appear. And in the clouds my head is clear. Every time you say hello. So heres my heart, and heres my mouth. And I cant help if things come out. Cause there are words I want to shout. But maybe Ill stay low. ♫♥




Face Up- Me; this song is my inspiration;
Its late and I am tired, wish I could spark a smile. The place is flying high but right now I want to be low. Don't want to move an inch, let alone a million miles. And I dont want to go but I know I gotta go. I just want to feel alive. The times you dont want to wake up. Cause in your sleep its never over when you give up. The sun is always going to rise up. You need to get up, gotta keep your head up. Look at the people all around you. The way you feel is something everybody goes through. Dark out, but you still gotta light up. You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up. Seems like the more you grow, the more time you spend alone. Before you know it you end up perfectly on your own. The citys shining bright, but you dont see the light. How come you concentrate on things that dont make you feel right. I just want to feel alright. I'm looking for more than a little bit. I'm gonna have to find my way through it. Gonna leave a mark, Im gonna set a spark. I'm coming off the ground. I wont be looking down. ♫




I really hope you all actually read the lyrics. Even though they aren't from me, I still mean them dearly ^^;


And this took me like an hour to do, so you all better appreciate my love. D;

Seriously never laughed so hard in my life! LOL

Well Quinn told me to blog this, so I guess I'll start with this;
Chelsey told me Quinn and her were gonna come visit me, and it had to do with Green Apples. Quinn told me they were gonna come to my house and drink some green apple alcohol stuff, so whatever.
I called Quinn's phone at like 3, and Chelsey told me to go outside, so I did, and Quinn was like crying his hea doff, I was so scared, I didn't know what was going. He drank all this stuff and was worried his parents would find out. We walked to the park and seriously Quinn was sooo funny, I almost died laughing. He like fell on the grass, and got grass in his mouth every time he put his head down. He accidentally touched chelsey inappropriately once, cause apparently he wanted to touch her face. xD
I felt really bad though, cause he kept crying and crying, and :C
We somehow got him back to my house and he fell asleep on the couch right away.
After like an hour, while Chelsey and I wrote a fb note, and put all this stuff on Quinn; we put cups, macaroni, windex, a shoe and a duck on him x3
Sammie came over and then Quinn woke up. It was so funny. ohgod.

Well I'm gonig to go buy food so I'll finish this when I get back. :3

Okay I'm back. and holy shit this is alot of food D;

Well, back to my story.
Quinn was like, so out of it. He kept giving the finger to Sammie, and was saying naughty things to Chelsey as in telling her to touch his dick. LOOOOL
I couldn't stop laughing. He's one of the funniest drunks I've ever met. 8D
And then when my dad brought us fries. He ate them all. and Kept saying "omg these are amazing, these are so good eh?" and shoved them in his face. He kept saying the stupidest things, and apologizing for who knows what.
Idk, Quinn told me to blog this, and say every funny thing he said, but I actually can't remember. :/
All I know is, he's never allowed drinking again. (y)

Holy shit, so much food. *explodes*

ImissAria.Iwannatalktohimsobadholyshit.

I dyed my hair today. With help from Sammie.♥
It's red.
But really dark red D:
I'm so tired right now.
*sneezes*
fucking Quinn, he said he'd be on msn, but he's not, not I can't talk to him. x3

kaywhatever. lie to me and just not come to hamilton. that's fantastic. :C

Goodmood=gone.

Ahhh I'm so happy. :3

My life is just falling back into place, and everything is good. :3


I just had such an amazing day and realized life is just so good now.


Now that drama is done, and Aria and I are good again, everything seems much better.
I spent the day with my family, and with my dad,
I missed spending so much time with my dad. ♥
And I have Pocky, and I ate Burger Kind. And I love Redgie.
I love Chelsey.
And Clara.
And Shayla.
And Ivy.
And Elizabeth.
And Alisha.
And Natasha.
And Aria.
And Ashley.
And Sammie.
And Quinn.
OMFG I JUST SERIOUSLY LOVE EVERYONE!
I'm sorry if I missed anyone, but if I did, just know, I love you. A. Freaking. Lot.


OH MY HOLY CHEESE BALLS
APPARENTLY CHELSEY AND QUINN ARE GONNA VISIT ME TOMORROW?!?!?!
I SHALL BE PREPARED
GAAHHH THAT MADE ME EVEN HAPPIER
I LOVE MY LIFE
LEGIT
YAAYYYY


I just wish Aria would answer me. ♥


looooooooooooooooooooooool what are they gonna do? Pelt me with green apples?!?!?!?!?!?! D:
I'm so scared now. xDDDD




OH AND I LOVE LIGHTS.




I know we're heading for disaster. But I keep running faster, and faster. And I don't wanna wake you up, Cause I don't wanna let you down. I'm scared I'll never be enough, to keep you around. And there's a part of me that knows I'm everything you need but I'm afraid to let you in, afraid of what you'll see. And now I'm falling even harder for a boy I'll never know.♫

omfg ♥

I just re-realized how much I love Hedley.
I love basically every one of their songs.
I love their album "the show must go"
Like, so much.
One of my favourite songs off that album is Sweater Song.
It reminds me of Aria, for various reasons. ;3 ♥


Here, have a listen:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uLmU5Srjo-k
Legit, I can't stop listening to this now. xD


I's at laundromat and it smells of soap, wax, and vinegar in here.
I spilled soapy vinegar water on my shoe, oh noes D;
Been here since seven, awesome. 8D
Another hour maybe?
Woulda been more fun if Quinn could of made it, but sadly he couldn't, but that's okay, I still love him.
*sneezes*


OH 8D
So on the ride back from Toronto, I was listening to Lights (of course) and I picked songs that I dedicated to each of my friends 8D


Drive My Soul- Clara
Saviour- Quinn (since he's my saviour and all.)
Ice- Stefan/Narcy bahah 8D
Pretend- Ashley
Second go- Alisha
Face up- Me, cause that song is my inspiration.
Lions- All of my friends. :3
Quiet- Aria ♥
Up up and away- Eric.
February Air- Joe (just cause he sang this at Erics bday party xD)
Romance is...- Everyone aswell
Cactus in the Vally- Maybe Aria too x3


So yea, that's basically it. :3


Oh, and I dedicate the song 9 Shades Of Red by Hedley to my bestfrand Quinny. :3
just cause it rocks. 8D


Where did I go so wrong, singing the same sad song. 
Sitting home all alone saying woe is me la la la la la la la

I miss my sister D:

My sister is gone and I miss her :c

Well, I woke up late today and didn't get to get my uniform. :/
School starts in like two days, and I have no uniform, awesome.
Well I woke up at 11, talked to Aria for a bit, and then helped pack all of Hannah's stuff into the truck. We dropped Emily off in Burlington at Orchard animal hospital, where she works. And then we set off onto over adventure to Toronto. Hannah and I were listening and singing to music on her laptop, surprisingly the battery on her laptop lasted the whole ride. 8D
We got to residence and put all her stuffs in her room. Then we were going back to the truck, but Hannah forgot something in her room, so we had to go back upstairs, so we took the elevator (I hate elevators.) and there were these too guys in the elevator. Derick, and Rob. They were nice. :3 and cute. :3
Derick lives on Hannah's floor, which is sick. 8D
Then we all ventured off to Walmart! 8D
And the whole time, I was like "Let's hope we randomly run into Lights" we didn't though D:
Omg, this walmart was the most amazing thing ever. It was two floors, and instead of an escalator, it was this escalator type thing, but you just stand, it's sick cause you can bring like buggies on it. OMFG I WAS SO EXCITED TO GO ON IT LOOL
I was also so happy because there was pocky there :3~
So now I's eating lots and lots of pocky. :3
Then we went back to Hannah's room and we said our goodbyes, it was so sad :c
The ride home was fun though, I listened to Lights and daydreamed...♥

I'm about to head over to the laundromat to help my dad out with Quinn. We're fixing the floors and painting the rails on my dads truck. Gonna be fun. *sneezes*

Now I's just talking to Dom, and listening to music, and thinking, and wanting to talk to Aria.
Loool pretty sure Aria just accidentally put his message to me as his status, x3
He's cute. ♥

I realized today, that I really need a phone. Like, legit. :c
I miss being able to text people.

Well, I'm off. Ttfn. ♥

Good day. :3

So this my day;
Woke up at like 10, waited for three hours for Eric, Dom, Clara and Scott to come over, then we went over to Sammie's, and instead of gonig to the orientation thingy, Sammie just came with us. Me, Sammi, Clara and Eric, all crammed into the back seat of Scotts car and then we went to Erics house to find Scotts phone (which was at my house) then we went to Adrian's house. But no one was there. So we walked to Dom's house, then walked back to Adrians. Waited for a really long time. I think one of the funniest things was when Sammie and I were just sitting on the drive way, waiting for Narcy. We waited for so long. This person really far away was walking towards us, and I'm like "I think that's him!" and Sammie said "No, I think that's an old lady" so I was like kay whatever, then the person walked closer and I'm like "That is him!" and we both couldn't stop laughing, cause Sammie said he looked like a girl. 8D an old lady to be exact. We all just waited for a really long time for Adrian and the others to come.
We waited more for Aaron to take a shower, then we were off ;D
We ended up going to Splitsville just to play pool. It was fun. They played like 438875 times. I swear, it felt like Narcy won every game o.o; but he didn't, he lost multiple times, what a loser. :3
I was really hyper while they played pool. I don't know why. I told Aaron a story about rabbits. and a certain male rabbit. Who ahted a female rabbit. It's funny how Aaron knew who I was talking about. And he said he'd hit him with the pool stick thing for me. 8D
Well, okay. I said that. He just said he'll beat him in pool. x3
That was fun overal. And then we were leaving, and even thoguh there was this horrible awkwardness between me and Narcy. (I don't know why there just was.) I decided to say goodbye to him, just to be nice, and according to Sammie he said bye back. Made me happy. x3
And on the way back, Scott almost got into multiple accidents. xD

I'm tired now. *yawns*
bye.

There's just too much on my mind right now. o.o;

1. I really want to talk to you, I know you're not in the best mood, but I still wish you would want to talk to me about it.

2. That gift I bought you two years ago; what am I supposed to do with it? I still have it, and it's just sitting in my closet. :/

3.I feel completely forgotten.

4. School starts in five days, and I still don't have a uniform. Mom, why the hell did you throw my uniform out? ><

5. I don't understand Tumblr.

6. I really hope I get to see you soon. You don't understand how excited I am for that day.

7. I really wish you didn't hate me.

8. I miss the way things used to be between us. :C

9. Redgie is really fat. :c

10. I tried lightening my hair today, what a waste of five dollars and an hour of my life.

I'm just trying to keep it together, because I could do worse, and you could do better.

Yesterday was crazy fun.
Clara blogged everything, so I'm not even going to bother.
She left at around...9:30?
I don't even remember, but I just fell back asleep and woke up at 12:30 o.o;

‎"I don't like to lose, I don't like to give up, but why is it that I am so good at doing what I don't like so much?"

"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."


I no longer know what is going on today. I was supposed to hang out with Quinn, then help out at the laundromat. But I don't think either is happening now. :/
Yea, that's not happening. :/
Whatever.

Rant time:
He really needs your help. Can't you just help him out without always constantly complaining. Please? He needs you, and you won't give him the help he needs. I understand your side of this, but he really does need you. Ughhhh.

I just wish he would sign online right now, he's the only one I know would actually talk to me.

Olive you.

In my head I replay our conversations over and over until they feel like hallucinations. You know me, I love to lose my mind. And every time anybody speaks your name I still feel the same. I ache, I ache, I ache inside.

Just some stuff that's going to happen soon, or might be happening, IN LIST FORM!

1. School tomorrow to pick up timetables and what not. Still need to fix it. :/
2. Hang outs with people after
3. go home to do my hair ;DDDD
4. Help daddy and Quinny at Laundromat on either Wednesday or Thursday.
5. Possibly hangouts with Eric, Clara, Dom and apparently Narcy on Thursday x3
6. What's going on Friday? I don't remember :/
7. Help move Hannah to Toronto♥

And I think that's it. ;P

School starts next week, and there's a whole bunch of stuff after that that be going on.
Like becoming a clown.
Apparently I have to be a clown now, just so Eric can brag about it. -.- x3

Apparently Aria might be coming to Hamilton in like, two weeks, I hope he does! :3
That excites me. ^-^

I should sleep now.
HOLY CRAP! SLEEP AT 11? THAT'S A FIRST IN LIKE 4384587468 YEARS! D;

Well, night. :3 ♥


I should of known better than to give you my only heart.

Tomorrow. :3

So tomorrow we're having this BBQ at my house.
Even though it's not even a BBQ, because we're having tacos and chicken fajitas apparently O.o;
Well, we're having this fiesta because it's a going away party for my beloved sister, Hannah.
She's going away to college in...not even a week D:
*sniff sniff* I'ma miss her. D:
JUST KIDDING 8D
LOOOL
I will miss her, but it'll be much quieter once she's gone xD
Well I was allowed inviting a friend, cause it'll be boring for me.
Even though it's my family there, and apparently, according to Hannah *I'm* the guest of honor xD
But everyone's going to be so focused on Hannah that I'ma be alone.
My daddy basically told me to invite Chelsey and Quinn, so I did. :3
And since they's no longer mad at me (at least I believe they're not D:)
They be coming tomorrow :3
I'm uber excited. AND I JUST SPILLED MY MONSTER T_T
Well yea, I'm really excited for tomorrow, even though I'm kind of sick. :c
Been sneezing like crazy lately.

well yea, the end.

♥

// Quinn \\ ChelseyCole says:
because you hate me
kankowski. says:
i do not hate you
i love you
a lot
// Quinn \\ ChelseyCole says:
sure ;C
kankowski. says:
I LOVE YOU
MORE THAN REDGIE
AND SADIE
PUT TOGETHER
AND THEY BOPTH HAVE MUSTACHES
BECAUSE I LOVE MUSTACHES
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ALL THAT WITH A SLICE OF PIE
NO
SCRATCH THAT
3485895345 PIES
GOT IT?
// Quinn \\ ChelseyCole says:
yes maam o.o
kankowski. says:
yea, you better say that
// Quinn \\ ChelseyCole says:
HAY
thats my catchphrase
kankowski. says:
well i borrowed it

Maybe I should sleep now...or not.

It is 5:16 am, and again, I can not sleep.
I'm a tiny bit tired, but I can't sleep.
Stupid summer, messing up my sleepy pattern.

just cause I'm super bored, I will write about what I did today.

-woke up at 2ish, by getting yelled at by my dad over the phone.
-biked over to the laundromat, just to have my dad meet me there, even though he told me to go there to fix the machines
-went to McDonald's with Hannah
-stayed at the laundromat for multiple hours.
-watched Degrassi♥
-went to the store and bought ice cream
-chilled
-complained about the hatred of my best friend. :C
-Texted Le Stefan
-ranted about how stupid Stefan is.
-talked to Quinn and Chelsey
-Love Quinn and Chelsey
-drank energy drink at 3 am
-kept texting Stefan
-complained more about Stefan
-Read lines for musical theater
-planned to take a shower but didn't (i will soon)
-still waiting for Stefan to text back o.o;
-wishing someone would come online and talk to me D:

damn..I hate Rhianna. Like, fuck. She's so annoying :/
I hate that thing she does with her lip. fuck.

I actually have no freaking clue, but I THINK I might be hanging out with Stefan tomorrow o.o; errrr today.
I told him I wanted to talk to him, and I'm pretty sure he agreed to such things so, yea. I just don't really know, cause he never gives a straight answer. But whatever.

ohey Katy Perry ♥

i listened to her new album on YouTube, dang it it's good :3
I like her song Firework.
Makes me happy.
And "The One That Got Away"
YAY!

*yawns*

Redgie is fat. Like extremely.

Earlier, when I was texting Stefan, I had to leave my dads cell in the other room, well, just cause LOLL
so I told Sadie to tell me whenever he texted back.
And she did good work.
Cause every time I walked in to see Sadie, there would be an unread text. 8D

I love Chelsey. A lot. She's my wife. And I love her. A lot. I already said that. But I love her. A lot. ♥

AND QUINN'S AWESOME SAUCE
(but he doesn't like talking to me any more)

I really should go take a shower soon.
Hopefully before 6 am.

I hope Stefan texts me back before 7 at least o.o;
cause my dad will flip if he gets a text from Stefan.
He'll be like "Why do I keep getting texts from all these people? It costs so much money, please stop yatta yatta yatta"

I got all mad earlier, all over again, cause it pisses me off that people still can't let things go. I mean, that happened like, two months ago. It's over. I don't care anymore. I got over it, so should everyone else. It isn't even that big a deal, a lot of people lose feelings for someone. So, grow up, and get over it. I don't even get why you're the one who won't let it go, since it has nothing to do with you.


narcyscutewhat


okay i'ma go take shower then collapse in my bed :3

btw i love Lights.
And I'm legit excited for the Hedley concert in October.
I will legit cry if I don't/can't go.
I need to see Lights. :c
And I love Hedley.
And I'm also excited to see These Kids Wear Crowns.
They are actually really good. ♥
BAAAHHH LIGHTS♥



Okaybye.

Narcy's a disease? what? D:
apparently there's a lot of disease or something that start with "narc"
narcoma
narcomancy
narcomania
narcomaniac
narcomaniacal
narcomata
narcomatous

this is entertaining. LOOOOL

why am i doing this?

i must sleep ><
stupid Caroline *hits self*

The movie of my life.

So, I realized, if I made a movie of my life, it would be pretty crazy.
And I started thinking of who would play who, so I asked my sister, and this is what we came up with. (but mostly her)
Me- Either myself or someone o.o;
Quinn- Michael Cera.
Hannah- I forget xD
Chelsey- still thinking about it
My dad- Arnold Schwarzenegger
Stefan- Landon Liboiron
Eric- Miranda Cosgrove (O.o; don't ask, Hannah makes no sense xD)
Narcy- Either Enrique Iglasias(♥) or the guy who plays Zane from Degrassi xD or he can be himself ;3

I realized, if Narcy were to be played by Enrique Iglasias, then I wanna be myself. Or even if he was himself, I'd still wanna be myself. LOL

That's all I could really think of.
If anyone can think of who they would want to play them, just comment it, cause this is actually fun to think about. 8D

One rule: Someone has to be played by Munro Chambers, just cause I seriously love him. 8DD


*Edit: SCREW IT, STEFAN'S GONNA BE PLAYED BY JIM POVOLO 8DDDDD