"I’ve been thinking lately of how much I miss you. Every time I hear certain songs or say certain things, I can’t get you off of my mind. Sitting in chemistry today I thought to myself “Last year, when I was sitting in this very seat, I was dating him.” Then it sent me through a wide array of emotions. First, I thought of how much you make me mad. I thought about how you used me. I thought about how you made me cry. It crossed my mind that maybe it wasn’t worth it. But it WAS. For the past few months I’ve been telling myself that we broke up for a reason. I’ve been trying to convince myself that I don’t like you and that I never really did. Lies. I miss you. You were a real BOYFRIEND to me. Not some fake shit that you see all the time in high school. I knew what we had was real. Now, I text nobody. I call nobody. I “facebook” nobody. Why? That’s what I did with you. Nothing’s ever the same. I pushed people away so I could be with you. Maybe it was a mistake, maybe it was for the best. But now I have nothing except the memories of what we used to be. What we had. We never fought. I can’t say that about any other relationship I have ever had. There is not ONE THING I could think of as to why I wouldn’t want to be with you, other than the fact that you hate me now. I always try to be nice, out of courtesy, but all I get is bullshit back. I doubt you read this anymore, so you’ll probably never even see what I’m saying to you. We weren’t together forever, but what we had was the real thing. You know when you’re with the right person. I knew. My biggest mistake was when I chose the wrong option. We could’ve worked it out, or just let it go. I decided to let it go, strictly out of anger. I have been regretting that every day. Nobody has ever compared to you and probably never will. There is so many things I could write here. This is my stream of consciousness about you. I don’t even know how to word how I feel. It’s indescribable."
I stole this from some random girl, but it seems to fit this situation perfectly. It's incredibly accurate, except for the chemistry thing and the "i don't go on
facebook anymore" thing xD
Showing posts with label him. Show all posts
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Saturday, September 25, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
I just took apart this whole song D:
all the things I swore I saw in you
I never saw them coming true
maybe I just need to see your face
here we go again, again
I always seem to let you in
and it's my fault 'cuz I'm the kind of girl who stays.
i'm the one who put it on the line
her heart, her clothes and all her time
left them lying on a bedroom floor.
if you wanted to be here
yeah, you would.
maybe baby you'd be fair
and finally give me a care.
♫
I never saw them coming true
maybe I just need to see your face
here we go again, again
I always seem to let you in
and it's my fault 'cuz I'm the kind of girl who stays.
i'm the one who put it on the line
her heart, her clothes and all her time
left them lying on a bedroom floor.
if you wanted to be here
yeah, you would.
maybe baby you'd be fair
and finally give me a care.
♫
Friday, September 3, 2010
Looooooooooool ♥
this is hilarious.
The only way I got him to go on webcam is if I promised I stripped tomorrow morning x33
That may or may not actually happen though o.o; depending on when I go to Toronto with my sister. I just never mentioned that to him. ;3
and for some reason I can't stop smiling.
It's taking so much effort not to smile like an idiot right now. I couldn't stop laughing so I said "brb Sadie's calling me" just to get it out.
I missed talking to him. :3
Like, a lot.
He won't believe that his face is beautiful. I like his face. A whole bunch. ;3
I'm now on webcam as well, even though I look like gross stuff D;
Loool why did I agree to him getting off at 9? I'm not done looking at his beautiful face. ♥
I kind of needed talking to him, just to clear my mind, and get my mind off of a stupid poofy haired rabbit-elephant. LOL
And now he's gone D:
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says:
Rofl
And now its 9
kankowski. says:
D:!
Don't leave me. Ever. <3
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~ ≧∀≦ And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be? says:
Lol
Well ill be back tomorrow after you give me a show ;3
Oh goodness gracious. LOOOOOL
I kind of love him LOOL
I have tictacs. 8D
So, I just realized I have to get up really early tomorrow o.o;
I have to leave at 9 to finally get a new uniform. And then I'm leaving around 11 to go to Burlington to drop Emily off, and then to Toronto for the day. And somewhere between 8 and 11 I have to strip for Aria. o.o; fml D;
WOAAHHH
I JUST REALIZED!
WE COULD TAKE A DETOUR AND VISIT LIGHTS!
YAAAYYY
LOOOOOL ♥
I also just realized Aria is going to be reading this blog post, oh dang, I hope he doesn't hate me D:
Loool he's like waiting for me to finish this, oh gosh ! fml even more.
Just wanna say, so excited for when Aria comes down here loool like holy crap. I'll make him a cake. :3
Or something really epic like that.
Okay, I should stop now D;
And this is beginning to get to me...
I tried to tell you before I left, but I was screaming under my breath. You are the only thing that makes sense, just ignore all this present tense. ♫
Lyrics that fit with last night^
^^;
I'm more angry now than anything. I'm extremely upset about this. But the anger cancels out the sadness.
This doesn't even make any sense. You're so confusing. From my perspective, I didn't do anything to you. It would be great if you could at least tell me what I did, so I wouldn't be so confused. And you still ignore me constantly, even though yesterday was the first time we saw each other in like five months. But still, nothing. Not even one word. This isn't even fair. Could you at least explain to me what is even going on between us? Because I have no clue. I have no idea what this "fight" is about. I just want to talk to you, and for us to be friends. I'm trying to fix things between us but you're not making that very easy. But if you want to be difficult, and mean to me, then go ahead. But just know all I did was try to be your friend. :/
That was Caroline's rant of the day. Now I must go help Hannah pack.
Have a nice day.
Goodbye.
><
Lyrics that fit with last night^
^^;
I'm more angry now than anything. I'm extremely upset about this. But the anger cancels out the sadness.
This doesn't even make any sense. You're so confusing. From my perspective, I didn't do anything to you. It would be great if you could at least tell me what I did, so I wouldn't be so confused. And you still ignore me constantly, even though yesterday was the first time we saw each other in like five months. But still, nothing. Not even one word. This isn't even fair. Could you at least explain to me what is even going on between us? Because I have no clue. I have no idea what this "fight" is about. I just want to talk to you, and for us to be friends. I'm trying to fix things between us but you're not making that very easy. But if you want to be difficult, and mean to me, then go ahead. But just know all I did was try to be your friend. :/
That was Caroline's rant of the day. Now I must go help Hannah pack.
Have a nice day.
Goodbye.
><
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
There's just too much on my mind right now. o.o;
1. I really want to talk to you, I know you're not in the best mood, but I still wish you would want to talk to me about it.
2. That gift I bought you two years ago; what am I supposed to do with it? I still have it, and it's just sitting in my closet. :/
3.I feel completely forgotten.
4. School starts in five days, and I still don't have a uniform. Mom, why the hell did you throw my uniform out? ><
5. I don't understand Tumblr.
6. I really hope I get to see you soon. You don't understand how excited I am for that day.
7. I really wish you didn't hate me.
8. I miss the way things used to be between us. :C
9. Redgie is really fat. :c
10. I tried lightening my hair today, what a waste of five dollars and an hour of my life.
2. That gift I bought you two years ago; what am I supposed to do with it? I still have it, and it's just sitting in my closet. :/
3.I feel completely forgotten.
4. School starts in five days, and I still don't have a uniform. Mom, why the hell did you throw my uniform out? ><
5. I don't understand Tumblr.
6. I really hope I get to see you soon. You don't understand how excited I am for that day.
7. I really wish you didn't hate me.
8. I miss the way things used to be between us. :C
9. Redgie is really fat. :c
10. I tried lightening my hair today, what a waste of five dollars and an hour of my life.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Dear you...
I was young and caught in the crowd
I didn't know then what I know now
I was dumb, and I was proud
And I'm sorry
If I could go back do it again
I'd be someone you could call friend
Please please believe that I'm sorry.
If I wrote this myself, it would be more sincere then is now. ^^;
I didn't know then what I know now
I was dumb, and I was proud
And I'm sorry
If I could go back do it again
I'd be someone you could call friend
Please please believe that I'm sorry.
If I wrote this myself, it would be more sincere then is now. ^^;
Monday, August 23, 2010
Please don't go...
All those arrows the threw, you threw them away.
You kept falling in love, and then one day.
When you fell, you fell towards me.
When you crashed in the clouds, you found me.
Oh, please don't go.
I want you so.
I can't let go.
For I lose control.
Get these left handed lovers out of your way.
They look hopeful, but you, you should not stay.
If you want me to break down and give you the keys,
I can do that, but I can't let you leave.
Oh please don't go.
I want you so.
I can't let go.
For I lose control.
♥
I typed all that out, because, well, I'm feeling really down, and I miss him. T_T
You kept falling in love, and then one day.
When you fell, you fell towards me.
When you crashed in the clouds, you found me.
Oh, please don't go.
I want you so.
I can't let go.
For I lose control.
Get these left handed lovers out of your way.
They look hopeful, but you, you should not stay.
If you want me to break down and give you the keys,
I can do that, but I can't let you leave.
Oh please don't go.
I want you so.
I can't let go.
For I lose control.
♥
I typed all that out, because, well, I'm feeling really down, and I miss him. T_T
Friday, August 20, 2010
lolololol.
It's like Degrassi turned my life into a show. ;P
Cause Eli is ignoring Claire and she doesn't know why, so she's trying to get closure, but he still won't talk to her.
Sound familiar?
Yea.
Only difference is, she gets closure, I still haven't. D:
I can still hope that it'll one day work out though...right? :c
Yesterday while I was watching the newest episode with Hannah, the teacher person was like "A friendship can crumble over the stress of one person wanting more than the other." or something like that.
And after she said "Getting closure is never easy" and then I said "amen." and Hannah laughed at me.
I love Eli ^-^
"When I'm around her, all I can think about is getting her to kiss me." D'awwww 8D
Cause Eli is ignoring Claire and she doesn't know why, so she's trying to get closure, but he still won't talk to her.
Sound familiar?
Yea.
Only difference is, she gets closure, I still haven't. D:
I can still hope that it'll one day work out though...right? :c
Yesterday while I was watching the newest episode with Hannah, the teacher person was like "A friendship can crumble over the stress of one person wanting more than the other." or something like that.
And after she said "Getting closure is never easy" and then I said "amen." and Hannah laughed at me.
I love Eli ^-^
"When I'm around her, all I can think about is getting her to kiss me." D'awwww 8D
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
rkjgvtrkgtjyter ♥
So, I just re-found a singer, whom I'm absolutely inlove with. :3
His name is Greg Laswell.
And his songs are the most amazing things I've ever heard.
(Other than Lights of course x3)
I really suggest you check out some of his songs.
They make me feels things.
"I should know better by now
Then to pick up that God damn phone
But I don'tAnd it's almost been a year"
Wow...D:
Not going to lie, in almost every one of his songs, his lyrics hit me in some sort of way, and make me feel like I'm about to cry. Like right now. They just make me think. And miss him...
"Wish I could pull you down today,
From that storm high up that's taking you away
What would you say to me?"
"If I could write out my own dream
For the next time that I sleep
You'd be the first one that I see
And I the last one that you keep
The dream would go on and on
While we sway"
*deepsigh*
And I'm sure that I am tangled up in things you said out loud to me. So recklessly, And it's easier to sing the things I wanna say to you, So I'll sing, you're losing me my love, You're losing me my love, Are you losing me my love?
His name is Greg Laswell.
And his songs are the most amazing things I've ever heard.
(Other than Lights of course x3)
I really suggest you check out some of his songs.
They make me feels things.
"I should know better by now
Then to pick up that God damn phone
But I don'tAnd it's almost been a year"
Wow...D:
Not going to lie, in almost every one of his songs, his lyrics hit me in some sort of way, and make me feel like I'm about to cry. Like right now. They just make me think. And miss him...
"Wish I could pull you down today,
From that storm high up that's taking you away
What would you say to me?"
"If I could write out my own dream
For the next time that I sleep
You'd be the first one that I see
And I the last one that you keep
The dream would go on and on
While we sway"
*deepsigh*
And I'm sure that I am tangled up in things you said out loud to me. So recklessly, And it's easier to sing the things I wanna say to you, So I'll sing, you're losing me my love, You're losing me my love, Are you losing me my love?
Friday, August 13, 2010
Just some lyrics. ^^;
I cried out on a moonlit night,
I was thinking back on time,
A cold breeze takes hold on me,
Oh, and he was a friend of mine...
I feel lost so I'm looking out,
I'm searching for a guiding light,
I keep aiming for the sun, so that my shadows all fall behind.
Oh, am I just wasting my time?
Am I just wasting my time?
I was thinking back on time,
A cold breeze takes hold on me,
Oh, and he was a friend of mine...
I feel lost so I'm looking out,
I'm searching for a guiding light,
I keep aiming for the sun, so that my shadows all fall behind.
Oh, am I just wasting my time?
Am I just wasting my time?
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Oh god LOOL
So I was really bored around 2 am, so I got Ashley way to call me, after soo much laughter, random moments, some sad moments, and long ass story that was completely irrelevant, we were on the phone until 5:10 am
157:52 to be exact.
I actually almost died, LOL
I was originally gonig to tell Ashley a secret, but it then turned into a really long story about how I met Narcy, then drama stuff, and then Stefan, just it was so horrible how it was all so offtopic and pointless, that I completely broke down, was on the floor crying from laughter, i couldn't breathe and i was about to pee my pants. legit.
All of that to tell her an irrelevent secret. It had to do with the beginning of the story, but then the middle was like KJSERNRCHFDWM;RFJTKRTRKLXEWNGTTRJHYTJ
I then serenated Ashley with multiple Lights songs. ^-^
Sadly Ashley had to leave after because she has an appointment later, I hope she survives and stuffs. ♥
It is now 5:20 and I am not even tired. But I am getting bored. My hyperness is wearing off. I should eat those noodles, they are getting cold.
LIONS MAKE YOU BRAVE
GIANTS GIVE YOU FAITH
DEATH IS A CHARADE
YOU DON'T HAVE TO FEEL SAVE TO FEEL UNAFRAID♥
I'm completely and utterly in love with Valerie Ann Poxleitner. :3 ♥
I must nom some noodles, then finish nomming my chocolate bar, drink some strawberry kiwi arizona, and the frolic off to my bedroom to do naughty things.
I'm just kiddin ;3
But I'm really not planning to sleep anytime soon. Probably stay up til 7 or something. I have nothing important to do tomorrow anyway.
BY THE WAY! I realized the shirt I'm wearing is definitely Lights-like. :3
And I should paint my bike pink so we can actually have the exact same bike.
AND! I want a chameleon! :3
Like..I'm being serious, they are so cute, I wants one.
We are rockets in the sky, we are planets passing by, up up and away, forget me and go your own way. ♫
*noms mr. noodles*
mmmmmmmmmm delicious
vin diesel
hands
cup
stick
candle
toaster
sweater
cupcake
pen...is
towels
well that was enjoyable.
I go eat more noodles *frolics*
okay i can't even eat anymore, they're starting to taste odd D;
So, I love a certain someone. His name is Quinn Fappiano. He is my best friend. And *not* a dick head like he said previously. I love him a whole lot. With all of my heart. And would like to remain the best of friends for a super long time. ♥
*chugs arizona*
For everything under the sun, I owe you one. ♫
chaos all around,explosions and fire, you took me off the ground, and lifted me higher, when trouble knew my name, that was before you, i'll never be the same now that I know you.♫
Those lyrics are probably way off. The volume is pree low.
So I messaged Narcy on msn, asking if he's up, cause I really feel like talking to someone. I believe he's slkeeping LOOOL;LAL;WMKR I LIEK MUSTARD WAIT NO I DON'T EW TUCKER HEY NARCY YAY *collapses* why is that on the floor? hey redige, whats up? i love you. a lot. like natasha, alisha, clara, shayla, chelsey, alisha, wait i said that, quinn, redgie, sadie, hannah, narcy, uhmuhmuhmuhm i also like cupcakes, YVONNE I LOVE YVONNE! AND ELIZABETH OH GOODNESS I MISS ELIZABETH! she's my wife. oh look windex.
what day is it? it's....AUGUST 12!
Hmmmmm, what am i doing the next few days? i don't even know. nothing. i'm doing nothing. alishas pageant is sunday, that's all i have planned. stefan. his birthday is saturday. he has a nice face. llalalalalalalalalalalalalala *flails* straighten up your tie, take the microphone forget about it, don't let it get you down, now is not the time and you are not alone, shut up about it, no one can bring you down now, sing the last thing on your mind, the last word on your breath i'll be the one to keep you, keep you at your best. i'll be okay. ow my neck really hurts.
wow stefan. i don't know why but neck hurting reminds me of stefan.
prolly cause once i killed my neck so i went to the hospital. and stefan works at that hospital. hospitals are cool. not really. i went there to visit my dad and iate macaroni and cheese. my arms hurt really bad from typing so fast.
once in a while i act like a child to feel like a kid again.
Pretend is my favourite song by Lights, the lyrics are so beautiful, and so relateable. i also love Lions! and River, and Cactus in the valley, and romance is...
I just love Lights alot.
And Jeremy the bug is beautiful.
i can;t think of anything else to say.
i love redgie.
and when it's the end, our lives will make sense.
It's not gonna be long, before we;re all gone, with nothing to show for them, stop taking lives come on let's all grow up again.
i should get a beard.
I changed my avatar on gaia. it's Lights inspired. I think it looks pretty good. likelike, it's me, but still lights inspired, i just love lights, and this song, it's lights, lights. lights. lights.
I wish i could discover something that doesn't expire.
well i'ma wrap this up. go have a party in my bedroom.
with redgie.
i love redgie.
right when i get upstairs i'm proibablky gonna crash or something.
and seriously, my arms hurt so bad cause i typed this whole thing out, really fast, and my neck kills and my head is gonna explode and i want to tLK TO NARCY CAUSE I LOVE HIM AND WEHY I AM TALKNIG TO CAPS I DON'T KNOW OMG UMBRIDGE AHAHAHAHAHA SO FUNNY.
ok, scratch all that, maybe i will sleep, i'm getting really sleepy, and it's almost 6 :O
SECOND GO ♥
reminds me of stefan. and his face. i like his face. i already said that.
how many times wil lthe clock go around? how many times can my hand hit the ground?
how can you love me when i am ugly? guess i can only hope.
give me a second go. ♥
okay. done. bye. i love you all. especially quinn. and chelsey. and clara. and natasha. and whoever will read this.
goodbye. i go sleep. or just watch tv untill i fall asleep, cause i can do that.
NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ or...morning? D;
i wonder if any one stopped reading? probably stopped way before this.
okay.
okay.
okay.
okay.
i go now.
bye.
*collapses and sleeps*
"Do you love him enough to get him back? Or do you love him enough to let him go?" -Ashley Way ♥
157:52 to be exact.
I actually almost died, LOL
I was originally gonig to tell Ashley a secret, but it then turned into a really long story about how I met Narcy, then drama stuff, and then Stefan, just it was so horrible how it was all so offtopic and pointless, that I completely broke down, was on the floor crying from laughter, i couldn't breathe and i was about to pee my pants. legit.
All of that to tell her an irrelevent secret. It had to do with the beginning of the story, but then the middle was like KJSERNRCHFDWM;RFJTKRTRKLXEWNGTTRJHYTJ
I then serenated Ashley with multiple Lights songs. ^-^
Sadly Ashley had to leave after because she has an appointment later, I hope she survives and stuffs. ♥
It is now 5:20 and I am not even tired. But I am getting bored. My hyperness is wearing off. I should eat those noodles, they are getting cold.
LIONS MAKE YOU BRAVE
GIANTS GIVE YOU FAITH
DEATH IS A CHARADE
YOU DON'T HAVE TO FEEL SAVE TO FEEL UNAFRAID♥
I'm completely and utterly in love with Valerie Ann Poxleitner. :3 ♥
I must nom some noodles, then finish nomming my chocolate bar, drink some strawberry kiwi arizona, and the frolic off to my bedroom to do naughty things.
I'm just kiddin ;3
But I'm really not planning to sleep anytime soon. Probably stay up til 7 or something. I have nothing important to do tomorrow anyway.
BY THE WAY! I realized the shirt I'm wearing is definitely Lights-like. :3
And I should paint my bike pink so we can actually have the exact same bike.
AND! I want a chameleon! :3
Like..I'm being serious, they are so cute, I wants one.
We are rockets in the sky, we are planets passing by, up up and away, forget me and go your own way. ♫
*noms mr. noodles*
mmmmmmmmmm delicious
vin diesel
hands
cup
stick
candle
toaster
sweater
cupcake
pen...is
towels
well that was enjoyable.
I go eat more noodles *frolics*
okay i can't even eat anymore, they're starting to taste odd D;
So, I love a certain someone. His name is Quinn Fappiano. He is my best friend. And *not* a dick head like he said previously. I love him a whole lot. With all of my heart. And would like to remain the best of friends for a super long time. ♥
*chugs arizona*
For everything under the sun, I owe you one. ♫
chaos all around,explosions and fire, you took me off the ground, and lifted me higher, when trouble knew my name, that was before you, i'll never be the same now that I know you.♫
Those lyrics are probably way off. The volume is pree low.
So I messaged Narcy on msn, asking if he's up, cause I really feel like talking to someone. I believe he's slkeeping LOOOL;LAL;WMKR I LIEK MUSTARD WAIT NO I DON'T EW TUCKER HEY NARCY YAY *collapses* why is that on the floor? hey redige, whats up? i love you. a lot. like natasha, alisha, clara, shayla, chelsey, alisha, wait i said that, quinn, redgie, sadie, hannah, narcy, uhmuhmuhmuhm i also like cupcakes, YVONNE I LOVE YVONNE! AND ELIZABETH OH GOODNESS I MISS ELIZABETH! she's my wife. oh look windex.
what day is it? it's....AUGUST 12!
Hmmmmm, what am i doing the next few days? i don't even know. nothing. i'm doing nothing. alishas pageant is sunday, that's all i have planned. stefan. his birthday is saturday. he has a nice face. llalalalalalalalalalalalalala *flails* straighten up your tie, take the microphone forget about it, don't let it get you down, now is not the time and you are not alone, shut up about it, no one can bring you down now, sing the last thing on your mind, the last word on your breath i'll be the one to keep you, keep you at your best. i'll be okay. ow my neck really hurts.
wow stefan. i don't know why but neck hurting reminds me of stefan.
prolly cause once i killed my neck so i went to the hospital. and stefan works at that hospital. hospitals are cool. not really. i went there to visit my dad and iate macaroni and cheese. my arms hurt really bad from typing so fast.
once in a while i act like a child to feel like a kid again.
Pretend is my favourite song by Lights, the lyrics are so beautiful, and so relateable. i also love Lions! and River, and Cactus in the valley, and romance is...
I just love Lights alot.
And Jeremy the bug is beautiful.
i can;t think of anything else to say.
i love redgie.
and when it's the end, our lives will make sense.
It's not gonna be long, before we;re all gone, with nothing to show for them, stop taking lives come on let's all grow up again.
i should get a beard.
I changed my avatar on gaia. it's Lights inspired. I think it looks pretty good. likelike, it's me, but still lights inspired, i just love lights, and this song, it's lights, lights. lights. lights.
I wish i could discover something that doesn't expire.
well i'ma wrap this up. go have a party in my bedroom.
with redgie.
i love redgie.
right when i get upstairs i'm proibablky gonna crash or something.
and seriously, my arms hurt so bad cause i typed this whole thing out, really fast, and my neck kills and my head is gonna explode and i want to tLK TO NARCY CAUSE I LOVE HIM AND WEHY I AM TALKNIG TO CAPS I DON'T KNOW OMG UMBRIDGE AHAHAHAHAHA SO FUNNY.
ok, scratch all that, maybe i will sleep, i'm getting really sleepy, and it's almost 6 :O
SECOND GO ♥
reminds me of stefan. and his face. i like his face. i already said that.
how many times wil lthe clock go around? how many times can my hand hit the ground?
how can you love me when i am ugly? guess i can only hope.
give me a second go. ♥
okay. done. bye. i love you all. especially quinn. and chelsey. and clara. and natasha. and whoever will read this.
goodbye. i go sleep. or just watch tv untill i fall asleep, cause i can do that.
NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ or...morning? D;
i wonder if any one stopped reading? probably stopped way before this.
okay.
okay.
okay.
okay.
i go now.
bye.
*collapses and sleeps*
"Do you love him enough to get him back? Or do you love him enough to let him go?" -Ashley Way ♥
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
(:
I just heard this song, like right now.
And these lyrics are amazing.
They explain my situation perfectly.
Nowhere to run- Lillix
YOU WILL KEEP ON RUNNING
AND I WILL KEEP ON HOLDING ON
I GOT A LOT TO SAY
BEFORE YOU TURN AWAY
WHAT ARE YOU HIDING FROM
WHEN YOU GOT NOWHERE TO RUN
FEEL LIKE I GOT NO FRIENDS
I'LL ONLY LOSE NOT WIN
I'LL BE ALONE TILL THE END
AND I GOT NOWHERE TO RUN
FEEL LIKE MY HEART IS TORN
THINKING WHY WAS I BORN
YOUR NOT ALONE MY FRIEND
WHEN YOU GOT NOWHERE TO RUN
Seriously...they match my life.♥
And these lyrics are amazing.
They explain my situation perfectly.
Nowhere to run- Lillix
YOU WILL KEEP ON RUNNING
AND I WILL KEEP ON HOLDING ON
I GOT A LOT TO SAY
BEFORE YOU TURN AWAY
WHAT ARE YOU HIDING FROM
WHEN YOU GOT NOWHERE TO RUN
FEEL LIKE I GOT NO FRIENDS
I'LL ONLY LOSE NOT WIN
I'LL BE ALONE TILL THE END
AND I GOT NOWHERE TO RUN
FEEL LIKE MY HEART IS TORN
THINKING WHY WAS I BORN
YOUR NOT ALONE MY FRIEND
WHEN YOU GOT NOWHERE TO RUN
Seriously...they match my life.♥
Monday, August 9, 2010
Lights.
I've been listening to Lights all day.
No wonder I've been having a good day 8D
I looked through all 2200 of her fan pictures
and watched her Audio Quest: A Captain Lights Adventure comic on Youtube. :3
I'm so excited for the concert in october. I'm so gping, no matter what.
I should be getting my Lights shirt soon, I just have to talk to my dad about it.
February Air and River were stuck in my head while going on a bike ride with Hannah earlier.
I kept singing them, then Hannah said:
"Do you really have to sing Lights? It's like I have my own personal Lights radio"
I feel like such a devoted fan.
And I'm going to come up with a surprise thing for Jeremy The Bug, just because I can.
Make him something special, cause he's awesome.
I just went on Twitter to check Lights and Jeremy The Bugs pages. And noticed a certain stupid faced "him" unfollowed me >:C
Seriously, this is pissing me off now.
He's making it seem like this whole thing is my fault.
Well it's great to know I'm practically hated for trying to be friends with him.
Just wonderful.
No wonder I've been having a good day 8D
I looked through all 2200 of her fan pictures
and watched her Audio Quest: A Captain Lights Adventure comic on Youtube. :3
I'm so excited for the concert in october. I'm so gping, no matter what.
I should be getting my Lights shirt soon, I just have to talk to my dad about it.
February Air and River were stuck in my head while going on a bike ride with Hannah earlier.
I kept singing them, then Hannah said:
"Do you really have to sing Lights? It's like I have my own personal Lights radio"
I feel like such a devoted fan.
And I'm going to come up with a surprise thing for Jeremy The Bug, just because I can.
Make him something special, cause he's awesome.
I just went on Twitter to check Lights and Jeremy The Bugs pages. And noticed a certain stupid faced "him" unfollowed me >:C
Seriously, this is pissing me off now.
He's making it seem like this whole thing is my fault.
Well it's great to know I'm practically hated for trying to be friends with him.
Just wonderful.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Roaroaroar.
So, I deactivated my facebook for various reasons. But just go on Sadie's fb just to check certain things. I decided to message a certain "him" just to get answers. closure, basically. I asked if I could just ask a simple question, so I did, all I wanted to know is why he hates me, and why he unfriended me, but i pretty much just wanted the truth, which i told him. But, instead of making things better like I had hoped, I somehow made everything worse. And he hates me even more. Apparently, he doesn't like me all that much, cause my first impression to him, was completely horrible, because of certain things that happened. He also hates me cause I annoy him, and bother him immensely, even though he didn't say it in those words, but still. But he said, and I quote "Just leave me alone please let me be? Bye forever."
I was really hoping he'd understand how I felt, I tried my best to explain things carefully to him. But I made everything worse. I don't get it.
I know I come on too strong, and act like an obsessive crazy girl. But I don't know...
I don't know why I wrote all this here and not my diary blog, but whatever.
Maybe for once I should stop talking to people, when I know I should give them space and give it time. Cause it really does make things worse. But I really need to get my point across. It's important that I do, and that I make everything clear. I'm not as much of a horrible person then he thinks I am.
I was really hoping he'd understand how I felt, I tried my best to explain things carefully to him. But I made everything worse. I don't get it.
I know I come on too strong, and act like an obsessive crazy girl. But I don't know...
I don't know why I wrote all this here and not my diary blog, but whatever.
Maybe for once I should stop talking to people, when I know I should give them space and give it time. Cause it really does make things worse. But I really need to get my point across. It's important that I do, and that I make everything clear. I'm not as much of a horrible person then he thinks I am.
Yea...that's it.
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going.
Yep, that's basically it...
But I know this crush ain't going.
Yep, that's basically it...
I apologize T_T
I apologize for the fact that I've only been posting lyrics lately.
I've just been so overwhelmingly sad lately, that song lyrics are the only thing that can describe how I'm feeling. So if you actually read the lyrics, instead of just ignoring them, then you'll know how I'm feeling ^^;
I feel like someone ripped out a piece of my heart and fed it to a zebra, basically.
I've done a lot of thinking lately, and realized a lot of things. I really need to find out who I am, and change everything. because I still can't figure it out, but whoever I am, is kind of retarded. I need to figure out who I am, who my real friends are, whats actually important enough to cry over, and I basically just need to try harder at everything, instead of being lazy and procrastinating life.
I know you two don't want to be my friend, but it would be nice if you could tell me why you're ignoring me. Because I wanted to be your friend, I really did. So if you're just going to avoid me and just be major butt heads, then that's cool. But it'd be nice if you could talk to me for a second, and tell me your reasons for the ignorance, instead of being so immature. Closure would be nice.
The song Swing Life Away by Rise Against, is actually so amazing. It basically is my theme song for my life right now.
I basically spent the day with some amazing people. They are pretty much my best friends; Quinn, Chelsey, Clara, and Sammie. ♥
We went to Gage Park for the Festival of Friends. Twas fun. We went to Mcdonalds and I got a double cheeseburger *drools*
I was pretty much dying from sadness the whole time. I really just can't help it.
Knowing that someone I really like just, out of nowhere, completely starts hating me, and won't talk to me at all. It would be nice if he would tell me why. *shrugs*
I guess until someone gives me a real reason to why they're ignoring me, I'll just be a sad panda.
It legitimately feels like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, fed it to a shark, and put the remainders back where they found it.
I wish they could see how upset I am, and possibly care for once. But I know they don't give a crap. I just...whatever...
I really want to be able to get over it. But it's so hard. Cause everything reminds me of them...WHY AM I SO PATHETIC?! D:
"I'm having chicken hearts and gizzards"
"What's a gizzard?"
"They look like testicles actually..."
"You're eating chicken testicles?!"
LOL ♥
Oh, btw, I hate him, a different him then him.
He;s just so effing dumb, I was stab him in the face.
All he says is lies, and starts drama for himself.
And blames me for adding drama into his life.
Uhhuh, yea sure.
And he adds himself into everyones business, especially mine, and says thathe doesn't care what i do or who i like. what an idiot.
Quinn better be proud of me for calling him a fuck, cause he is one. >:C
I've just been so overwhelmingly sad lately, that song lyrics are the only thing that can describe how I'm feeling. So if you actually read the lyrics, instead of just ignoring them, then you'll know how I'm feeling ^^;
I feel like someone ripped out a piece of my heart and fed it to a zebra, basically.
I've done a lot of thinking lately, and realized a lot of things. I really need to find out who I am, and change everything. because I still can't figure it out, but whoever I am, is kind of retarded. I need to figure out who I am, who my real friends are, whats actually important enough to cry over, and I basically just need to try harder at everything, instead of being lazy and procrastinating life.
I know you two don't want to be my friend, but it would be nice if you could tell me why you're ignoring me. Because I wanted to be your friend, I really did. So if you're just going to avoid me and just be major butt heads, then that's cool. But it'd be nice if you could talk to me for a second, and tell me your reasons for the ignorance, instead of being so immature. Closure would be nice.
The song Swing Life Away by Rise Against, is actually so amazing. It basically is my theme song for my life right now.
I basically spent the day with some amazing people. They are pretty much my best friends; Quinn, Chelsey, Clara, and Sammie. ♥
We went to Gage Park for the Festival of Friends. Twas fun. We went to Mcdonalds and I got a double cheeseburger *drools*
I was pretty much dying from sadness the whole time. I really just can't help it.
Knowing that someone I really like just, out of nowhere, completely starts hating me, and won't talk to me at all. It would be nice if he would tell me why. *shrugs*
I guess until someone gives me a real reason to why they're ignoring me, I'll just be a sad panda.
It legitimately feels like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, fed it to a shark, and put the remainders back where they found it.
I wish they could see how upset I am, and possibly care for once. But I know they don't give a crap. I just...whatever...
I really want to be able to get over it. But it's so hard. Cause everything reminds me of them...WHY AM I SO PATHETIC?! D:
"I'm having chicken hearts and gizzards"
"What's a gizzard?"
"They look like testicles actually..."
"You're eating chicken testicles?!"
LOL ♥
Oh, btw, I hate him, a different him then him.
He;s just so effing dumb, I was stab him in the face.
All he says is lies, and starts drama for himself.
And blames me for adding drama into his life.
Uhhuh, yea sure.
And he adds himself into everyones business, especially mine, and says thathe doesn't care what i do or who i like. what an idiot.
Quinn better be proud of me for calling him a fuck, cause he is one. >:C
Friday, August 6, 2010
Bahah some lyrics that make me laugh.
I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you.
^-^
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you.
^-^
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
♫
as far as i've been walking
i still haven't a found a thing
that's anywhere near
the feeling that you bring
i've gone a million miles
but nothing measures up
to the happiness i found
when i found your love
and i don't
think i could exist
if i didn't have
a little piece of this
cuz you've become my life
and that's how it's gonna be
cuz we are anchored down
to the bottom of this sea
i don't ever wanna be
anywhere without you
cuz when you're gone the sky
doesn't really look that blue
and i don't ever wanna leave
the comfort of your side
cuz when i'm not with you
the sparkle leaves my eyes
and when i'm on the ground with you
i feel like i can fly
as many stars as i've seen
in so many nighttime skies
i've yet to find one brighter
than the way i see you shine
i've traveled the world
just looking for that star
but it's nowhere to be found
except for in my heart
that's where you are
holding me down
that's where we are
this is something i'm not used to. You are a new kind of magic to me. We are not what i expected at all. ♥
i still haven't a found a thing
that's anywhere near
the feeling that you bring
i've gone a million miles
but nothing measures up
to the happiness i found
when i found your love
and i don't
think i could exist
if i didn't have
a little piece of this
cuz you've become my life
and that's how it's gonna be
cuz we are anchored down
to the bottom of this sea
i don't ever wanna be
anywhere without you
cuz when you're gone the sky
doesn't really look that blue
and i don't ever wanna leave
the comfort of your side
cuz when i'm not with you
the sparkle leaves my eyes
and when i'm on the ground with you
i feel like i can fly
as many stars as i've seen
in so many nighttime skies
i've yet to find one brighter
than the way i see you shine
i've traveled the world
just looking for that star
but it's nowhere to be found
except for in my heart
that's where you are
holding me down
that's where we are
this is something i'm not used to. You are a new kind of magic to me. We are not what i expected at all. ♥
Friday, July 30, 2010
50 posts in a month? Wow I'm good o.o;
Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving♫
I'm getting ready. Oh. So. Slowly.
Because I have two hours to kill.
To head to Quinn's house.
(Looool)
I had this crazy dream last night, and I can't even remember what it was about. It was about Musical Theatre, I know that for sure. Clara, Elizabeth, Quinn, and Stefan were in it. o.o;
I wish I could remember it.
All my life I’ve tried
To make everybody happy while I
Just hurt and hide waitin for someone to tell me
It’s my turn to decide♫
So Narcy hates anonymous me. :c
Well, he definitely doesn't love anonymous me, because he didn't answer me after I asked if he loved me. :C
I'm still waiting for "him" to message me back...I don't get it. What did I do wrong? T_T
...Everything, that's what. D:
Ugh, I was really looking forward to spending my Saturday with him...
Oh well...I'm now sleeping over at Sammie's house.
That should be fun...
I'm still dying on the inside though, knowing he didn't want to hang out in the first place.
I have to go finish getting ready.
:C
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving♫
I'm getting ready. Oh. So. Slowly.
Because I have two hours to kill.
To head to Quinn's house.
(Looool)
I had this crazy dream last night, and I can't even remember what it was about. It was about Musical Theatre, I know that for sure. Clara, Elizabeth, Quinn, and Stefan were in it. o.o;
I wish I could remember it.
All my life I’ve tried
To make everybody happy while I
Just hurt and hide waitin for someone to tell me
It’s my turn to decide♫
So Narcy hates anonymous me. :c
Well, he definitely doesn't love anonymous me, because he didn't answer me after I asked if he loved me. :C
I'm still waiting for "him" to message me back...I don't get it. What did I do wrong? T_T
...Everything, that's what. D:
Ugh, I was really looking forward to spending my Saturday with him...
Oh well...I'm now sleeping over at Sammie's house.
That should be fun...
I'm still dying on the inside though, knowing he didn't want to hang out in the first place.
I have to go finish getting ready.
:C
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Lyrics that explain my life right now. Also my favourite song. ♥
I’ll start this broken heart
I’ll fix it up so it will work again
Better than before
Then I’ll star in a mystery
A tragic tale of all that’s yet to come
Fingers crossed there will be love
But I get carried away with every day
And every fantasy
The deeper the wound,
The harder I swoon and wish that that was me
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I’m getting used to it
You have to get used to it
I’ll devise the best disguise
A brand new look and take them by surprise
They’ll never guess what’s not inside
I’ll express myself with ease,
With confidence and character complete
With fingers crossed, they’ll talk to me
But I get carried away with every page
In every magazine
The cheaper the thrill,
the deeper I fill my head with blasphemy
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I’m getting used to it
You have to get used to it
I’ll destroy this useless heart
I’ll fuck it up so it’ll never beat again
Not just for me but for anyone
But I get carried away
With every phrase and made up malady
The longer I hide behind these lies,
The more I disintegrate
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
You never get used to it
You just have to live with it
I’ll fix it up so it will work again
Better than before
Then I’ll star in a mystery
A tragic tale of all that’s yet to come
Fingers crossed there will be love
But I get carried away with every day
And every fantasy
The deeper the wound,
The harder I swoon and wish that that was me
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I’m getting used to it
You have to get used to it
I’ll devise the best disguise
A brand new look and take them by surprise
They’ll never guess what’s not inside
I’ll express myself with ease,
With confidence and character complete
With fingers crossed, they’ll talk to me
But I get carried away with every page
In every magazine
The cheaper the thrill,
the deeper I fill my head with blasphemy
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I’m getting used to it
You have to get used to it
I’ll destroy this useless heart
I’ll fuck it up so it’ll never beat again
Not just for me but for anyone
But I get carried away
With every phrase and made up malady
The longer I hide behind these lies,
The more I disintegrate
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
You never get used to it
You just have to live with it
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