Lip rings are fun. 8D

So today, I spent the day with Sammie, Nick and Natasha. It was crazy good times. :3
We chilled at the Laundromat for most of the time.
Then went over to the Halloween store; Spirit Halloween.
It's so amazing over there 8D
I bought mustaches, rainbow socks, and some fake piercings x3
We all wore two, and it was just fun x3
At one point Natasha took six and put them all over her face, oh gosh xD
I stole Sammie's phone, and was texting Aria, he kind of hates me, and was being kind of rude. :/
But whatever...he's just clueless. (:
i'm gonna message him, hopefully he doesn't get annoyed by my constant messaging him :/
Now I'm watching Gossip Girl. :3
"You're world would be better with out me"
"True, but it wouldn't be my world with out you in it"
D'awww ♥
This lip ring is awesome, but it's starting to hurt x3
It's weird eating suckers with it bahaha.

I miss Chelsey Cole. :C

Kay I leave Laundromat now. Kay bye :3

:D...scratch that...D:*

ɑnd thɑt’s whɑt you do when you cɑre ɑbout someone. you fight like hell to mɑke sure you keep them. even if they ɑren’t yours, you fight just to know you’re ɑlive. becɑuse you know thɑt without them, you’d hɑve no reɑson to breathe.


I had a wonderful dream last night. :3
It made me happy, x3
Basically it just went like this:


Clara and Aria were over and we were making plans to have a big get together thing the following Friday.
I can't really remember Exactly what happened, or what they were saying. It was a good dream though, because Aria's cute and stuff. And Clara is awesome. 
Well, after that it was the next day, then Aria and Elizabeth came over to go to Eric's house, apparently.
Then we were all just chillin x3
then the next day, Aria came over with some girl :/


But it was still a good dream x3


If you're everything you say you are, then come close and hold my heart.♫


Omg, seriously? Please stop lying to me. This is starting to get really annoying.
Oh ps, when will you start caring that I exist again? Ever?
This is, what? The eighth time? :/
*rage*
*end rant*


I'm going to the mall with Hannah later. I was supposed to hang out with Quinn and Chelsey, but guess not... :/


Why is everything in my life such crap right now? ><
How come no one ever wants to hang out with me, or invite me to things? D:
This is no fun at all.
I'm such a lonely person, with no friends D:

Don't try and tell that you never loved me, I know that you did, you said it and you wrote it down. ♫

Dancing at discos, Eating cheese on toast. Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy, But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around. ♫


Holy crap, I love Kate Nash so much x3 her songs are so cute.
Please check them out. 8D


Just a warning, I'm feeling in a bloggy mood right now, so this post is probably going to be really long. c:


Starting now! 8D


So, I haven't gone to school in like 43875648 days. I have my reasons. I'll start going next week, though. I promise.


I was going to go today, but...I don't know. Again, I have my reasons for not going. I'll fix this though, no need to worry.


I woke up to giant gusts of wind, it was crazy o.o;
Redgie was terrified. And when I walked downstairs. IT WAS A DISASTER! It's like a hurricane came through the kitchen. Everything was knocked over, and the window fell out. Everyone was probably at school while this crazy wind thing was going on, but still, it was insane.


OHH! and yesterday...x3
So I was talking to Eric while this happened. I heard like this squeeling from outside, so I thought Squirrels were fighting or something, so I looked out the window, and on the telephone wire, I saw this figure. Mind you, it was dark and I wasn't wearing my glasses. But I do know that this thing was way too big to be a squirrel x3 I just assumed it was a raccoon or possum or something. But then it started snarling o.o; and the squirrel started squeeling really loud. It's like a squirrel was getting devoured. D; it was so horrifying. I took out my camera and recorded the sounds though. x3 even my mommy heard it, and usually it takes A LOT to wake her up loool


What else was I going to talk about? Hrmmmm.


So, Redgie is like really fat now. I don't even know what happened. He's like overly obese.


Hannah's coming home this weekend 8D
I'm so happy! I miss her. C:


Last night I couldn't sleep, so I ended up watching the rest of The Little Mermaid 2 ;D
Then, watched half of The Little Mermaid: Ariel's Beginning. x3
I love The Little Mermaid. C:


I was really upset last night cause a certain stupid, poofy-haired, fellow I know is just mean to me. I wrote a really long note/letter thing to him, but I never sent it. I just needed to get out my feelings of this situation, then I felt better. c:
I wish he gave a damn about my feelings for once :/ whatever.


But all you do is treat me bad, break my heart and make me feel so sad,
Tell me what did I do wrong, to make you stay away so long,
Yes baby love, my baby love, I need your love♫
LOOL funny how I found this song right when I wrote that. 8D


I have nothing to do tonight. I need to find something. I know Hannah's coming home tonight, but I don't actually have anything to do. 
I'm going with Hannah to get her hair cut tomorrow morning, then apparently hanging out with Chelsey and Quinn.
I was supposed to go to the movies with Sammie, but I don't know when we'd go, and I can't even remember what we're gonna see x3


I'm not going to the Hedley/Lights concert anymore. I wanted to go soo badly. I may just curl up into a ball and die. D:


I should probably clean the kitchen. Just so no one murders me for staying home today.


All I have been eating lately is Nutella Sandwiches. x3 they're good and all, but I need more food. ;c


All that is on my mind lately is this...fight? I guess you could call it that...between Aria and I. He's not really talking to me right now. I don't even know why. All I did was try and talk to him. Then he got mad. I guess I annoyed him mad core. Oh well...actually no...:C this is just stupid.


Well before I go clean the kitchen, I want to post awesome lyrics. 8D


Simply knowing you exist Ain't good enough for me But asking for your telephone number Seems highly inappropriate. Seeing as I can't Even say hi When you walk by. And that time you shook my hand It felt so nice I swear I never felt This way about any other guy And I don't usually notice people's eyes but... And when I saw you Kissing that girl My heart it shattered and my eyes, they watered And when I tried to speak I stuttered.
And my friends were like whatever You'll find someone better His eyes were way too close together And we never even liked him from the start And now he's with that tart And I heard she done some really nasty stuff Down in the park with Michael He said she's easy And if your guy's with someone that's sleazy Then he ain't worth your time 'Cause you deserve a real nice guy.
I don't ever dream About you and me I don't ever make up stuff about us. That would be classed as insanity I don't ever drive by your house to see if you're in. I don't even have an opinion On that tramp that you're still seeing. I don't know your timetable. I don't know your face off by heart
But I must admit. That there is still a part of me That thinks we might get on.♫


And something just went boom upstairs D: *scared*


And this song is just crazy cute 8D


I hate seagulls and I hate being sick. I hate burning my finger on the toaster and I hate nits. I hate fallin over, I hate grazing my knee. I hate pickin off the scab a little bit too early. I hate getting toothache, I hate when it’s a pisstake. I hate all the mistakes I make. I hate rude ignorant bastards and I hate snobbery. I hate anyone who if I was serving chips wouldn’t talk to me.
But…I…have…a friend… With whom…I like to spend Anytime…I…can find…with.
I like sleepin in your bed I like knowin what is goin on inside your head. I like takin time and I like your mind and I like when your hand is in mine. I like getting drunk on the tunes by the beach. I like pickin strawberries
I like cream teas and I like reading ghost…stories. 
My…heart skips a beat every time that we meet. It’s been a while and now your smile is almost like a memory
But then you’re back and I am fine cos you’re with me And I’m in love…with you.
And I…can’t find the words to make it sound unique…but… Honestly…you make me strong! I can’t believe I’ve found someone this kind. I hope we carry on Cos you’re so nice and I’m in love…with you…♫


And she said "Thanks, I like you too" and he said "Cool." ♫


Okay! Kitchen cleany time.
Blasting music while cleaning always seems like good motivation. C:


I just would like to say, whoever is reading this...I love you so much :D
You are just a great human being, and I adore you being my friend. c:
I don't think that last part made much sense, but just pretend it did, kay? 8D
♥


Adios dearest friends of mine. C:




Eww, Narcy just signed online.

The Hunchback of Notre Dame;

I realized this movie is secretly my life.
If you think about it, it all just makes so much sense.
I'm Quasimodo because we both have physical flaws and everyone makes fun of us, and we're basically outcasts, I guess.
Aria is Esmeralda, because Quasimodo falls inlove with Esmeralda and wants to be with her, but Esmeralda(that bitch) falls in love with that other guy. (I seriously can never remember his name) and she's a gypsy too. No one likes gypsies.
That one girl who's name shall not be mentioned shall be that other guy. Just cause Esmeralda fell for him. And that guy is really stupid.
Clara, Chelsey, and Quinn can be the three gargoyles, cause they are Quasi's only friends LOL
Anyone who hates Aria can be Frollo. But Frollo is gay.
I actually hate Frollo so much. He wants to kill Esmeralda just cause she's a gypsy, but according to Chelsey, gypsies are like prostitutes. Or something like that.
And I would give someone the title of Esmeralda's goat friend, but Aria doesn't deserve a friend. C:

The past two days;

I don't have enough time to write about everything, but I'll try.
Yesterday was Sammie and Nick's double birthday. It was loads of fun. 8D
At first a something happened and I ended up going to the party crying...D:
I felt really bad, but I couldn't help it...
Then after I stopped crying and got off the floor, since I was laying on the grass. Chelsey came over and said she wanted to talk, so we did, but it consisted more of us spewing random words at each other, like "I'm Sorry" and stuff, then she tackled me, and carried me away. And then Quinn came out of nowhere and tackled me, it scared me immensely D;
A lot of funny stuff happened, that I can't remember all of it, but I took like 349865874 pictures.
So I'll post those on facebook. :3
There was this one point was Quinn was laying on the hammock and Jacob came over to hug him, but when I took a picture it looked like they kissed. 8D
I don't really feel like saying everything that happened. :c
Everyone had fun; that's what matters. C:
Scott was gonna give me a ride home, but there was no room, so I said I'd go take the bus. I didn't even know what bus to take, so thankfully Alisha's mom found me walking down the street and picked me up x3
When I got home, I just chilled, then Natasha called, I almost missed the phone, but thank goodness I didn't.
She really needed to talk, so we talked about basically everything for over an hour.
Then, she needed to go for a bit, so I started talking to Aria, but he wouldn't let me call him :c he was being unfair again. Then that conversation got a little, uhhh...^^; $:
ANYWAY, so. after a bit, Natasha called back, but I was in the washroom x3
But when I called back she's like "Oh I kind of expected you to be in the washroom. You would of answered otherwise" which is true x3
I asked her a question involving Aria, and she said "Look at it like this, you're a mechanical pencil. And you have no led in you to be used. So no one can use you, but he still keeps you in his pencil case" it doesn't make much sense, but it did at the time. Then we started giving everyone else a school supply. It was fun. She's a label maker. Then we discussed how dinosaurs could have been furry, so we named a furry dinosaur that was never yet found "Fluffitoriousrexicorious"
All together, we were on the phone for like, three hours. :3
But that's okay, I love her.


Today!
I went to Toronto to visit Hannah, with my dad and Emily. twas good times. We met some of Hannah's friends. And I met Abraham! 8D
We went out to dinner, and I had mashed potatoes x3
They were delicious.
The ride back was so long, and I fell asleep, listening to Lights. :3


But yea, now I'm bored. Aria's not answering me, that cheese ball. :c
Butstill; ♥


She has won. Now its no fun. We've lost it all. The love is gone. And we had magic. And this is tragic. You couldn't keep your hands to yourself. I feel like our world's been infected. And somehow you left me neglected. We've found our lives been changed. Babe, you lost me. 
Now I know you're sorry, And we were sweet. Oh, but you chose lust when you deceived me. And you'll regret it, but it's too late. How can I ever trust you again?♫

Quinn thinks I'm stupid.

You can't lie to Caroline over the phone, she knows all. ;D
Especially when I can hear Chelsey in the background.
Goodness. D:


My face hurts. Well, my head does.
My hair looks retarded, my nap messed up my hair.
I'm super bored.
I'm going to Toronto on Sunday now. (y)
I'm now just waiting for either Quinn or Aria to tell me I can call them. :3


She's more then jacuzzi with jets, they use a mop for this when it's wet. ♫
Oh how I love random rap songs that say the darnedest things. 8D 


The day that you slipped away, was the day I found it won't be the same. ♫


:Ö <---- DOUBLE SHOCKED FACE
Looool, Idk if I'm the only one who sees it. I think I'm going insane.


I'm so bored. I wants to call Aria. ewerfvrjctnyh D:




Some people laugh, some people cry. Some people live, some people die. Some people run, right into the fire. Some people hide their every desire. But we are the lovers, If you don't believe me then just look into my eyes 'cause the heart never lies. Some people fight, some people fall. Others pretend they don't care at all. If you wanna fight I'll stand right beside you, the day that you fall I'll be right behind you to pick up the pieces. If you don't believe me Just look into my eyes 'cause the heart never lies.♫



Please understand, this isn't just goodbye, This is I can't stand you. ♫
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful. ♫




Do you ever wish she was me, or am I left here missing you not missing me?
Look at me, In my eyes. And tell me that you feel nothing inside. Cause I can't wash you off my skin.. But I can't see you ever again. 
So I'll forget I love you, Don't want you anymore..
I'll keep on lying to myself, cause we could've had it all..
And you should keep pretending that Im only just a friend, Can you look me in the eyes and say that its worth it in the end?♫♥


So, the above song (Could've been-The Veronica's) and the song Nicest Thing- Kate Nash, both really explain my, I guess you could say love life, or lack of.




I really need to stop always posting lyrics. But I mean, they express my feelings better then I ever could. D;

Dedicated Lights songs to friends. ^^;

“Honestly, if you don’t fit in, then you’re probably doing the right thing.”

I'm in the craziest Lights mood ever o.o;
I've been basically stalking her for the past like hour and a half.


But I decided to fix my list of dedicated songs, but also write some of the lyrics and why I dedicated that song. I'm bored and this sounds fun. 8D


Drive my soul- Clara; Just because I love her tons; 
You make the darkness disappear I feel found when you stay near I know where I am when you are here. My way becomes so clear. When you are gone. Will I lose control? You are the only road I know. You show me where to go. Who will drive my soul? ♫




Saviour- Quinn; cause he's my Saviour ♥;
I just want to run to you, And break off the chains and throw them away. I just want to be so much, And shake off the dust that turned me to rust. Sooner than later I'll need a Saviour. I'll need a Saviour. ♫




The last thing on your mind- Natasha; the lyrics explain everything;
Don't think too hard, if you think it hurts that bad. Don't talk about it, don't let it get you down. It's only one part, of the story. Just let it go, don't let this get you down now. Sing the last thing on your mind. The last word on your breath, I'll be the one to keep you, keep you at your best. The last thing on your mind, 'Cause I don't need your mess. I'll be the one to keep you one disaster less. I'll be okay, if you're okay. ♫




I Owe You One- Chelsey; the lyrics explain it all;
What you've given me is more than I can say. Cause I don't know the words to thank you properly. You pulled me from the grave and stood me on a hill, And when I was afraid you made me still. For the love you bring. Owe you everything. For the breath you give. You're my cause to live. For everyhting under the sun. I owe you one. ♫




Pretend- Ashley; this is our song;
Once in awhile I act like a child to feel like a kid again. It gets like a prison in the body Im living in. Cause everyones watching and quick to start talking, Im losing my innocence. Wish I were a little girl without the weight of the world. It would be nice to start over again. Before we were men. Id give, Id bend, lets play pretend. ♫




Second Go- Sammie; this is our song;
Give me a second go, Don't let me go alone. You saw me at the worst, You caught me falling first. All I wanted to know, Give me a second go. ♫




The Listening- Alisha; this just seemed like a good song for her;
I never really ever know what to say. When all of my emotions get in the way. I'm just trying to get us on the same page I always get it better right afterwards. When all the wrong impressions are said and heard. How come I can never get the right words? I need to convey, Wish I could explain. Can I let the trees do the talking? Can I let the ground do the walking? Can I let the sky fill what's missing in? And can I let my mouth do the listening? The listening. ♫




Lions!- Everyone; it's a song about being brave and such;
Give me a disaster, give me emergency, Stand me at the head of the crusade without a remedy. Show me to the shipwreck, show me how youre bones shake. And when Im at the edge of sorrows blade, show me how a heart breaks. Be steady on your feet. No matter the trouble you meet. Lions make you brave. Giants give you faith. Death is a charade.You dont have to feel safe to feel unafraid. ♫




Ice- Stefan&Narcy; they both just suck;
My mouth is frozen so I cant even speak. What a disappointment, I had it perfectly. What I was going to bring up suddenly. Stood like a stone as you stood quietly. Youre making it hard for me. All I can do is freeze. What I mean is, all I need is, Just a little emotion. Cause all I see is you not feeling. And youre giving me nothing nice. I tried to do you right, whyd you have to go and turn to ice. I dont think youre knowing how hard this is for me. Im not the type to say sorry constantly. So I swallowed my pride and I got on my knees. But still you just stood there as you stared at me. Your ego is getting old. How did you get so cold. Im looking at you looking at me, what can I do but say sorry. Its a little late but you know I just want you to be happy, What I got to say to make you let me get away with it this time, I know youre upset and that youre happy just to sit and hate me, But Ill make a bet that youll be better to forget about me, Even better yet Ill let a little light melt the ice, ice baby!♫




Up Up and Away- Eric; the lyrics explain it all;
We had a rocket, that fell out of orbit. We couldnt stop it, we couldnt control it. We were in a good course, it was a good flight. But I felt the heart force, holding me too tight. We are rockets, in the sky. We are planets, passing by. Up up and away. Forget me, go your own way. ♫




Quiet- Aria; the lyrics explain it all♥;
I'm not yours, and youre not mine. But we can sit and pass the time. No fighting wars, no ringing chimes. Were just feeling fine. This is where were supposed to be. Sitting by a broken tree. No tragedy, no poetry. Just staring at the sky I could wait a thousand hours. Stay the same in sun and showers. Pick apart a hundred flowers. Just to be quiet. Tell me when you feel ready. I'm the one, theres not too many. Hold my hand to keep me steady. Just to be quiet. With you. I like it here beside you dear. You're even more than you appear. And in the clouds my head is clear. Every time you say hello. So heres my heart, and heres my mouth. And I cant help if things come out. Cause there are words I want to shout. But maybe Ill stay low. ♫♥




Face Up- Me; this song is my inspiration;
Its late and I am tired, wish I could spark a smile. The place is flying high but right now I want to be low. Don't want to move an inch, let alone a million miles. And I dont want to go but I know I gotta go. I just want to feel alive. The times you dont want to wake up. Cause in your sleep its never over when you give up. The sun is always going to rise up. You need to get up, gotta keep your head up. Look at the people all around you. The way you feel is something everybody goes through. Dark out, but you still gotta light up. You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up. Seems like the more you grow, the more time you spend alone. Before you know it you end up perfectly on your own. The citys shining bright, but you dont see the light. How come you concentrate on things that dont make you feel right. I just want to feel alright. I'm looking for more than a little bit. I'm gonna have to find my way through it. Gonna leave a mark, Im gonna set a spark. I'm coming off the ground. I wont be looking down. ♫




I really hope you all actually read the lyrics. Even though they aren't from me, I still mean them dearly ^^;


And this took me like an hour to do, so you all better appreciate my love. D;

Seriously never laughed so hard in my life! LOL

Well Quinn told me to blog this, so I guess I'll start with this;
Chelsey told me Quinn and her were gonna come visit me, and it had to do with Green Apples. Quinn told me they were gonna come to my house and drink some green apple alcohol stuff, so whatever.
I called Quinn's phone at like 3, and Chelsey told me to go outside, so I did, and Quinn was like crying his hea doff, I was so scared, I didn't know what was going. He drank all this stuff and was worried his parents would find out. We walked to the park and seriously Quinn was sooo funny, I almost died laughing. He like fell on the grass, and got grass in his mouth every time he put his head down. He accidentally touched chelsey inappropriately once, cause apparently he wanted to touch her face. xD
I felt really bad though, cause he kept crying and crying, and :C
We somehow got him back to my house and he fell asleep on the couch right away.
After like an hour, while Chelsey and I wrote a fb note, and put all this stuff on Quinn; we put cups, macaroni, windex, a shoe and a duck on him x3
Sammie came over and then Quinn woke up. It was so funny. ohgod.

Well I'm gonig to go buy food so I'll finish this when I get back. :3

Okay I'm back. and holy shit this is alot of food D;

Well, back to my story.
Quinn was like, so out of it. He kept giving the finger to Sammie, and was saying naughty things to Chelsey as in telling her to touch his dick. LOOOOL
I couldn't stop laughing. He's one of the funniest drunks I've ever met. 8D
And then when my dad brought us fries. He ate them all. and Kept saying "omg these are amazing, these are so good eh?" and shoved them in his face. He kept saying the stupidest things, and apologizing for who knows what.
Idk, Quinn told me to blog this, and say every funny thing he said, but I actually can't remember. :/
All I know is, he's never allowed drinking again. (y)

Holy shit, so much food. *explodes*

ImissAria.Iwannatalktohimsobadholyshit.

I dyed my hair today. With help from Sammie.♥
It's red.
But really dark red D:
I'm so tired right now.
*sneezes*
fucking Quinn, he said he'd be on msn, but he's not, not I can't talk to him. x3

kaywhatever. lie to me and just not come to hamilton. that's fantastic. :C

Goodmood=gone.

Ahhh I'm so happy. :3

My life is just falling back into place, and everything is good. :3


I just had such an amazing day and realized life is just so good now.


Now that drama is done, and Aria and I are good again, everything seems much better.
I spent the day with my family, and with my dad,
I missed spending so much time with my dad. ♥
And I have Pocky, and I ate Burger Kind. And I love Redgie.
I love Chelsey.
And Clara.
And Shayla.
And Ivy.
And Elizabeth.
And Alisha.
And Natasha.
And Aria.
And Ashley.
And Sammie.
And Quinn.
OMFG I JUST SERIOUSLY LOVE EVERYONE!
I'm sorry if I missed anyone, but if I did, just know, I love you. A. Freaking. Lot.


OH MY HOLY CHEESE BALLS
APPARENTLY CHELSEY AND QUINN ARE GONNA VISIT ME TOMORROW?!?!?!
I SHALL BE PREPARED
GAAHHH THAT MADE ME EVEN HAPPIER
I LOVE MY LIFE
LEGIT
YAAYYYY


I just wish Aria would answer me. ♥


looooooooooooooooooooooool what are they gonna do? Pelt me with green apples?!?!?!?!?!?! D:
I'm so scared now. xDDDD




OH AND I LOVE LIGHTS.




I know we're heading for disaster. But I keep running faster, and faster. And I don't wanna wake you up, Cause I don't wanna let you down. I'm scared I'll never be enough, to keep you around. And there's a part of me that knows I'm everything you need but I'm afraid to let you in, afraid of what you'll see. And now I'm falling even harder for a boy I'll never know.♫

I love Chelsey Cole. ^-^ ♥

cђelsey, says:
IM SHO HYPER OMGAWSH
kankowski. says:
;o
YAY
cђelsey, says:
OMG DKLSGSKDNGAS 8D
kankowski. says:
HAHAHAHA
i think we should have a non sleepover.
LOL IT MAKES SENSE 8D
cђelsey, says:
LMAOOOOOOOOOOW WHAT I DONT GET IT
kankowski. says:
looooooool
the thought process of this: i want to see chelsey, we should hang out right now at 2:20 am, we could call it a sleep over but not sleep
8D
cђelsey, says:
OMGAWSH
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND
HOW GENIOUS THIS IS
kankowski. says:
YAAAYYYYY
cђelsey, says:
but i cant has non sleep over right now :c
kankowski. says:
D:! how comes?
cђelsey, says:
IF I WALK ANYMORE TODAY MY LEGS WILL FALL OFF MY BODY
:c
kankowski. says:
WHY
cђelsey, says:
i walked so much today :c
kankowski. says:
D:!
I'LL RUN TO YOU
KAY COOL
cђelsey, says:

OMGAWSH
i coulf just imagine you jumping through my window
lke right now
like*
kankowski. says:
LOOOOOL,
cђelsey, says:
could*
LMFAO
like in scott pilgrim
but he jumps out the window
to get away from someone
so i guess its not the same
xD
kankowski. says:
but it's still jumping through a window
cђelsey, says:
EXACTLY
kankowski. says:
YEA
cђelsey, says:
OMG MY MONSTER IS ALMOST GONE
kankowski. says:
NOOOOOOOO
I WANT ONE
cђelsey, says:
D;
i dranked it :c
kankowski. says:
atleast you tasted the deliciousness of it 8D
cђelsey, says:
MHM ^^
kankowski. says:
anonymous me asked stefan if he was gay on formspring 8D
cђelsey, says:
LMFAO
kankowski. says:
HEY
HEY
HEY
HEY
CHELSEY
HEY
HEY
CHELSEY
cђelsey, says:
HEY
CAROLINE
kankowski. says:
HEEY
cђelsey, says:
YEAH?
kankowski. says:
GUESS WHAT
cђelsey, says:
HEY
HI
WHAT?
kankowski. says:
I LIKE YOU
KAY
AWESOMNE
'YEA
WOOOOO
cђelsey, says:
YEAH
ME TOO
WAIT NO
I LOVE YOU
3
KAY COOL
<3
kankowski. says:
YAAYAYYAYAYAYA
I LOVE YOU TOO
LET'S GET RE MARRIED?
<3
cђelsey, says:
OMGAWSH YAY
YEAH! LETS DO IT HOMBRE
kankowski. says:
AWES0OME
LOLOLOL
REDGIES FAT
LOOOL
cђelsey, says:
LOL LETS LAUGH FOREVER AT HIM
LOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLL
thats for redgie
kankowski. says:
LOOOLOLOLOLOLOL
cђelsey, says:
LOLOL
I DONT KNOW WHAT WERE LAUGHING AT ANYMORE
kankowski. says:
NEITHER DO I
LOOOL SADIE
cђelsey, says:
HAHHAHHHAH
LOL SADIE
LOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLLOLL
@ SADIE
i love sadie
kankowski. says:
I love sadie too



This legit makes me laugh. ♥

Tomorrow. :3

So tomorrow we're having this BBQ at my house.
Even though it's not even a BBQ, because we're having tacos and chicken fajitas apparently O.o;
Well, we're having this fiesta because it's a going away party for my beloved sister, Hannah.
She's going away to college in...not even a week D:
*sniff sniff* I'ma miss her. D:
JUST KIDDING 8D
LOOOL
I will miss her, but it'll be much quieter once she's gone xD
Well I was allowed inviting a friend, cause it'll be boring for me.
Even though it's my family there, and apparently, according to Hannah *I'm* the guest of honor xD
But everyone's going to be so focused on Hannah that I'ma be alone.
My daddy basically told me to invite Chelsey and Quinn, so I did. :3
And since they's no longer mad at me (at least I believe they're not D:)
They be coming tomorrow :3
I'm uber excited. AND I JUST SPILLED MY MONSTER T_T
Well yea, I'm really excited for tomorrow, even though I'm kind of sick. :c
Been sneezing like crazy lately.

well yea, the end.

Maybe I should sleep now...or not.

It is 5:16 am, and again, I can not sleep.
I'm a tiny bit tired, but I can't sleep.
Stupid summer, messing up my sleepy pattern.

just cause I'm super bored, I will write about what I did today.

-woke up at 2ish, by getting yelled at by my dad over the phone.
-biked over to the laundromat, just to have my dad meet me there, even though he told me to go there to fix the machines
-went to McDonald's with Hannah
-stayed at the laundromat for multiple hours.
-watched Degrassi♥
-went to the store and bought ice cream
-chilled
-complained about the hatred of my best friend. :C
-Texted Le Stefan
-ranted about how stupid Stefan is.
-talked to Quinn and Chelsey
-Love Quinn and Chelsey
-drank energy drink at 3 am
-kept texting Stefan
-complained more about Stefan
-Read lines for musical theater
-planned to take a shower but didn't (i will soon)
-still waiting for Stefan to text back o.o;
-wishing someone would come online and talk to me D:

damn..I hate Rhianna. Like, fuck. She's so annoying :/
I hate that thing she does with her lip. fuck.

I actually have no freaking clue, but I THINK I might be hanging out with Stefan tomorrow o.o; errrr today.
I told him I wanted to talk to him, and I'm pretty sure he agreed to such things so, yea. I just don't really know, cause he never gives a straight answer. But whatever.

ohey Katy Perry ♥

i listened to her new album on YouTube, dang it it's good :3
I like her song Firework.
Makes me happy.
And "The One That Got Away"
YAY!

*yawns*

Redgie is fat. Like extremely.

Earlier, when I was texting Stefan, I had to leave my dads cell in the other room, well, just cause LOLL
so I told Sadie to tell me whenever he texted back.
And she did good work.
Cause every time I walked in to see Sadie, there would be an unread text. 8D

I love Chelsey. A lot. She's my wife. And I love her. A lot. I already said that. But I love her. A lot. ♥

AND QUINN'S AWESOME SAUCE
(but he doesn't like talking to me any more)

I really should go take a shower soon.
Hopefully before 6 am.

I hope Stefan texts me back before 7 at least o.o;
cause my dad will flip if he gets a text from Stefan.
He'll be like "Why do I keep getting texts from all these people? It costs so much money, please stop yatta yatta yatta"

I got all mad earlier, all over again, cause it pisses me off that people still can't let things go. I mean, that happened like, two months ago. It's over. I don't care anymore. I got over it, so should everyone else. It isn't even that big a deal, a lot of people lose feelings for someone. So, grow up, and get over it. I don't even get why you're the one who won't let it go, since it has nothing to do with you.


narcyscutewhat


okay i'ma go take shower then collapse in my bed :3

btw i love Lights.
And I'm legit excited for the Hedley concert in October.
I will legit cry if I don't/can't go.
I need to see Lights. :c
And I love Hedley.
And I'm also excited to see These Kids Wear Crowns.
They are actually really good. ♥
BAAAHHH LIGHTS♥



Okaybye.

Narcy's a disease? what? D:
apparently there's a lot of disease or something that start with "narc"
narcoma
narcomancy
narcomania
narcomaniac
narcomaniacal
narcomata
narcomatous

this is entertaining. LOOOOL

why am i doing this?

i must sleep ><
stupid Caroline *hits self*

The movie of my life.

So, I realized, if I made a movie of my life, it would be pretty crazy.
And I started thinking of who would play who, so I asked my sister, and this is what we came up with. (but mostly her)
Me- Either myself or someone o.o;
Quinn- Michael Cera.
Hannah- I forget xD
Chelsey- still thinking about it
My dad- Arnold Schwarzenegger
Stefan- Landon Liboiron
Eric- Miranda Cosgrove (O.o; don't ask, Hannah makes no sense xD)
Narcy- Either Enrique Iglasias(♥) or the guy who plays Zane from Degrassi xD or he can be himself ;3

I realized, if Narcy were to be played by Enrique Iglasias, then I wanna be myself. Or even if he was himself, I'd still wanna be myself. LOL

That's all I could really think of.
If anyone can think of who they would want to play them, just comment it, cause this is actually fun to think about. 8D

One rule: Someone has to be played by Munro Chambers, just cause I seriously love him. 8DD


*Edit: SCREW IT, STEFAN'S GONNA BE PLAYED BY JIM POVOLO 8DDDDD

LOOL I'm too funny. xD

"You can be Scott Pilgrim, that person can be Knives, Chelsey can be Ramona, and I'll be Wallace!" xDD

Maybe next time when I actually have plans, I won't go to bed at 6 am T_T

I was supposed to go swimming with Quinn and Chelsey,
But I didn't go to sleep until 6 am.
So I slept in until 1:30.
But Quinn never even told me what time we were going, or when he was gonna pick me up...
Whatever.
I guess I just have to sit here doing nothing all day again, while they have fun swimming.
but it's no big deal.
I don't even really care, I don't think I would of been able to go anyway, I have no money.

I have to go find something to do now.
Maybe drown myself?
Sounds good.

I apologize T_T

I apologize for the fact that I've only been posting lyrics lately.
I've just been so overwhelmingly sad lately, that song lyrics are the only thing that can describe how I'm feeling. So if you actually read the lyrics, instead of just ignoring them, then you'll know how I'm feeling ^^;
I feel like someone ripped out a piece of my heart and fed it to a zebra, basically.

I've done a lot of thinking lately, and realized a lot of things. I really need to find out who I am, and change everything. because I still can't figure it out, but whoever I am, is kind of retarded. I need to figure out who I am, who my real friends are, whats actually important enough to cry over, and I basically just need to try harder at everything, instead of being lazy and procrastinating life.

I know you two don't want to be my friend, but it would be nice if you could tell me why you're ignoring me. Because I wanted to be your friend, I really did. So if you're just going to avoid me and just be major butt heads, then that's cool. But it'd be nice if you could talk to me for a second, and tell me your reasons for the ignorance, instead of being so immature. Closure would be nice.

The song Swing Life Away by Rise Against, is actually so amazing. It basically is my theme song for my life right now.

I basically spent the day with some amazing people. They are pretty much my best friends; Quinn, Chelsey, Clara, and Sammie. ♥
We went to Gage Park for the Festival of Friends. Twas fun. We went to Mcdonalds and I got a double cheeseburger *drools*
I was pretty much dying from sadness the whole time. I really just can't help it.
Knowing that someone I really like just, out of nowhere, completely starts hating me, and won't talk to me at all. It would be nice if he would tell me why. *shrugs*
I guess until someone gives me a real reason to why they're ignoring me, I'll just be a sad panda.

It legitimately feels like someone ripped my heart out of my chest, fed it to a shark, and put the remainders back where they found it.

I wish they could see how upset I am, and possibly care for once. But I know they don't give a crap. I just...whatever...
I really want to be able to get over it. But it's so hard. Cause everything reminds me of them...WHY AM I SO PATHETIC?! D:


"I'm having chicken hearts and gizzards"
"What's a gizzard?"
"They look like testicles actually..."
"You're eating chicken testicles?!"
LOL ♥

Oh, btw, I hate him, a different him then him.
He;s just so effing dumb, I was stab him in the face.
All he says is lies, and starts drama for himself.
And blames me for adding drama into his life.
Uhhuh, yea sure.
And he adds himself into everyones business, especially mine, and says thathe doesn't care what i do or who i like. what an idiot.
Quinn better be proud of me for calling him a fuck, cause he is one. >:C

I'm actually about to cry..

So yesterday at 6 pm, I left my hosue without telling anyone, to go sleep over at Sammie's it was fun. We made/ate brownies and watched jimmy neutron, and She's out of My League. So funny.
Today, we got ready, then Chelsey, Quinn, and Jacob came over, and we all walked over to the beach. We met up with Charlie, then Sammie and I ventured off to to Hutches to try to find Eric and Joe.
We had no luck at all, even though we waited forever, so we just bought ice cream.
The things we did at the beach included.
- Ate hot dogs
- Laughed
- Screamed
- Swam in Lake Ontario
- Sat on rocks while we got soaked by water.
Then we just walked around.
I was kind of hoping the whole time that we'd see Eric and Joe. But no luck.
It was fun in total until I got home. Like, I'm going to cry.
My dad and sister are now yelling at me for just about everything.
I just found out Narcy went with Eric and Joe to the beach, and now I wanna die, cause I kinda really wanted to see him.. o.o;
And my sister is making me pay her for using her phone, and she's yelling at me, cause apparently Stefan texted her today... :/
Now Eric is yelling at me for "standing them up"
And I was sand everywhere.

Moments like these make me wish I could go back in time to fix my mistakes..

I'm going to kill myself now.

This is the moment in time where I seriously wish I had a phone...I want to text him... T_T

You've gotta stand for something or you'll fall for anything.

I'm now getting ready to go to Sammie's house.
She so kindly invited me over for a sleep over when I told her I wouldn't be hanging out with Stefan.
I really wish I was.
But oh well...

This weekend is going to be loads of fun.
I'm not exactly sure what Sammie and I are going to do tonight, but it shall be fun. 8D
And then tomorrow is that beach thingy.
I'm not sure who's going, I don't think alot of people are going. But it'll still be fun.
I think as of now it's just me, Sammie, Quinn, Chelsey, Eric I think, and I'm attempting to get Narcy to go. x3

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this. ♫

I'm still pathetic. T_T

Dear Chelsey and Quinn.

I hate you guys LOL
<34333 no you dont u love us 8D
...no i don't


YOU FUCK you know you love me and my bulging... muscles 8D

shut up Quinn.

:)

bye






Starting here;

So I was sleeping, then Sadie starting barking immensely and wouldn't stop. So my mom told me to go see who was at the door, but I was like "But mom! I'm not wearing pants D:" she still made me go, and said "are you expecting anyone?" and I said "Yea....dangit." then I put pants on, go downstairs, super tired, see Chelsey at my door, and she started laughing at me. D:
Gosh!
Now we're here, and Chelsey and Quinn keep giggling behind me. :/

Quinn: "Why are you touching my head?"
Chelsey: "That was so hard"

WTF xD

Quinns a douche bag, reactivated my Facebook while i was upstairs T_T
Kay bye.

I hate summer school.

My stomach is making the rumbly's, that only hands can satisfy.
I'm being serious, I'm so hungry. T_T
Like, I'm dying.
Again.
Like yesterday, my head hurt so bad I felt like I was gonna die,
and no one cared.
Out of Chelsey, Scott, Quinn, Clara and Stefan, none of them cared. D:
Well, maybe except Clara. ;3
She offered her body to me. ♥

So I'm writing a research report on Joseph Bombardier.
Gosh darn it, I wanted to do it on Hitler. T_T
I love Hitler.
I actually love what he did. o.o;
Not saying killing 3489495945 people was a good thing, but he wanted to change the world the way he wanted it, so he did it. What was it? He became president or something, then got rid of the other parties or something like that. So he could run himself and do everything his way.
If I could, I'd do what Hitler did.
Minus the killing people part.
Putting them in camps.
And again, killing alot of people.
Just the taking over the world, trying to change it to become the way I want it to be. Sounds like a plan. (y)
And he had an amazing mustache.
That's an extreme plus.

I got to level four on De Blob.

I realized that the person who invented the stapler is seriously a genius.
I mean, inventing something that attaches two or more peices of paper together with a tiny peice of metal. How did they do it?!
GENIUS!

I have to get off the library computer now. :c

goodday to you all. :3

Ps; ♥ ;D

Edit: Just so she remains my most tagged, and just cause I didn't mention her;
Lights. ♥