What is this? I don't even.

My head hurts.

Yesterday was a good day.
And I'm pretty sure Aria told me to blog. I think.
So I'ma do that.
Hi.

Basically all that happened yesterday was:
Everyone got here at like 4-6
Yeah, only five people came.
We ended up going to Hayley's party for a bit.
I fell in the elevator.
Ate some skittles.
we had adventures to go find cups at one point.

This isn't in order at all.

Just a few things that happened, also not in order:
We took the bus home, and we saw Michael Smith.
Even though I told everyone to make sure I don't text Aria, yeah I did.
Bad idea. D:
well we went in the hot tub, and I think I cried.
Yeah I did cry.
I was very emotional for several reasons.
Then I got all happy cause apparently James text me saying happy new years, and I think I sent three texts back.
I almost died in the hot tub, we played truth or flare. It was basically just truth.
I don't remember that much of what was said. I think someone asked me if I loved Aria o.o;
We were supposed to burn the "Aria Bear" but never got a chance to do so D':
After I got out of the hot tub, I found the cell phone that Clara hid on me, then I just text Aria. Again, bad idea. I ended up calling him somehow, while Alisha was asleep on my floor. I think his friend Mac answered, pretending to be some guy named Jason...
I don't even remember what was said.
It was a bad idea to call him when both of us were drunk..
I was laying on the floor in the living room, and I'm pretty sure I kept saying "Why are you not here yet?" and yeah...I'll not get into all that was said and what not.
There was one part about being naked..I think o.o;
Then when he said he had to leave I said "nononononononononononono don't leave me ever" then I was like "text me, right after we get off the phone" And he said "okay I will" then I said "Promise right now!" So he did text back and I don't even remember what he said x3
I think I ended up going to bed at around 3 am, but I kept texting Aria, I tried so hard not to fall asleep. Our conversation was intense.
Hahaha cats.
I fell asleep, and then I woke up to check the phone, and he sent two messages saying "You fall asleep?" and "Alright well sweet dreams" and I was like noooooooooooo cause I wanted to talk to him more.
The part I didn't understand was when we were having our intense conversation, he said "Mac keeps screaming anal" I don't overly understand that part. o.o;

I should stop this post now.
And I just realized apparently Aria's going to be reading this.
That man told me he reads my blog.
The only one. C':

Just would like to say, before I end this, that Natasha is the most amazing human being in the world. She saved my life. I love her. C:

And my sister is going to kill me for spilling champagne on her carpet. D:

Meowmeow.

I didn't go to school today because I had a doctors appointment.
And it went very well, if I do say so myself. c:
I talked to the doctor for over an hour.
I didn't think it would take that long. o.o;
When I got home, I emailed Aria, since that's the only way I have to message him, since my mother threw out my calling card...
Hopefully he emails me back. D:
Now I'm having a Harry Potter Marathon. C:
I'm still watching the first one, but I'm planning to watch most of them tonight, then going to see Harry Potter: Deathly Hallows part one later tonight with Hannah, for her birthday. C:

*thinks*....*goes to steal Hannah's calling card* ;D

fuck life, that is all.

I had a really good day at school. Like, really good.
Classes were pretty good.
I talked to a boy whom is nice.
We had a buy out, so I bought a ticket, only because I didn't want to go to religion. But I stayed the whole day to go to musical theatre.
I sat in the caf with Joey, Lydia and Ivy for a bit, then everyone else came for fourth lunch, and it was super fun.
I played angry birds or something on Joey's broken iPhone, then I kept screaming, and it was just good times.
We played Planet Hollywood and Hide and Go Seek in musical theatre. So fun.
Then I stayed for Science Olympics, which was fun. Spencer broke the ball of awesome, though. D:

It all went down hill when my dad picked me up. :/
I was supposed to get my prom dress, but my dad came with me for some reason, we ended up didn't getting anything cause my dads a butt head. And I just got really angry.
I got home and took a nap.
Which is why I can't sleep now.
And then of course I just had to get into another huge fight with Aria.
We get into a lot of fights, but they usually just fix themselves.
This time, it's actually all over.
He hates me.
He blocked me from msn, and facebook. Again. And won't talk to me at all.
I was surprised he even answered his phone after that, we talked for twelve minutes.
Basically him saying how he just wants me to leave him alone, and he's been in a bad mood lately and I just don't get that apparently. And how he's always going to be mad at me and there's nothing I can do to fix that.
I really don't like crying on the phone, but I couldn't help it. I probably sounded like a baby.
The conversation ended by me apologizing 387587 times, and he said "well if you're sorry then leave" so I said fine, and hung up the phone.
I pretty much said everything I wanted to say to him, well, sort of. Not really. But I said enough. I obviously didn't say the right things because he still hates me.
I just don't get how two weeks ago he was sooo nice, and loved me, now he hates my guts and never wants to talk to me again. This clearly isn't me, he's just weird. :/
I just hate how everything just got so bad all over again.
I guess all I can do is give him space. But I really don't want to give him space forever, cause I really just can't bring myself to let him go completely...
*sigh* everything is just so bad D:

Except Lights concert tonight o.o;
fucking stoked.
*goes insane*

Yesterday was really strange.

So I went to Sammie's around five ish.
Then waited at her house for like an hour, chillin with her siblings.
Then we went on a crazy long adventure, to get up the mountain, which took like two hours.
We were supposed to meet everyone at Tim Hortons, but we found Quinn and he wanted us to stay with him.
Well we ended up meeting Dom, Chelsey, Joe and Aaron at Tim's, then we got in Aaron's van, and it was really awkward, cause I could tell I wasn't wanted there.
Like, I wasn't even invited, I just kinda tagged along.
And then we picked up Narcy, and at that point I wanted to stab myself in the head.
It was crazy awkward cause it was me, Sammie, and Narcy in the back. ;P
Then I was texting Aria with Sammie's phone, and we got into this huge fight, and I wanted to cry. D:
We kinda just sat around in Joe's basement, and since we didn't get any food it was even more weird.
Everyone probably though we were ignoring them or whatever, but I just felt awkward, and I could tell I wasn't wanted there, so I really just wanted to leave.
So we did. And went to Quinn's. Plus, he offered us chicken. And I love chicken.
I still felt unwanted, cause I was still worried Quinn and Chelsey hate me o.o;
And all the Aria stuffs was really bringing me down. :/
Chelsey, Sammie and I got on the bus at like 12:40 am ish, then there was this drunk guy who was basically telling everyone on the bus his life story. It was rather entertaining.

Well, Sammie slept over, and stayed here until like 5 ish, we just chilled. :3
And watched figure skating championships. It was kinda super funny.

Now I'm just angry, and wanna kill the world.

And I don't know what's going on anymore. o.o;
Aria's no longer mad at me, which is good.
He was just in a really bad mood yesterday, cause apparently he got jumped and beat up lolol
I basically just made everything worse.
But everything is good now, so yay.
And there's this other person who has just been confusing me.
Like, I don't know what's going on.
I try talking to him, then he's just like "...........yea" then goes offline o.o;
Like, I don't know what I did.
But it just seems everyone basically hates me now. :/

And now I have my dad yelling at me about friggin everything.
I want to die.
UGHHH ERJHTGRW,KJTNTULYK

lololololololololol.

So Spencer convinced me to go to prom.
So now I really want to go.
But Aria's being a butt and no longer wants to come with me. :/
And I am suddenly so desperate LOL
I know getting a date for prom isn't a big deal.
But I still want one. x3
I've never really like, wanted a date super bad before.
So I'll either convince Aria to come with me.
I mean, I still have two weeks right?
So he better come,
but if not, then I have a list of people I'ma ask LOL.

Anyway, off to buy onion rings, ttfn. 8D

All I ever wanted was for you to look at me, and know I'm all yours.

A lot of strange occurrences have been happening lately.
Like, I don't even know what's going on in my life anymore.
Life is confusing.

This is the fourth time in two weeks I haven't gone to school D:
It's not gonna be the same as before.
There's just a lot going on right now, and I really don't feel like being around school people.

I won't really talk about what has happened, cause it's a lot and personal stuff,
but I will talk about what's happening soon. :3

November 17-
Lights concert!
With Sammie.
I am soo stoke! :3

November 26-
I was excited about this day because of prom, but I decided not to go now.
But Aria ish coming here for the weekend,
and I am so excited!

Kay that's actually it xD
Those are the only things I am looking forward to as of now. :)

I'm gonna go lay in bed and cry forever, alright, have a good day.

Lool why did I agree to this?

So I'm all sick now, so I didn't go to school again.
And I just agreed to help Aria with his Writers Craft.
Why I did this? I have no clue.
He has to write a journal thing, and I told him I would help him with it.
He gave me the topics "A time you had to do something you didn't want to do" and "Autumn"
I'm not even creative, why am I doing this? x3
To be honest, I have no idea how I'm supposed to write this loool
Anyone wanna help me write about autumn? x3

I have never been so worried...

Usually when I worry over the fact people don't respond, I'm basically always wrong, but still think the worst.
That happened last night, but it ended up being true.
I was so worried that I broke down and cried for an hour.
And I stayed up really late waiting for him, so in the morning I felt really sick, so I just stayed home.
I'm really glad you're okay. D:
You don't even know how worried I was...
And you have no reason to be sorry, don't be sorry, I'm just glad you're alright. :c

Oh and it's my mommy's birthday todai. :3

Note to self:

NEVER AGAIN!


So I went to Hayley Zurbriggs  party last night...
Yeah...fml.
It was fun at first,
I sat around with Ashley and Joey, laughing, falling over, drinking, falling over more, and found out I secretly go to Hogwarts and know Dumbledore.
I kept stealing Hayley's laptop to go on facebook, and I swear, I don't remember posting half the things I posted, like my one status: "i go to hogwarts now, and joeys my best friend. :)"
Then I kept messaging Aria saying bad things, like "do me now" which i actually don't remember. D:
Then once I lost Joey and Ashley, I kinda did bad things D:
Pretty sure Joey was appalled . Fuck, I'm such a bad person.
Everyone was appalled actually. I can't believe I did that x3
I was standing in the kitchen, basically falling over, then this guy, whom I've never met before, comes in, and we start talking, then we sat on the ground, then I basically almost fell asleep on him. Then he brought me to the couch, and...yeah. fml.
NEVER AGAIN! D:
After that I kinda just curled up into a ball on the floor with Joey, cause I felt so horrible, and I kept asking if he hated me, and if he thought I was a horrible person.
Then like, everyone started comforting me, like Joey, Jaime, Dylan, Tasha, and some other guy. Then I layed on the couch, and that guy came over, then Joey was like "Caroline, don't" so I just rolled over. Then I needed fresh air, so I went out on the balcony with Joel and realized he is me in boy version x3
I basically told him my life story, and he told me his. He's such a nice guy. I don't get why everyone thinks otherwise D:
That's kinda all I can remember o.o;
But I know there was so much more, cause I was there from 8 last night to noon today x3 and I think I fell asleep at 6


Anyway, that was my night at Hayley's party. Seriously, never again. Unless with a sober friend there to protect me. D: 

Sad face :c

So I was messaging Aria, and I was in a good mood,
then my sister came downstairs,
and knowing some stuff I found out earlier, I just started sobbing,
and I couldn't stop.
It was horrible, I couldn't stop crying at all.
I really just needed to talk to someone, so I called Aria,
and I felt bad because I woke him up, but he said it was alright, because I needed to talk.
We talked for fifteen minutes, like every other conversation.
Yet it seems so much longer, because we talk about so much in such short amount of time.
At first, I just vented to him about what was going on, and he understood completely. Then I just didn't want to think about it anymore, so I asked how his day was.
And whenever I say that to him, he tells a freaking story about his day, with every little detail. ;P
It's fine though x3 then I apologized again for waking him up, and he was saying how he was watching Pirates of the Caribbean 3, for the third night in a row, and he just ended up falling asleep and never gets to see the ending, cause he always ends up falling asleep in the middle of it if he's alone, and I was like "Awh how cute" and he was like "No! Not cute!" He's cute x3
We then started arguing about one thing he asked me to do, and I just told him to be patient, and he said he can't be patient, I then said he must be, and he's like "well how patient are you?" and continued to say that I can't call him until I do whatever he wanted [but if I randomly called he wouldn't just ignore my calls, so maybe I should just call him x3] then I said I was glad he wouldn't just ignore my calls, cause then I would think he hates me, and he said "I don't hate, even though you insist on thinking so, even though I can be a jerk sometimes"
ANYWAY! he said if he has to be patient, then so do I, and have to wait until he comes to hamilton for I don't even remember what x3
And my arguement was pretty good if I do say so myself, I said "but I've been waiting this whole time to see you, that's just not fair" it still didn't work though x3
He said he's definitely coming here on the next long weekend. :3
So stoked. ♥
Also that if his mom won't let him he's gonna spazz x3
Anyway, we continued talking, and I told him if he's not patient I'll get Redgie to eat him, and he's like "Well I'll just eat him" I then said "But Redgie's mean and fat" then he said he was gonna get his friend Tom to eat Redgie, cause he's chinese and he eats cats. D:
He then said "Well, I think I'm going to sleep" and I just sighed and said "fine, leave me" x3 he then said "I've been working all day, I'm so tired" and I said that was understandable, he then said he'll message me tomorrow, and then in my head I said "wserjkhtjekjty,btr.lgt have my babies?" LOL I'm just kidding. x3

But yeah, I'm really glad he let me talk to him, even though I woke him up, he's the best, and I adore him. :3
I go die[sleep] now
Oh, and if Clara, Sammie, and Natasha read this, message me, cause I would very much like to talk to you about something. :3
Especially you Natasha x3333

I sleep now and fantasize and stuff.
Anyway bye. x3

Roaroarmeow.

Oh hello there.
I didn't go to school today.
Because, well....because I just didn't want to.
I'm all depressed and stuff, and I wasn't in the mood to live, so I just didn't go.
...I need to make a doctors appointment, Caroline just realized.

Lololol Aria just signed online. ^-^
Kay anyway.
Basically, all day, I've been on shanalogic.com
it's this cute little website with cute plushies, shirts, necklaces, and so many other things.
I'm inlove with it.
And I found all these things that I want,
Like a camera necklace, it's only twelve dollars, so hopefully my dad will let me get it. 8D
A gold key necklace that is actually gorgeous x3
I also found this shirt that I want to get Aria x3
Because he's nice, and when I saw it I immediately thought of him.
Since he loves wolves and all. This be it. x3

I am now going to go cry.
Have a nice day.

rtkjcrtkthy

So Aria's really cute, mhm.
He made me feel much better. :3
When he called, he asked what I was up to, and I said "taking leaves out of my hair"
And he's like "why are their leaves in your hair" and I said "because I was Poison Ivy for halloween dance" and he's like "She's such a babe" and I agreed, then he said "Suits you very well" x3
LOL I was trying to take my dress off, but the belt thingy was stuck, so I'm like "Damn, I can't get this dress off"
and he's like "Come here and I'll help you" and I was like "Okay! x3" and he's like "And you can help me take off my clothes" dlrjkcgtjh x3

I'm now just going to write down everything we said in conversation form:

"Ughh, there are so many bobby pins in my hair" -Me
"Ohhh me too!"- Aria
"*laughter*" -Me

"Okay I got the dress off, now I'm shirtless. Dammit where'd my shirt go? D:" -Me
"Oh, if only you were here" -Aria

"You're so cute"- Aria
"Noooooooooo" -Me
"Well I think so"- Aria
"* uncontrollable giggling*" -Me

"My hair is soo poofy right now" -Me
"It's amazing"- Aria
"How do you know?!" -Me
"I just want to rape your hair" -Aria
"Loool what?" -Me
"I want to have sexual relations with your poofy hair" -Aria
"Is that even possible?" -Me
"Yes, in some countries, according to me, right now" -Aria

We then had a huge conversation about James, and that I should just ask him out, but I said "it's really not that simple. I can't do that, trust me" and he's like "And who has been in more relationships? You or me?" I'm just like "shut up x3" I then explained to him what happened between James and I, then Aria told me that he probably just finds it awkward to talk to me now, which is why he may ignore me, he then continued to tell me a story about some girl named Charlotte, and how she likes him, but he finds it too awkward to talk to her, yadda yadda yadda.

Why must Aria be so cute, yet so far away? D:

He then said, basically at the end of the conversation "you do still owe me a strip show, you know?" xD
I know he's kidding about all that stuff, he really is x3
He really stinks though. Ugh. x3

I'm just waiting for him to message me back...oh look he did....xD

...fml all over again. :/

krjfrctt waahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh D':

Why must everyone hate me? D:
This was such a crumby weekend.
Except for yesterday.
But still.
No one will talk to me.
Aria basically just admitted he hates me o.o;
I don't get him, he makes no sense.
And James like, died or something...he won't reply to my text messages anymore, and he hasn't been on msn, he either died, or just completely hates me now.
Wtf, I just don't get it.
*cries forever*
And Redgie won't come back inside.
fmlfmlfmlfml
Why must my life suck so bad right now?

"Why don't you want to talk to me?..."
"Because I'm busy lol"
You're watching freaking Aladdin! >:C

Just stuff that's on my mind. o.o;

"5508.) I wish you hadn't backstabbed me countless times. You were my best friend, I trusted you dearly. But hey, now you stretch the truth and distort facts. You think you can fool everyone, and you hate me because I'm not a backstabbing hypocritical bitch like you."


Rant #1. I actually hate cheaters. I don't understand why people feel the need to cheat. I've always been there for you, yet you pushed me away. And you only want to see her, yet, she cheated on you, and you could care less about me, even though all I've ever done was be there for you. I don't get it. You barely ever talk to me now, and you waste your time on people that don't matter. And I've always been here, but you haven't noticed.


Rant #2. I pour my heart out to you, explain everything to you, and tell you exactly how I feel about you. And all you can say is thank you? Not even reply with anything else? Just thank you? I understand you don't feel the same, but that doesn't mean you can just leave it at that...


Rant #3. I'm sick of everybody pretending to be my friends. You say you're my friend, and then I find out you actually don't like me, and think all I do is seek attention and complain. Why bother if you just don't like me? We're both clearly wasting each others time. o.o;


Rant #4. My cat is so fat. And he is seriously retarded. D: he drives me crazy. But i love him.


Rant #5. I hate when you tell a guy how you feel about them, and they say they don't feel the same, and then say "any guy would be lucky to have you" really? if any guy would be lucky to have me, why wouldn't you be?


Rant #6. I don't get why people just don't take chances anymore. You just toss that chance away like it's nothing. Well, you know what? you will never get that chance again. So you better take it while it's there. It's not going to hurt anything by taking risks and chances and seeing what could be, instead of letting that moment pass you by and then wonder what could've been. At least try, and see if something will come of it, instead of just not trying at all. Because you'll never know...things could happen when you least expect them to, and if you don't acknowledge them...well, that's just not good, now is it?


And that's basically all that I can think of, for now...
these certain things have been bothering me for a while..


Why don't you want me? Why don't you need me? Why don't you want me, when you know that I want you? Oh, you know I do. You know you never really gave it a chance.♫


Explains *Exactly* how I feel.^
Actually, it more or less explains my current situation.
Since, he won't give me a chance, which kills me.
And he knows how I feel about him, but it still doesn't seem to change anything.


People always say I'm so nice, and cute and any guy would be lucky to have me. Oh, okay. Then how come no guy ever likes me back when I like them? Please explain that to me. :/


Why can't someone give me a chance for once? It's not going to hurt anything if you just give me a chance and see if anything will come of this...


Am I really that easy to just throw away without any hesitation? D;


I always wanted you for myself, so tell that wasn't how your heart felt,
I always wanted you for myself, so tell me, tell me, and make my heart melt. ♫

So farewell my love, cause I was wrong I guess.

Everything has been really shitty lately.
Just everything.
I had a horrible day today.
Cried several times at school, and ended up feeling sick by the end of the day.
I know I shouldn't of gotten that upset, but I really couldn't help it.
I feel like he took my heart and threw it into a wood chipper.
And the ignorance from him towards me didn't help much either.
I just wish someone would give me a chance for once...
I was actually so glad that he talked to me after school,
Clara was there, but it was still communication nonetheless.
We fist bumped, as per usual.
Then had a normal conversation, but he may of noticed that I looked really sad,
that I was about to cry...
Then he went to his locker, and Clara and I walked outside to the bus stop.
We were standing there forever because I couldn't decide if I wanted to take the King and James or just wait, but then I saw Spencer and James running for the bus, so I was like kay whatever, and I got on the bus.
As Spencer, James and I were walking to the bus together, Spencer's like "So are you taking this bus?" and I'm like "Well, obviously!" and James laughed.
The bus was packed, so Spencer and I had to move to the back of the bus D:
But James ended up coming to the back as well.
But, I couldn't talk to him, because we were separated by stupid freakin grade nines who think they are so much better than everyone else, stand right in front of the door and don't move, so you can't get off the freakin bus! They are soo stupid! I almost punched someone.

I really hope James comes online, I need to ask him a question. D:
I need someone to talk to...
I think I'm going to make some rice.
I really want a cellular device, like, now.
I stole some teddy cracker things from my sister, I forget what they're called...

So, I told Aria I was going on a murderous rampage, he said "Sickkk x3"
Really? Is that really sick? Will it be sick when I freakin kill you >:C
*calms down*

OHHH LIGHTS TICKETS ARRIVED!
Only thing I'm looking forward to right now. then after that, I shall be looking forward to my death.

Aria never ceases to make me laugh. x3

kankowski. says:
 hey
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 Yooo
kankowski. says:
 whats up
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 doing some french homework, you?
kankowski. says:
 just chillin, thinkin
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 About?
kankowski. says:
 a certain someone
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 Whom?
kankowski. says:
 just this fellow named james x3
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 Crushing are we?
kankowski. says:
 very much so
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 Rofl, nice x3
kankowski. says:
 he has a really nice face x33
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 I bet.
kankowski. says:
 lawls
 he said he'd come visit me here at the laundromat, i hope he does x3 since i'm bored and lonely
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 Do him on a washer ;3 That should be epic rofl
kankowski. says:
 *laughs forever* oh goodness x3
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 x3
kankowski. says:
 that would be pretty epic, actually
·$4,1~ † TrickSTAR † ~    ≧∀≦    Easy to betray when you live for the day and you don't even mean the things that you said. says:
 I know lol x3
 *daydreams* Im gonna do that someday x3
kankowski. says:
 Loool okay x3

Meow, he's a funny guy, x3

HOLY CRAP ONE TREE HILL.
I got so far behind in this show, but I'm catching up now- JAMES IS ONLINE!
Anyway, where was I?
Oh yeah ^^;
This episode is so freaking good, I cried like a baby, seriously D:

*James logs in*
"So, you going to talk to him?"
Omfg, I love Clara so much. x3333

Okay, back to Aria, Clara, James and One Tree Hill.

Lalalalalalalalala BATMAN :')

I'm hyper.
And surprisingly in a good mood.


I'm kind of glad my dad basically forced me to block all stupid people off of facebook and msn and stuff. He was right, it's better not to focus on pointless drama. And it is making me feel better.


But seriously, Pointless.


Just so you know, you're the only one who got all mad, and said crap. So don't even expect an apology from me, cause I could care less if we're friends or not at this point. You just proved you were never my friend to start with. Jsyk, you say all I do is complain? Whenever I talked to you, you did the same. That is, if you want to call talking about your feelings, complaining. I actually helped you and was there for you. If you don't want to see that, then cool. You're kind of acting like a huge bitch right now though. C:
Enjoy your life. (y)




The only good thing about yesterday was my dad saying these things:
"Want to know where I was while everyone was graduating? In my backyard drinking a beer"
"He's just a little prick and she's just a little slut" (this is why you don't anger my dad :/)
And
"You can do it, Caroline"
:3


I had such a good day, omfg.
The beginning sucked balls.
The worst part was going into Flemming's office attempting to cover my arm o.o;
But I succeeded 8D
Religion was iight, but I got called down to the social workers office, we talked for quite awhile ;o
I just had a lot to talk about.
Musical theater was amazing. So fun. 
We did vocal warm ups, which confused me, but nbd.
Then we played Telephone, and I had the honors of starting it off with "bob the builders best friend is a toaster" everyone looked at me like I was insane, but whatever x3
Then we played Taxi. But Clara blogged about that so I'm not going to bother.
After school I went to the Coffee House auditions with Clara just to watch, then chilled with everyone in Science Olympics. Then ran away quickly to go wait for my dad.
He had to work he we rushed to get some stuff.
We traveled all around West dale, to clean some houses for this one guy my dad works for.
My dad let me text Aria with his phone, made my day, basically. :3
At this one house, the ceiling was so fucking low holy crap, I couldn't even go down there x3
I just chilled with some girls guinea pig while my dad worked.
Then on the way back to the truck, I was running then I slipped, and almost died. x33


Then I went to the Laundromat, and chilled and stuffs.
Then traveled to Metro to buy Ice Cream; best adventure ever. 8D
Now I'm listening to music, and talking to Stefan through fb xD
I'm just bored. ;P


I really hope Aria comes to Hamilton soon. 8D


I can't believe it took me this long to admit you two are so annoying together.
But I don't really care. If you want to get mad at me, go ahead. But I don't care if I make you mad or hurt your feelings, we're no longer friends, so your opinions no longer matter to me. c:
And go ahead, blame this all on me, but this really is no longer my fault.


Kay, I have to sleep now, 
school and stuff.
Kay night. C:

Lip rings are fun. 8D

So today, I spent the day with Sammie, Nick and Natasha. It was crazy good times. :3
We chilled at the Laundromat for most of the time.
Then went over to the Halloween store; Spirit Halloween.
It's so amazing over there 8D
I bought mustaches, rainbow socks, and some fake piercings x3
We all wore two, and it was just fun x3
At one point Natasha took six and put them all over her face, oh gosh xD
I stole Sammie's phone, and was texting Aria, he kind of hates me, and was being kind of rude. :/
But whatever...he's just clueless. (:
i'm gonna message him, hopefully he doesn't get annoyed by my constant messaging him :/
Now I'm watching Gossip Girl. :3
"You're world would be better with out me"
"True, but it wouldn't be my world with out you in it"
D'awww ♥
This lip ring is awesome, but it's starting to hurt x3
It's weird eating suckers with it bahaha.

I miss Chelsey Cole. :C

Kay I leave Laundromat now. Kay bye :3

:D...scratch that...D:*

ɑnd thɑt’s whɑt you do when you cɑre ɑbout someone. you fight like hell to mɑke sure you keep them. even if they ɑren’t yours, you fight just to know you’re ɑlive. becɑuse you know thɑt without them, you’d hɑve no reɑson to breathe.


I had a wonderful dream last night. :3
It made me happy, x3
Basically it just went like this:


Clara and Aria were over and we were making plans to have a big get together thing the following Friday.
I can't really remember Exactly what happened, or what they were saying. It was a good dream though, because Aria's cute and stuff. And Clara is awesome. 
Well, after that it was the next day, then Aria and Elizabeth came over to go to Eric's house, apparently.
Then we were all just chillin x3
then the next day, Aria came over with some girl :/


But it was still a good dream x3


If you're everything you say you are, then come close and hold my heart.♫


Omg, seriously? Please stop lying to me. This is starting to get really annoying.
Oh ps, when will you start caring that I exist again? Ever?
This is, what? The eighth time? :/
*rage*
*end rant*


I'm going to the mall with Hannah later. I was supposed to hang out with Quinn and Chelsey, but guess not... :/


Why is everything in my life such crap right now? ><
How come no one ever wants to hang out with me, or invite me to things? D:
This is no fun at all.
I'm such a lonely person, with no friends D:

Don't try and tell that you never loved me, I know that you did, you said it and you wrote it down. ♫

Dancing at discos, Eating cheese on toast. Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy, But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around. ♫


Holy crap, I love Kate Nash so much x3 her songs are so cute.
Please check them out. 8D


Just a warning, I'm feeling in a bloggy mood right now, so this post is probably going to be really long. c:


Starting now! 8D


So, I haven't gone to school in like 43875648 days. I have my reasons. I'll start going next week, though. I promise.


I was going to go today, but...I don't know. Again, I have my reasons for not going. I'll fix this though, no need to worry.


I woke up to giant gusts of wind, it was crazy o.o;
Redgie was terrified. And when I walked downstairs. IT WAS A DISASTER! It's like a hurricane came through the kitchen. Everything was knocked over, and the window fell out. Everyone was probably at school while this crazy wind thing was going on, but still, it was insane.


OHH! and yesterday...x3
So I was talking to Eric while this happened. I heard like this squeeling from outside, so I thought Squirrels were fighting or something, so I looked out the window, and on the telephone wire, I saw this figure. Mind you, it was dark and I wasn't wearing my glasses. But I do know that this thing was way too big to be a squirrel x3 I just assumed it was a raccoon or possum or something. But then it started snarling o.o; and the squirrel started squeeling really loud. It's like a squirrel was getting devoured. D; it was so horrifying. I took out my camera and recorded the sounds though. x3 even my mommy heard it, and usually it takes A LOT to wake her up loool


What else was I going to talk about? Hrmmmm.


So, Redgie is like really fat now. I don't even know what happened. He's like overly obese.


Hannah's coming home this weekend 8D
I'm so happy! I miss her. C:


Last night I couldn't sleep, so I ended up watching the rest of The Little Mermaid 2 ;D
Then, watched half of The Little Mermaid: Ariel's Beginning. x3
I love The Little Mermaid. C:


I was really upset last night cause a certain stupid, poofy-haired, fellow I know is just mean to me. I wrote a really long note/letter thing to him, but I never sent it. I just needed to get out my feelings of this situation, then I felt better. c:
I wish he gave a damn about my feelings for once :/ whatever.


But all you do is treat me bad, break my heart and make me feel so sad,
Tell me what did I do wrong, to make you stay away so long,
Yes baby love, my baby love, I need your love♫
LOOL funny how I found this song right when I wrote that. 8D


I have nothing to do tonight. I need to find something. I know Hannah's coming home tonight, but I don't actually have anything to do. 
I'm going with Hannah to get her hair cut tomorrow morning, then apparently hanging out with Chelsey and Quinn.
I was supposed to go to the movies with Sammie, but I don't know when we'd go, and I can't even remember what we're gonna see x3


I'm not going to the Hedley/Lights concert anymore. I wanted to go soo badly. I may just curl up into a ball and die. D:


I should probably clean the kitchen. Just so no one murders me for staying home today.


All I have been eating lately is Nutella Sandwiches. x3 they're good and all, but I need more food. ;c


All that is on my mind lately is this...fight? I guess you could call it that...between Aria and I. He's not really talking to me right now. I don't even know why. All I did was try and talk to him. Then he got mad. I guess I annoyed him mad core. Oh well...actually no...:C this is just stupid.


Well before I go clean the kitchen, I want to post awesome lyrics. 8D


Simply knowing you exist Ain't good enough for me But asking for your telephone number Seems highly inappropriate. Seeing as I can't Even say hi When you walk by. And that time you shook my hand It felt so nice I swear I never felt This way about any other guy And I don't usually notice people's eyes but... And when I saw you Kissing that girl My heart it shattered and my eyes, they watered And when I tried to speak I stuttered.
And my friends were like whatever You'll find someone better His eyes were way too close together And we never even liked him from the start And now he's with that tart And I heard she done some really nasty stuff Down in the park with Michael He said she's easy And if your guy's with someone that's sleazy Then he ain't worth your time 'Cause you deserve a real nice guy.
I don't ever dream About you and me I don't ever make up stuff about us. That would be classed as insanity I don't ever drive by your house to see if you're in. I don't even have an opinion On that tramp that you're still seeing. I don't know your timetable. I don't know your face off by heart
But I must admit. That there is still a part of me That thinks we might get on.♫


And something just went boom upstairs D: *scared*


And this song is just crazy cute 8D


I hate seagulls and I hate being sick. I hate burning my finger on the toaster and I hate nits. I hate fallin over, I hate grazing my knee. I hate pickin off the scab a little bit too early. I hate getting toothache, I hate when it’s a pisstake. I hate all the mistakes I make. I hate rude ignorant bastards and I hate snobbery. I hate anyone who if I was serving chips wouldn’t talk to me.
But…I…have…a friend… With whom…I like to spend Anytime…I…can find…with.
I like sleepin in your bed I like knowin what is goin on inside your head. I like takin time and I like your mind and I like when your hand is in mine. I like getting drunk on the tunes by the beach. I like pickin strawberries
I like cream teas and I like reading ghost…stories. 
My…heart skips a beat every time that we meet. It’s been a while and now your smile is almost like a memory
But then you’re back and I am fine cos you’re with me And I’m in love…with you.
And I…can’t find the words to make it sound unique…but… Honestly…you make me strong! I can’t believe I’ve found someone this kind. I hope we carry on Cos you’re so nice and I’m in love…with you…♫


And she said "Thanks, I like you too" and he said "Cool." ♫


Okay! Kitchen cleany time.
Blasting music while cleaning always seems like good motivation. C:


I just would like to say, whoever is reading this...I love you so much :D
You are just a great human being, and I adore you being my friend. c:
I don't think that last part made much sense, but just pretend it did, kay? 8D
♥


Adios dearest friends of mine. C:




Eww, Narcy just signed online.