Blorgen.

Lately, I've pretty much stopped caring about everything.
I kind of wish everyone would just stop caring so much aswell,
because I don't want to care about them worrying and what not.
I've just given up hope for myself.
I don't want to work on making things better.
I don't want to care.
I don't want to try.
Nothing seems worth it anymore.
Everything just seems like a giant ball of stupid that doesn't deserve any attention.
So many stupid problems lately.
So many people yelling at me for not gonig to school.
Excuse me, but it's my life, let me do what I want for once, kay? I know what I'm doing, and trust me, I'm not gonna end up like a failure.
Some people just make such a huge deal of everything. Like, chill.

Now some lyrics that match my life right now:

Once in awhile I act like a child to feel like a kid again
It gets like a prison in the body Im living in
Cause everyones watching and quick to start talking, Im losing my innocence
Wish I were a little girl without the weight of the world.

I've been in a bit of a Lights mood. I guess I blame senor Stefan Petkov. x33
A.k.a my new best friend. ;3 xD

Butnoreally. I love Lights. and her new video for Second Go just makes me so happy! I legitimately wish I could do that. Someone get me a white house, and a bunch of colourful paint, and I'm set for life! <3

My Redgie baby is at the vet right now, getting denutted. D:
Myd ad told me the operation went well, and now my baby is sleeping. I'm glad. <3

I hate feeling like I can't help my friends..it makes me feel like a terrible friend..*deepsigh*

o.o; and now some motivational lyrics for me, from Lights:

The times you dont want to wake up
Cause in your sleep its never over when you give up
The sun is always going to rise up
You need to get up, gotta keep your head up
Look at the people all around you
The way you feel is something everybody goes through
Dark out, but you still gotta light up
You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up.

I love her.

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And now, an owed to Sizzle:
When my sister, Emily, was five years old, she got a cat, named Sizzle, after the character from the show PuzzlePlace. Emily and Sizzle were best friends for fifteen years. Sizzle always seemed so miserable, but that is because that house was hers, and in her life, there have been five cats, and a dog running around her, and bugging her, she hated that. So everyone thoguht she was just plain mean, and was scared of her. A few days ago, Emily noticed some things wrong with her, and she began to worry. Sizzle was barely eating, she lost alot of weight, and many other things. So Emily, and her siblings, (me and Hannah xD) and our father went to the vet together. When we got there, the vet weighed sizzle, and that number on the screen made tears swell in Emily's eyes. Six pounds, Sizzle lost. The vet took Sizzle in the other room to give her an X-Ray. When the vet came back, she didn't bring Sizzle, but she showed us the X-Ray, and she told us she had multiple things wrong with her. She had fluid in her chest, which made it hard for her to breathe, she had kidney stones, and her knees were really bad, and a bunch of other things wrong with her, that I can't even remember. The vet told Emily that there was barely anything they could do, because even if they tried, the problems would still come back again. Emily understood, and didn't want Sizzle going through all that, so Emily decided to let her go, since she was so old, and in so much pain.
Emily burst out into tears, as did I. I hugged her, trying to make her feel better, but nothing would. She was about to lose her best friend. I, myself, couldn't stop crying. It was just so upsetting. I couldn't take it. I hate death. Especially the death of someone so important to our family.
We will always remember you Sizzle. <3
April 12, 1995-June 15, 2010. <3

I attempted to put pictures in here, but it wouldn't work.. :/


Until next time~