You've gotta stand for something or you'll fall for anything.

I'm now getting ready to go to Sammie's house.
She so kindly invited me over for a sleep over when I told her I wouldn't be hanging out with Stefan.
I really wish I was.
But oh well...

This weekend is going to be loads of fun.
I'm not exactly sure what Sammie and I are going to do tonight, but it shall be fun. 8D
And then tomorrow is that beach thingy.
I'm not sure who's going, I don't think alot of people are going. But it'll still be fun.
I think as of now it's just me, Sammie, Quinn, Chelsey, Eric I think, and I'm attempting to get Narcy to go. x3

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this. ♫

I'm still pathetic. T_T

fml.

I just went for a two hour walk to the park. At 12 am. It was fun.
I walked around the park at least 12 times, and then layed in the grass and stared up at the stars. I had my sisters phone with me, and was texting Narcy the whole time. I like talking to him. I miss him.
I just about walked into a tree while texting him, and I told him it was his fault, because he distracted me.
I went for this walk to clear my mind.
It didn't really work.
I just realized something.
But it's not that important.
So, maybe I'll keep this secret.

I was sitting on the jungle gym just listening to music. When my sister called, started yelling at me. So at 1:30 I went home.
She just yelled at me saying:
"You have a lot of problems, you know that Caroline. No wonder mom and dad don't support you, you just don't care about anything"

I go to bed now.
Try not to cry myself to sleep again. :/

*deep breaths*

I can't breathe.
Ever have that feeling when you have major butterflies in your stomach, and are just completely nervous and worried. Then you have that lump in your throat and you can't tell if you're going to cry, or be sick. Yea, I have that feeling right now.
I get nervous easily when I talk to people I like or people I think are super cool.
I've been texting Narcy on my sisters phone. And my stomach is just bidwivcrgkrtj-ing
I asked him if we could hang out right now, because he said he was going to Tim Horton's, and I really just don't want to be home, because my parents and I got into a slight argument. Narcy keeps saying how it's super far away, and how I should just stay here. But I really just want to get out of here.
I'm actually just so...ugh. I don't even know. I feel like he hates me. I tried calling him too, and he didn't answer.
It's mostly cause I checked what time the bus would be coming, and it was coming in ten minutes, so I tried calling him just to get an answer faster, but he didn't answer.

And the fact I've been blogging just about Narcy is kind of sad...D:
I'm so pathetic.
He probably thinks I'm so creepy.

50 posts in a month? Wow I'm good o.o;

Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving♫

I'm getting ready. Oh. So. Slowly.
Because I have two hours to kill.
To head to Quinn's house.
(Looool)

I had this crazy dream last night, and I can't even remember what it was about. It was about Musical Theatre, I know that for sure. Clara, Elizabeth, Quinn, and Stefan were in it. o.o;
I wish I could remember it.

All my life I’ve tried
To make everybody happy while I
Just hurt and hide waitin for someone to tell me
It’s my turn to decide♫


So Narcy hates anonymous me. :c
Well, he definitely doesn't love anonymous me, because he didn't answer me after I asked if he loved me. :C
I'm still waiting for "him" to message me back...I don't get it. What did I do wrong? T_T
...Everything, that's what. D:
Ugh, I was really looking forward to spending my Saturday with him...
Oh well...I'm now sleeping over at Sammie's house.
That should be fun...
I'm still dying on the inside though, knowing he didn't want to hang out in the first place.

I have to go finish getting ready.
:C

Lolololol this is funny.

Just because I have absolutely nothing better to do with my life, so I do stupid crap like this, I've been texting Narcy anonymously on my dads phone. Just cause I have no life.
He prolly knows it's me, but it's still hilarious.
This is the conversation;

me: I see you.
Narcy: K
Me: You suck
Narcy: Word
Me: Fo sho homie
Narcy: Right
Me: Yo, let's date
Narcy: I'm good
Me: ouch. okay, I see how it is Me: Will you have my children?
Narcy: No
Me: Why not?
Narcy: Cause

I'm still waiting for a reply..x3
I know this isn't even that funny, but I'm dying here.

This is just to fill time, and to refrain myself from getting even more upset because someone else won't text me back.

Me: You don't love me anymore do you?
Narcy: I don't know you o.o
Me: You do actually, we're secretly best friends.

If he ever sees this, I'm terribly sorry Narcy, I love you LOL 8D

Lyrics that explain my life right now. Also my favourite song. ♥

I’ll start this broken heart
I’ll fix it up so it will work again
Better than before
Then I’ll star in a mystery
A tragic tale of all that’s yet to come
Fingers crossed there will be love

But I get carried away with every day
And every fantasy
The deeper the wound,
The harder I swoon and wish that that was me
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I’m getting used to it
You have to get used to it

I’ll devise the best disguise
A brand new look and take them by surprise
They’ll never guess what’s not inside
I’ll express myself with ease,
With confidence and character complete
With fingers crossed, they’ll talk to me

But I get carried away with every page
In every magazine
The cheaper the thrill,
the deeper I fill my head with blasphemy
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I’m getting used to it
You have to get used to it

I’ll destroy this useless heart
I’ll fuck it up so it’ll never beat again
Not just for me but for anyone

But I get carried away
With every phrase and made up malady
The longer I hide behind these lies,
The more I disintegrate
There's so much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
You never get used to it
You just have to live with it

sdrjxfbenewxhurgcr fml

Maybe he'll forget?
Maybe he just won't go?
Or maybe he's leaving for three days and never planned on telling me?

Yea, the last one sounds about right.
fml.

I've been trying so hard to fight back tears.
But it's not working.
And he won't even reply to my messages.
What the effing hell did I ever do to him?
This is bull.
Someone kill me. Please.

Oh goodness.. *explodes*

Don't you hate when you get so worried and you feel like your stomach is gonna explode? Yea, that's me right now.
I feel like I'm gonna cry.
I can't take this.
I'm just gonna guess that I'm gonna be doing nothing this weekend. Anyone wanna do anything? -.-

:C

I feel like a horrible friend.

Dear Quinn;

"I want to have your children, let us get married, be with me forever, ps you have a nice face"
"don't say it"
"too late i said it "
"what would you do if he asked you out?"
"say yes"
"i thought you didn't like him?"
"i don't"
*bursts into a giant fit of laughter while i attempt to tell him a hypathetical story of why i would say yes*


"what is the cutest thing in the world? Quinn Fappiano, Quinn Fappiano. what is the cutest thing in the world, not Stefan Petkov or Narcy Sada. Quinn Fappiano cause he's hotta." ♫


I love late night phone conversations with Quinn. <3

looooooooooooooooooool so i was playing de blob, and was trying to beat the robot thing. and something horrible happened which would be impossible to explain, but i kept screaming "NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NONONONONO NOOOO NOOO NO NO NO"
then my sisster came and and was like "what the hell caroline?!?!?!" i couldn't stop laughing. xDDDD


I love Quinn.


Dear him, i wish you would text me back. kay thanks.

Lawlz.

"So I was watching this thing about Kesha, and she explained what her song Stephen was about. She said a few years ago she was obsessed with this Stephen guy and he just wouldn't call her"
"oh that sounds familiar, does that mean you're gonna become a famous singer and go to parties and get drunk all the time?"
Loool Quinn. ;P
no it does not. D;

I am bored.

YAY!

So I am very bored right now,
and extremely hungry.

I will share some news with y'all;
I now have 35 followers on twitter.
I feel proud.

On Team Lights, I am number four on her "intergalactic superheroes"
And I feel even more proud.
My impact is at 1168.
Which is pretty high. ^-^
once more missions are added, it'll be higher. ;DD
I also recruited Sammie onto Team Lights! 8D

So I'm waiting patiently for the weekend; when I actually have plans.
Like, I'm so bored T_T I have nothing to do.
Since, you know, Narcy is being mean, and won't answer me back about hanging out D:

I think I may make some waffles.

So worried D:

It's extremely lame but i'm so worried right now.
it's been thirty minutes. THIRTY MINUTES QUINN
UGHHHHHHHHH *dies*

Sadface.

So, I'm on the verge of tears, and I'm not exactly sure why..
I'm just sad for some reason.
Maybe it's the fact I feel forgotten,
or the fact I can't beat the last level of De blob
There's a scary robot at the end. :c
I don't know what to do.
It's scaring me.

100? I think so.

So what if I came clean
And told you all you mean to me
So what if I meant every word I said
Baby don't let it go to your head
So what if I write your name
Cause you're always on my brain
In a heart, I paint it crimson red
Baby don't let it go to your head.

I'm pretty sure this is my 100 post ^-^
I feel like I accomplished something amazing in my life.
Mostly cause I have like almost 40 posts this month.
Now that's an accomplishment.

I have like nothing to do today, I was gonna hang with Quinn, but I guess not :/
Now I have to clean the kitchen, and I'm just listening to music.
I just downloaded over 5o songs. Woot.

Anyone wanna do stuff the next few days? D:
I have no plans, whatsoever. *dies*
I asked Narcy if he wanted to hangout on Wednesday, but I don't even know if that's happening.

I have a problem. I worry way too much.
I keep thinking Narcy hates me, but he says otherwise.
I just worry too much, especially when people don't talk to me, I think they hate me.
And I over-analyze everything. It's kind of horrible, really.
But it's not my fault, if people don't explain things to me, I'm left thinking whatever I want. Like if someone doesn't talk to me and they don't tell me why they're acting the way they do, I'm left thinking they hate me. That's just the way my brain works.
That happens with half the people I know, so I somehow think everyone I know hates me. It's a great way to live. :/

I'm really excited for the weekend, but also worried about one thing. What if he forgets? T_T
Ugh, I need to stop thinking of all the bad things that could go wrong this weekend, because, really, it's making me sick to my stomach. Thinking about him not showing up just makes me want to cry/be sick.
I really hope nothing goes wrong though, because this is the only thing I'm really looking forward to.

Ohgod, I am so hungry, I haven't really eaten much lately, because, honestly, there is no food in my house, and I'm being serious. We never have food. Ever. T_T

Ohey sir, have some lyrics that be dedicated to joo;
What keeps the pressure building?
What takes your breath away?
What do I have to do to make you want to fall in love with me?
Fall in love with me
I want you to notice, what you've been missing
I want you to feel that, feel that deeper side of you. ♥

Wow, so I just realized I won't be able to go to Ottawa now...:/
fuccckkkk.
For various reasons^
That makes me wanna cry.


You definitely have my heart at the moment...♥

I love Alkaline Trio. ♥

Well I found you outside like a sunrise
That melted my eyes from my skull
As I turned into ash before my sweet demise
The end of me was so beautiful

Now you're stuck in my head like a love song
That climbed to the top of the charts
How the fuck could something be so right and so wrong
All the wrong words but all the right parts

And you can't sit there and tell me that I didn't try
And I can honestly tell you that I never lied
I can't stand this dark feeling, This shark eating me up inside
Eating me alive
Eating me alive

Well I found you up there in the moonlight
In your eyes there were diamonds like stars
I was bound by your father the jewel thief that night
As you said he was still behind bars

Now you're stuck in my head like a love song
The words I can never forget
As I sucked on your neck for way too long and drained you
Of every last drop you had left

And you can't sit there and tell me that I didn't try
And I can honestly tell you that I never lied
I can't stand this dark feeling, This shark eating me up inside
Eating me alive
Eating me alive

Here lies a homicidal story sad but true
The time has come and gone that I'd do anything for you

You can't sit there and tell me that I didn't try
And I can honestly tell you that I never lied
I can't stand this dark feeling, This shark eating me up inside
Eating me alive
Eating me alive
Eating me alive

ilml.

каикоωѕкı. says:
you has a nice face
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
YOU HAVE A GORGEOUS BODY I WANT TO SEX UP <3
каикоωѕкı. says:
quinn will pay to see that, he says
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
How much? :3
каикоωѕкı. says:
a hundred dollars
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
Hmm.
150
каикоωѕкı. says:
he says that's fine
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
200!
AND I WILL NOT GO ANY LOWER!
каикоωѕкı. says:
*laughs* he says that's fine too
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
.... 225? :3
каикоωѕкı. says:
why are you going higher? xD
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
Because he's paying us more to have sex, lool. xD
каикоωѕкı. says:
he says 225 and not a cent more
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
That sounds amazing/
Now... Caroline? will you have sex with me?
каикоωѕкı. says:
yes
i just got forced to say yes by quinn x3
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
LOOOL <3
you were going to say yes anyway, right? :3
каикоωѕкı. says:
well...yea $:
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
i love you.
so, we can have sex in front of quinn.. and get paid :3
(did you tell him it was 225 each? ;3)
and then.. dont tell quinn this part
but we can go back to my place and have sex the rest of the day
каикоωѕкı. says:
he said he already knew it was 225 each o.o;
and that's a good plan. ;3
cℓαrısαx - <3 ωasнıngтon says:
Okay, just gotta make sure
And yes!

oh hello there, just some lyrics dedicated to someone ;D

Like two ships in the night we're colliding and sinking
into the black sea of our love
We navigated past the port of logical thinking
lost sight of the stars up above

Now my heart is a mess, murder scene in my chest
not a clue how you got through the door
But I'm glad that you came, no regret and no shame
As I'm lying here dead on the floor

I took a blind leap of faith, its now crashing and burning
with my heart fast asleep in your bed
I got on the ground safe, but with my insides turning
and a picture of you in my head

As I wandered away deep in shock and dismay
in a daze just repeating your name
Well the fact of the matter is both our hearts shatter way too goddamn easily...

When you asked me if I'd stay forever, guess you meant just for the week
We felt so good together, it was way too good to be
When I left you there early that morning, my darling
I told you that I'd miss you so
I got on that plane with my heart soaring, but now it's falling like snow

:/

all the things I swore I saw in you
I never saw them coming true
maybe I just need to see your face
here we go again, again
I always seem to let you in
and it's my fault 'cuz I'm the kind of girl who stays. (8)

I hate the laundromat.

Today was a weird day, spent it with Sammie, then Eric came over, we went for a bike ride.
My mom is now extremely angry with me.
We visited Natasha.
Then ended up staying at the laundromat.
I'm still here btw, I'm about to leave. :/
I'm kind of in a bleh ish kinda mood...
I'm attempting to make plans with Narcy to hang out..it's not working.

kay bye.
holy shit there's a scary bug thing in here. *dies*

Ohgosh Sammie...

So Sammie is over at the moment, and she's drinking a Monster.
She's going crazy o.o;
She's now sitting on the floor on the fetal position.
I'm kind of scared. xD
This is what we've done today
- Went for a super long bike ride
- Hacked Kevin's msn. xD
- Talked to many guys on Kevin's msn saying "hey sexy"
We're now talking to Paul, and Eric.
She started talking to Narcy saying this(on my msn btw):
каикоωѕкı. says:
hey there goodlookin'
why is your name nancy? D:

She somehow got Eric to come over. xD
I'm actually dying, she's so hilarious.
teaching Sadie how to hug. xD
She gave Wedgie a Mohawk.
She just broke up with my dog. T_T
"Did you just belch?"

So this is the plan, when Eric comes here, she's gonna open the door and say "Hey sexy ;)"

We're off to the store soon to buy more Monsters. 8DD

"I know for a fact you can buy two Monsters for five dollars" -me
*flails* -Sammie.

Looool so we got bored, and somehow ended up on Stefan's YouTube channel o.o;
It was actually pretty hilarious, his videos are too funny. x3
We were watching his one video where he's just staring at the camera for like two minutes. We almost died. Then my dad called right in the middle of it. I couldn't stop laughing. x33
Here, watch his videos yourself. xDD
omg, he'll hate me for this.

http://www.youtube.com/user/usedthrones#p/u

"What else should we write about?"
"Potatoes"
YAY!

Maybe I was meant to be left behind.

Today is not a good day. I really don't feel like blogging about it, being the reason is extremely pathetic. But, it makes me want to die.
And because of this reason, I told Sammie to come to my house instead of meet me at school, because, of this reason, I won't be there. T_T
Yea, I'm pretty much giving it away, I know. Oh well.
I'm really in a horrible mood right now.
It all started yesterday, while talking to Quinn on the telephone.
I don't know what happened, something just hit me, a giant brick of sadness..
It may be about the thing that's supposed to happen next weekend,
or something else.
But right now, I just want to cry.
I just feel so alone.
Even though Sammie's coming over. (♥)
Is it stupid to still worry about those two people and the fact their not talking to me? Cause I can't help it.
I really just want to see them. :$
*cries*

Okay, okay, now I'm listening to Lights. Everything should be fine now. ♥

I'll be okay if you will sing the last thing on your mind, the last word on your breath, I'll be the one to keep you, one disaster less. ♫

I realized that whenever I talk, I always tell extremely stupid, pointless and boring stories. They seem relevant at the time, but after I tell them, I'm just like, "why the hell did I just say that?"...

I'll just listen to my new favourite song and everything will be alright. 8D
Animal- Neon Trees.

Hush hush the world is quiet
Hush hush we both can't fight it.
It's us that made this mess
Why can;t you understand?
Woah I won't sleep tonight. ♥

ergtrchyjuki

This was just so funny. ;P

Dudes, I'm on level like...eight of De blob. :)

Just something I want to get off my chest, don't bother reading this, it's a waste of your time.

I just want to talk to you...
That's it.
And the fact you won't talk to me,
completely leaves my mind utterly confused.
Because it's not like I did anything.
I just want to be your friend.
Why can't you just understand that?...
I want, more than anything, for things between us to go back to the way the were.
Not only to the way we actually talked.
But the way you tell me one thing, and everyone else says the complete opposite.
I just want to talk to you, without having to worry about annoying you.
I want us to be friends.
Please?
♥

Here we go again, I kind of want us to be more than friends.
Woah oh, what are you waiting for, take a bit of my heart tonight. ♫
(LOL I just love this song. xD)

grrrr.

So it seems facebook really does hate me.
all my notes disappeared. :/
i wanted to find a certain note i wrote but my notes are gone. :/

i love this:
"he wants to bomb your fuckin house,
with different, chemical compounds.
he's mad that you compared him to a stuffed mushroom toy
he said, that's not me, im a real boy"
*dies laughing*
Quinn pro at remaking lyrics.
especially about Stefan and Narcy.

Quinn, you should start talking now. since we're on the phone and you haven't said anything for the past ten minutes. Kay thanks.

Dear Chelsey and Quinn.

I hate you guys LOL
<34333 no you dont u love us 8D
...no i don't


YOU FUCK you know you love me and my bulging... muscles 8D

shut up Quinn.

:)

bye






Starting here;

So I was sleeping, then Sadie starting barking immensely and wouldn't stop. So my mom told me to go see who was at the door, but I was like "But mom! I'm not wearing pants D:" she still made me go, and said "are you expecting anyone?" and I said "Yea....dangit." then I put pants on, go downstairs, super tired, see Chelsey at my door, and she started laughing at me. D:
Gosh!
Now we're here, and Chelsey and Quinn keep giggling behind me. :/

Quinn: "Why are you touching my head?"
Chelsey: "That was so hard"

WTF xD

Quinns a douche bag, reactivated my Facebook while i was upstairs T_T
Kay bye.

*cries*

I just try to help people out, because I do my best to be a really good friend, so I tell people I'm there for them, and am there if they need me. Because that's what a good friend does. But no. Every time I try and help people out, they never want to talk to me. I try to help as much as I can. But people say they just don't want to talk, or anything else. And it makes me upset because you have someone, who is trying to help you, who is there for you, and you push them away.
Thanks alot.
You all make me feel like a horrible friend, when I can't help you out.


I;m seriously done with this...
Bye facebook.
So much drama happening over facebook that I just don't want to be apart of it anymore.

Sheep.

каикоωѕкı. says:
I am angry.
\\♥Quinntino♥// says:
me too
but dont worry about it
каикоωѕкı. says:
too effing late
i'm gonna go on a murderous rampage.
\\♥Quinntino♥// says:
NO
wait
:c
*grabs pitchfork*
lets go
>8D
каикоωѕкı. says:
LOOOOOL ILOVEYOU
\\♥Quinntino♥// says:
lmao x3.

Yay. :3 <3


Wow. I am so angry.
Why are people so effing stupid?
Like, I can't even believe it. ><

Omfg I can't stop crying.
Holy crap, I can't take this anymore.

Screw it, I don't care if *you* think I'm "starting drama" let me frecking talk about what I want.

You are so stupid. You think you're such a good friend, but you keep starting all of this stuff. You may not be starting it per say, but you keep it going, you don't let it go, you dwell in the stupid stuffs. Ugh.
And I honestly don't care that this is public, I can say whatever I want. If you have a problem with it, then complain about it to somebody else.
I know that sounds horrible, but I'm so sick of this.

I also cannot stop crying, because I miss Clara so much.
it's actually like, once she got onto that plane to leave me, she took a piece of my heart with her, now I'm incomplete until the day she comes back to me. D:

And just everything else is piling up again. The drama was gone for one moment.
But it somehow never fucking leaves me.
I want it to end. Now.

Why are all my friends so stupid? that really isn't meant to be taken offensively. Just, no matter what, my group of friends always has some sort of drama going on. People need to stop making such big deals of everything. I'm so pissed.

Whatever, I'm making changes to my friends list. Some people just don't belong there anymore. All they do is make me mad.

Loooool♥

\\Quinntino// says:
o.o;
i just called my moms phone and chelsey answered
im scared
каикоωѕкı. says:
Looool why are you scared? x3
that's actully funny though
\\Quinntino// says:
lmao xD it's just weird
xD
каикоωѕкı. says:
well i get it, your mom must be driving or something? xD
\\Quinntino// says:
lmao yeah but still
каикоωѕкı. says:
or chelsey kidnapped your mom and stole her phone and car?
\\Quinntino// says:
LMAO
omg caroline
i love you xD
каикоωѕкı. says:
xDDD
\\Quinntino// says:
xDD thatd be pretty bad if she kidnapped my mommy D;
i luhh my mommy ;c
каикоωѕкı. says:
That would be sad D: well thank goodness that didn't happen
\\Quinntino// says:
Lmao xD

Hannah and my plan.

So my sister and I came up with a brilliant plan while cleaning out the hottub.
We decided we don't even need a hot tub and a pool would be much better, so we're gonna sell everything in out backyard that our mom wouldn't notice is gone. We'll sell our bikes and the shed, and everything inside the shed, get a smaller shed and maybe some scooters. We'll sell a peice of our land. Sell half the stuff we own. Get a peice of Lights' hair and sell it on Ebay.
This plan is brilliant, we could definitely get enough money for a pool.

While sitting in the living room talking about this, Hannah hit me with a box of some sort, and my arm hurt really bad,
Then she said "you only need one, which is why you were born with two."
Then I said "yea, like your kidney's. WE CAN SELL OUR KIDNEY'S!"
"Yea! We'd get a lot of money for that!"

our plan will work. Holy crap, so excited.
I'll be lack of half of my belongings, and a kidney, but it'll be worth it.
xD

I hate summer school.

My stomach is making the rumbly's, that only hands can satisfy.
I'm being serious, I'm so hungry. T_T
Like, I'm dying.
Again.
Like yesterday, my head hurt so bad I felt like I was gonna die,
and no one cared.
Out of Chelsey, Scott, Quinn, Clara and Stefan, none of them cared. D:
Well, maybe except Clara. ;3
She offered her body to me. ♥

So I'm writing a research report on Joseph Bombardier.
Gosh darn it, I wanted to do it on Hitler. T_T
I love Hitler.
I actually love what he did. o.o;
Not saying killing 3489495945 people was a good thing, but he wanted to change the world the way he wanted it, so he did it. What was it? He became president or something, then got rid of the other parties or something like that. So he could run himself and do everything his way.
If I could, I'd do what Hitler did.
Minus the killing people part.
Putting them in camps.
And again, killing alot of people.
Just the taking over the world, trying to change it to become the way I want it to be. Sounds like a plan. (y)
And he had an amazing mustache.
That's an extreme plus.

I got to level four on De Blob.

I realized that the person who invented the stapler is seriously a genius.
I mean, inventing something that attaches two or more peices of paper together with a tiny peice of metal. How did they do it?!
GENIUS!

I have to get off the library computer now. :c

goodday to you all. :3

Ps; ♥ ;D

Edit: Just so she remains my most tagged, and just cause I didn't mention her;
Lights. ♥

I feel like without him I would fall.

So today I found this paper filled with quotes on it in my binder, which is where the title came from. ;P

Not gonna lie, I'm in a pretty amazing mood right now.
I'll tell you why.
-I'm getting two Lights shirts sometime next week.
-I bought a new game called De Blob
-I'm on level three in said game. ;P
-Alisha keeps commenting my pictures.
-Stefan and I made plans to hang out next week.
-Redgie is cute
-I have starbursts. Yummmmm.
-And I am now going to steal my sisters laptop and watch Pretty Little liars. :3

I wanted to take a nap earlier, but I wasn't able to because my mom needed help cleaning, so I'm just gonna watch Pretty Little Liars, play De Blob some more, then sleep. Maybe fit "calling Quinn" in there somewhere. (y)

oh, but while I go watch Pretty Little Liars, pictures are going to be uploading onto this computer. Yippiiee. -.-

I walk away now. 8D
♥

My adventure to buy LIGHTS.ACOUSTIC.

I couldn't find The album cover, but this'll do.

So the adventure started by me heading to Eastgate Mall. I hurried to HMV, in need of this album. I look around the store for it, but couldn't find it (OHNO!) So I ask the nice fellow there if he could help me out, because I was about to die. While he was looking it up on the computer, we had a lovely conversation about Lights, and he said her Second Go video was amazing, I just had to agree. ^-^
he said there was one copy of the album left, I was so extatic, you don't even know.
We walk over to the back, and it wasn't there D:
So he asked the random girl in the back where it was, and she said "Oh, I put it on the 'new Release' wall"
So, we walk over to this mystical wall, and there it was; one last copy of LIGHTS.ACOUSTIC. I jizzed when I saw it. (L)
When he was 'ringin' it up' we had more lovely conversations about Lights
"So, do you know if she's on tour right now?"
"Yea, she is, she has a show in Toronto on the 24th"
"And I'm just going to guess that you're going."
"Well...no D:"
"Why not?!"
"I'm not allowed :c"
*hands me the bag*
"Thank you so much! *skips away*"

On my way out of HMV, I saw Ashley and jelena <333
And I also saw my good friend Sarah.
I was just so happy.
Goshness! 8D

I'm listening to the cd now, and it's like extreme love to the ears. Beautiful. ^-^

There's not alot I feel obliged to share, worth talking about.♫

There's one thing you should know,
This is for real, this time I mean it,
I'm coming clean please don't let go.
I said from the start that you can take it or leave it,
I prefer that you keep it,
don't let go.
This is the best thing that I've ever had for real.
♫
I love Motion City Soundtrack. ♥

So today in history, this is what was said while looking at pictures;
"That guy at the bottom looks like Mr. T" -Anthony
"Yea, because Mr. T and Hitler were best friends" -Mr. Biagetti.
I died. x3
My history teacher is pretty hilarious.
Like once, he started singing Bad Romance by Lady Gaga because it was stuck in his head. And he's really sarcastic, which I love.
And he looks exactly like Mr. Agro. O.o;
They're like twins.

Dear you, I'm most definitely, terribly sorry.

Oh gosh, Motion City Soundtrack songs are all that is playing on my ipod right now, it's on shuffle. ;3 ♥

Maybe I need to stop trying. It gets me nowhere anyway...

Hey! Guoys! I's got my old best friend back. ♥
Aria and I be talking again, and I's happy,
He said when he comes down here to visit his sister who is going to university down here that he'll visit me. :3

And sometime in August, hopefully me, Chelsey, Sammie, and apparently Stefan are going to Ottawa to chill. :3
I'm so excited, it's gonna be hella fun.
And I get to see Aria, yayy!

I would never pull the trigger, but I've cried wolf a thousand times, I wish you could feel as bad as I do, I've lost my mind.♫

OMGOSH LIGHTS.ACOUSTIC CAME OUT TODAY HOLY CRAP I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVEN'T MENTIONED THIS UNTIL RIGHT NOW!!!! I'M GOING TO BUY IT SOON. YEAH! GAAAHHHHH LIGHTS♥♥♥♥
Kay, I'm done. :3

I really need to get a new cellular device.
It seems that now, everyone has one but me, well, except for a few people I know. x3
But really, Spencer is now getting a phone, and Aria asked me for my number but I was all "I has no phone D:" and he was all "Aww dang I wanted to text you"
Well....not in those exact words, but you get the point. (:
And I would like to text a few certain other people. ;3

Anyway, I'm off to go buy Lights acoustic album. then to the laundromat.
And SOMEHOW! wax the laundromat floors all by myself. T_T
I'm challenged, I can't do it.


No matter what they say, I'm not okay.♫


...Him. D:

Just a simple apology, no big deal.

I'm not immature.
I'm not purposely causing drama.
I'm just confused.
I don't know how to handle things anymore.
I'm sorry.
To everyone.
I didn't mean to start any of this.
I just wanted to fix it all.
I just don't know how.
I make it all worse.
But I really am sorry.

Wow. D:

This is becoming such a horrible day.
I'm getting yelled at by my father for just about everything.
Then he told me Joe told him a whole bunch of stuff about *my* situation that he has just about no business in.
Found out everyone is lying to me.
And to top it all off, My dad was about to order the Lights shirt for me, but they don't ship to Canada. Woot.
Now I just want to curl up in my bed and die.
Because even though people say it'll all get better.
It won't.
It just keeps getting worse.

All I wanted was to talk to you, you said everything was fine and that I did nothing wrong. Then I find out you get mad whenever I try to talk to you.
You could of just effing told me you didn't want to talk.

What has come over me? I'm about to lose my mind.

I never really ever know what to say, when all of my emotions get in the way. I'm just trying to get us on the same page. I always get it better right afterward, when all the wrong impressions are said and heard. How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey. Wish I could explaint the things that I have to work out.

I just kinda need to stop everything and think about who I am, cause everything that I am needs to be changed right about now.
I'm a horrible friend,
and I'm living in a world where I believe everyone hates me, and everything is horrible. And this is what needs to change. Because the past two days I've been messing everything up, and crying about it. I just have a lot of thinking to do.
I also have to think about who now deserves being in my life, cause as of now, people are making everying so difficult. And they are just being mean, stupid, and mean.

I am now listening to Lights album "The Listening" over and over again.
Makes me think of him o.o;
But it just happens.
♥

I'm looking at you looking at me, what can I do but say sorry. It's a little late but you know I just want you to be happy, what I got to say to make you let me get away with it this time, I know you're upset and that you're happy just to sit and hate me, but I'll make a bet that you'll be better to forget about me, Even better yet I'll let a little light melt the ice, ice baby.
Ice-Lights. ♥


And this also needs to be said;

We had a rocket, that fell out of orbit. We couldn't stop it, we couldn't control it. We were in a good course, it was a good flight, but I felt the heart force, holding me too tight. We are rockets, in the sky. We are planets, passing by. Up up and away. Forget me, go your own way.
Up up and away- Lights. ♥

I seriously love her. *expldoes*




Istillmisshim.:C

With a little poison they can burn this whole place down, to the ground again...

It's one way to afford a horizon and not to mention, It's one way to say we're abandoned, and we don't belong here at all, And romance just is...
Slow it all down, the damage is done,Play the music loud, don't make a sound, Lets raise a toast to the sad story, in a dirty cup, in a dirty cup, You made it, you made it hurt so bad, You made it hurt, so bad

Lights ♥
I want her new acoustic album. :3

I love Quinn and Chelsey.
Sammie's BBQ was loads of fun.

Now i'm on the phone with Quinn, and i can't stop crying.
Everything has been angering me today, and everyone.
like a certain five people.

And right now, there are three things making me feel better;
Quinn, Lights, and him (indirectly)

Seriously, Quinn is the bestest friend i've ever had,
because unlike the stupid people who made me believe they were my best friends, he cares, and actually listens to me.

Fall back down- Covered by Lights;

I'm very lucky to have my crew They stood by me when he flew. I've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue She's not the one coming back for you, She's not the one coming back for you. If I fall back down, you're gonna help me back up again. If I fall back down, you're gonna be my friend. ♥
(secretly to Quinn. :3)

I'm not yours, and you're not mine, but we can sit and pass the time. ♥

I can wait a thousand hours, stay the same in sun and showers, pick apart a hundred flowers, just to be quiet. Tell me when you feel ready, I'm the one, there's not too many, hold my hand to keep me steady, just to be quiet with youuuu.♥


There's not really a point to this blog. I just really wanted to post those Lights lyrics. o.o;
Because I love her and all. ANd she's not fake, kaythnx.

So I'm just sitting here, supposed to be taking a shower and getting ready for Quinn's arrival. But I'm lazy.
We's going to Sammie's BBQ party thinger. :3

I wish a certain someone was going to her party thinger. :/ :c

I guess I should go get ready now. :3


Carolyna, you traveled so far, trying to escape the pain, start again where you are, Carolyna, you keep following your star, no body said you're beautiful, you're beautiful the way you are.
Carolyna- Melanie C ♥


Ps. Istillmisshim.

How did you get so cold?

So I had a pretty alright day today.
Had mid-term exam today, easy as an easy bake oven. ;3
I finished first. Yay!
When we got out of school ,I met up with spencer, and we went to avondale, when we walked out, my dads truck was kinda just chillin at the school parking lot
"WHY IS MY DAD HERE?!?!" I uttered to Spencer.
I dragged him along with me.
That's just what I do.

My dad told me to go to the laundromat, I agreed, and I told him if I do, I wants to go to Lights' concert in exchange, he just laughed, which means no.
But then I asked if I could get one of her shirts, he deffinitely agreed. :3

My dad insisted that I go home first, I walk in, and everything from my room is gone, I freaked
"I"VE BEEN JIPPED. MY STUFF WAS JACKED"
I then went upstairs to Emily's old room, and there was my stuff;
My dad and Hannah moved my stuff as a surprise. <33
Everything was wonderful, I had a new room, I was getting a Lights shirt, and I was blasting Lights songs in my new room, while cleaning it.

Then I got forced into going to the laundromat, and got yelled at because I didn't leave at exactly 6:oo.

I'm now just sitting here in the heat, listening to Lights, loving her, and thinking.

Why am I so stupid?...
I keep bugging Narcy and Stefan about hanging out, when they clearly hate me...
I just don't get why they don't want to hang out, they say they will, but never do, I don't think they hate me or anything...I never did anything to them anyway.. :/

Well anyway...I want this shirt:



I am now going to post amazing lyrics:

First time we met your face became etched in my mind. You were the sun I was the one who worshiped you. My hands were your guns, your eyes were my "muse".
And I knew you could never love me, I had so much sorrow inside, you could never reach. But can I still keep a place in your heart?
You broke my heart. You promised me the moon and stars. I fell for your dreams, I fell for your lies, there was no other way, you know I tried.
And I knew you could never love me, I had so much sorrow inside you could never reach, but can I still keep a place in your heart?
There is something I want you to know I think you know exactly what it is, I didn't want to save you. I set our house on fire to watch it burn, but I couldn't just leave you. And I knew you could never love me, I had so much sorrow inside you could never reach but I'll ask you this, Will you still miss me? (Yes I'll miss you) Will you love me? (Yes I'll love you) (8)

Silverstein Feat. Lights
The end.
<3

Imisshim...

Lights, (L)

We all need to find a dream
We all dream about love
Cause these are the things we know for sure
If we have to scream
At the top of our lungs
To live without love is not what we're for
We'll make it the year we find the cure. <3

I love her.
So much.

It saddens me how I've never been to any of her shows or anything,
and I really wish I could go to her show in Toronto on the 24th. :c
But I can't..I has no money. T_T

I'm actually so envious of Stefan Petkov, who goes to see her and stuffs, and talks to her. Gawsh, I wish I could go with him next time he sees her. I wants to meet her. <3
*sigh* Stefan's a lucky person.. D:

Maybe I can convince my father to let me go to her concert? ;D

Please let this be worth the fall...

*Hold on, I need a drink before I start.
Ohdang D: we ran out of Coke, I guess Pepsi will just have to do...

*starts*
My knee has been in so much pain lately, roar.
I haven't been in the best mood, most of you probably know why..
Well, my knee, obviously, and another thing, but that doesn't need to be mentioned. :/
Summer school sucks, all I did today was legit slept during class, I was just so tired.
And seriously, I've taken that class like 3 times, I know everything.
So I slept, and journaled through the day.
I have 18 pages of random stuff that was on my mind that I just wrote down. Pree crazy. o.o
I read like half of it to Quinn x3 even though it's mostly just personal stuff, that I needed to vent.
After school, I limped home, was forced to clean right when I got there, nbd.
Then I messaged Narcy and Stefan to see if they were busy,
cause seriously, I was so bored and lonely, and everybody else was busy or something.
But they never replied so I just decided to take a nap, then when I woke up I got a message from Narcy saying he was too tired to do anything and that he's gonig to take a nap looool.
Stefan just never replied :/ but we did talk earlier, and said he wasn't able to go to Sammie's BBQ on saturday. Makes me sad, but oh vell..I tried :/

After my nap, my dad came home to pick me up, even thoguh I was completely out of it (tired as hell) and in so much pain I could barely move. So I am now at the laundromat. Still in pain. there was a puppy here, I almost died he was so cute <333

So now I'm sitting here, still in pain, waiting to start cleaning and stuff..
Listening to Lights, holymotherofpotatochips I seriously love her so much!
If I could I would marry her and have her children.
You know, if I was capable of doing so.
Kay I walk away. <3

Eminemememem.

I do whatever it takes
When I'm with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I aint
With you I have zero strength
Theres no limit on how far I would go
No boundries no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we thinks
Gonna be that one and then once we get em its never the same
You want them when they dont want you
Soon as they do feelings change
Its not a contest and I aint on no conquest for no mate
I wasnt lookin but I stumbled onto you mustve been fate
But so much is at stake what the fuck does it take
Lets cut to the chase
But a door shuts in your face
Promise me if I cave in and break and leave myself open
That I wont be makin a mistake

IImma space bound rocketship and your heart's the moon.
And Im aiming right at you Right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aiming right at you Right at you Right at you

Tears streamed down both of my cheeks
Then I let you just go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple
I told you this:
And I would do anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But its over now
Its too late to save our love
Just promise me youll think of me everytime you look up in the sky and see a star cause imma space bound rocketship and your heart's the moon


Space Bound- Eminem. <3

Wootwoot.

Today was a good day.
I spent the day with Chelsey and Quinn; best friends. <3
We went to gage park, then got free slurpees from 711.
I made a friend named Robert, he's a squirrel.
He had nuts in his mouth. <3
We went to Mcdonalds and I boguht a double cheese burger
Double Rainbowwww!

What does this mean? So bright, so vivid,
What does this mean? It's starting to look like a triple rainbow. ♫♥

We created alot of inside jokes.
The only songs we listened to today were Your Man, Your love is my drug, and Stephen by Kesha. <3

You know my mushroom named Nancy? Yea, I accidently kept calling it Narcy, now that is its name..x33
I'm holding him now. <33

I borrowed my dads phone to text Stefan. :3
Made my day pretty much. *nods*

Loooool "heading to lady gaga" Quinn..x33

My day kinda got ruined when,
1. He stopped texting me back.
2. I fell off my bike at the park and completely injured my knee; it hurts so dang bad. :C
Then my dad kept making jokes about it, which just made me want to cry..
Glad Quinny was there to help me walk. :3 <3


On another note;
I no longer care what people think, at all.
If some people can't be happy for others if they like someone, then they shouldn't belong in your life.
That situation is in the past, so stop worrying about it. Let it go. It doesn't matter anymore. Just worry about the future and present (even though, technically there isn't a "present" if you think about it) like who you want and don't worry about what stupid jealous people have to say.
That was Caroline's deep paragraph for the day.

Butnoreally; a certain three people are mad about this. Get the eff over it. Especailly their situation, dudes, it's done.. :/

Butyea, I lied, and I don't care what people say, I'm done with denying it.
You live once, and if you're gonna live life by living lies and keeping from doing what you think is right, then eff that.
But yea; <3 :3
And if things don't work out, fine, I don't care,


and I love Quinn kaythnxbye. <3

Woah, that was creepy...

So I was laying in bed about two minutes ago, about to take a nap, and with the song Stephen by Kesha STILL stuck in my head.
I was singing it and this happened.
"Stephen, why won't you call me, I'm sitting here waiting, why won't you call-" (8) *phone rings*
Me: O.o;
It was just my sister, but you know..twas still very odd..xD

That's all I have to say.

69.

69th post. ^_^
*feels accomplished*

So talk to me and make me feel fine; I hope you care all the time. (L)

I want this damn situation to be fixed already.
Really? That's your reason? D:
If it is, get over it.
It's not a big deal.
Even if it is, that shouldn't prevent you from talking to me.
Sadface..

I miss Clara.
My iced capp melted. D;
I love Lights.
I broke my own unbreakable vow. T_T
I'm at the laundromat, and I'm bored.

Love me even if I'm a mess, take me as I am bad or best. <3
You balance me out; you're the minus to my plus.
Lights^ <33

I'm such a mess right now. Like, it's so freaking hot in the office. I'm so hot right now. And so ugly. Like, I can feel the ugly. D:

So charlie may come visit me. That's cool. I don't even care, I'm that bored/lonely, that I'd ask anyone to visit me, even Barney. ;o

My iced capp be gone. :c

And I got you all figured out, you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen. (8)

I love Sam Hart, like oh my gosh, so much (L)
He's brilliant.
And beautiful.
And his voice makes my heart melt.
He covered I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat;

But I never told you, what I should have said,
No I never told you, I just held it in.
And now, I mkiss everything about you,
Can'tt believe I still want you.
After all the things we've been through,
I miss everything about you, without you.(8)

Let's go away, even thoguh it's a long way. <3 (8)

In my eyes he can do no wrong, in his mind i'm a little child. He's the words in my favorite song, but to him I am juvenile. I'm the love he will never love I'm the friend that he calls a friend and if i'm not the careful crush I'll be one heart, one woman and then.. (8)

I just made a new friend. ;D
Her name be Caitlynn, she went to BR last semester. We just started talking like right now. xD

Kay I'm done, I'll just keep posting random lyrics. xDD
Peace :3
Ps. I wish Quinny gets better soon. <3




Confession; I lied. <3

Wow.

People are so stupid.
Like really.
I'm trying to give up here, because I don't want to deal with this damn drama anymore.
So just stop.
Everyone is now involved in all this crap; everyone hates me. Thank you so much.

Whatever, I'm not even going to talk about this anymore.
It's done.

oh, and nice job trying to be friends. (y)

Grrrrr.

So I would like to thank a certain three people for effing ruining my day. Thanks a bunch.
Cause I definitely haven't been in such a horrible mood lately, and it really needed to be worse.

1. I did nothing to you. You say I did. But I did not. So fucking talk to me. Cause the fact you're not fucking talking to me for no reason is fucking pissing me off. >.<

2. I hate you now. So shutup. You think I care if you don't want to talk to me anymore? Well I don't. I'm sick of you now, and all this stuff you've started.

3. Gosh, why do you have to always assume stuff about me? T_T


I'm done. With life.

How much I love my life;

Looooooooooooooooooooool <3

YAAAAAAAAAAAY.

"Oh dorito you are so sexy, please date me, see I'm drunk yaayyyyy. Dorito and I are going to get married. Why do you have to write all my shit down, of me being pretend drunk, make sure you write that down. OM NOM NOM. I'm not drunk, how about that?"

I like energy drinks.

My computer is working again.

Quinn is boss.

I am now fasinated by the letter Q *stares*

"Die, eat it, eat it, die die! Oh he hit me, he's not dead. Okkay i have to be really careful here. Ohhh i died, thanks alot Caroline, you're not even encouraging me to win."

So yesterday at two in the morning, i was on the telephone with Quinny (ooouuuuu Q) and i couldn't sleep. So he told me to sleep on the floor. And instead of getting up and sitting on the floor like a normal person, i rolled off my bed and landed on my back. I am retarded like that.

This is why people shouldn't give me energy drinks. GAWSHHHHHH.

Quinnnnn <3

;D

he be beast at that game or somethang.

"pssst. pssssssst.PSSSSSSSST. PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTTT"
"What?"
"I tried getting your attention"
"hi."
"HIIIIIII"

*random fit of laughter*

каикоωѕкı. says:
quinn wants your babies
bokma says:
who the hell is quinn
каикоωѕкı. says:
my saviour
bokma says:
uh huh

"Mmmmmmmmm person *pets* he's right beside me, and i'm stroking his face.
Person! Where did you go?!?! I didn't turn you off! D:"

"i'm your saviour"
"That's a lights song!"
"Ohgod. you're talking to the wrong person abouyt lights"
Who am i supposed to talk to then?!"
"Stefan"

"Caroline, who sings this song?"
"Lights ;DDDDD"
"Maybe you should keep it that way!"

Quinn; he is super cool, yaw.


Random person; i like his face.

I'm liking my new layout.

So I realized, the feeling of being replaced isn't the best feeling ever. And to feel said feeling twice in on night is slightly..well, the opposite of good.
everyone likes them more than me now.
Everyone cares about her way more than me now.
And I don't even know how it happened.

I'm gonig to take a nap,
I stayed up until four am with Ashley and Joe.
So many adventures in one day.

Yesterday was one of the best days ever;
Pool party with best friends, wandering the streets with said best friends, getting lost, more fun times with other best friends, laughter, jokes, getting wet, scaredness, hugs, anger, annoyances.
While all of us went to Tim Hortons, I was sitting with Ashley, talking about our feelings, and then I started crying..I don't know if Aaron noticed or not, but he did try to make me feel better, without even knowing if I was sad or not. xD
(I kow I skipped through the story, but there's too much)
Ashley and I left Clara and Joe at 2am ish, we went back to my house, sat around and talked, then at around 3, we went out to find Joe on kind street. Went to tim hortons, then sat in my kitchen, then slept.

I love my friends. <3

Not even going to lie..

I've been getting annoyed by people telling me:
"You shouldn't say/shouldn't of said that, people will get mad"

I honestly don't care at all anymore. Can I please just say whatever I freaking want without having to worry about every other persons feelings or what they'll say.

I don't care if he knows this, or gets mad. If I want to say it I will. No one controls what I can do or not. If he, or anyone gets mad, annoyed, or anything from the things I say, that's their problem. So roar.
I hate feeling controlled. If i want to complain on my blog that a certain someone isn't talking to me, I will, and expect no one to say I can't. Because contrary to what everyone thinks, I don't like him, I just worry when people, when anyone, doesn't talk to me. So there.



That was a wonderful rant of the day.
Now I must go call Clara and get ready for later.
My goal for July and the months after, is to start tagging my posts.

OHHH I wan to tell you about my dream last night;
So it was Clara and I, and we were walking around aimlessly, and we were in this store or something, and on our way out we spotted Narcy, Stefan, and Eric just standing there waiting for us. And Narcy had a megaphone. Which was awesome. And Eric attempted multiple times to steal the megaphone away from Narcy, which wasn't too nice :c
And I don't know exactly why Stefan was there, he didn't really do much, not saying his presence was unnecessary, he was just kinda being random and making us laugh and stuff. ;P

I'm not trying to tell you,
But i want to
I'm scared of what you'll say,
So I've been hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of holding this inside of my head.
I've been spending all my time just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm falling for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now i found you
I don't know what to do,
I think I'm falling for you,
falling for you. (8)
I love this song ^_^

Ughhh.

I have been laying right here, in my sisters bed, for four hours straight, waiting for his reply.
It's not that sad, seeing as he said we'd hang out, but he never replied..
So while laying here, I had multiple naps, with multiple dreams.
And he was in everyone D:
Now I have nothing to do,
Because HE DIDN'T REPLY!
Grrrr D:
I still have all day.

Unless, of course, he is ignoring me.
Which he most likely is.
Why wouldn't he? It's me.